Micki P's NDE

Experience description: 

SECOND SUBMISSION:  I had a problem in my marriage and decided that everyone would be better off if I was no longer around.  I took an over dose of a drug that would put me to sleep forever.  Being a "back sliding Christian" at the time  I believed that I would die and go to hell for a suicide, but I still got on my knees and prayed for forgiveness for what I had done. I was filled with the holy spirit then and I felt like I was forgiven by God.  I began getting sleepy and I laid down on the bed still asking for forgiveness and telling God that I loved him. 

Before I knew it I was floating over the top of my bed looking down on my lifeless body.  I could see myself and I knew I was dead. Suddenly I felt myself being pulled through this huge, vast area, there were no walls that I could see but I felt that I was being pulled through a tunnel with the light getting brighter and brighter. After a while, I was suddenly standing in front of this beautiful wrought iron Victorian gate, covered with the largest and most brilliant colored flowers I had ever seen.  Huge flowers 6 times larger than those we know on earth.  The gate was partially opened amidst this huge cloud of nothing but brilliant white. the gate was to my right. I placed my hand on the gate to go through it. At that moment I knew that it was the point of no return. 

But just before I entered, a voice in my mind spoke to me, I turned to look to my left and there stood Jesus Christ, I could see his nail prints in his hands and feet but they were not in his hands, they were more in his wrist area and angles out as though they were torn from his weight.  There was no verbal speaking, just mental telepathy.  I ran to him and wrapped my arms around his feet, kissing his feet, and telling him how much I loved him,  his arms came down and he held my head close to him as I cried hard. 

He turned and looked upward toward his left, at that point, I stood and looked up to where he was looking (on my right) and I could tell that I was standing at the base of a huge stairway, (I called it a huge throne) with the most brilliant light shining down from it.  It was God.  Jesus was standing on the right hand of God at the base of his throne.  I began talking to God telling him how much I loved him and Jesus. But God would not answer me. At that point I could tell that Jesus was communicating with God through mental telepathy, telling God how much I loved him and believed that he died for my sins. 

God then spoke mentally to me and told me how much he loved me. (Jesus was the mediator between God and I) God would not listen to me without Jesus first talking for me. God spoke mentally to me and told me to go back, your time has not yet come. I pleaded with him and fell to my knees, begging him not to send me back. No thought of the world was inside of me, it was all heavenly minded.  I was crying and begging so loud that I suddenly felt Gods arms come down (There were no arms but I felt them) and he lifted me off of my feet and cradled me as a mother cradles her baby against her breast. (He rocked me and held me in his arms) he gently placed me back to my feet and then told me that I had to go back because I children that were going to be born to me and I needed to go back and receive his gift of children.  (At that time in my life doctors told me I could not have children before I died). 

The second that God told me he was giving me children, I immediately became earthly minded and began my trip back through this vast area until I was again hovering over my body in bed. I felt my feet enter through my fleshly head and lower itself into my lifeless body.  When I opened my eyes my husband was on his knees praying to God to NOT  take me from him.

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FIRST SUBMISSION:  My marriage was failing, I knew suicide was wrong but I took a lot of pills, got on my knees and asked God for forgiveness.  I started getting sleepy and went to my bed praying the whole time, asking God for forgiveness.  Suddenly I was floating over my bed looking down on my body. I was near the ceiling. I knew I was dead. I could see myself in bed. 

I began going through a vast area traveling through a wide unknown area.  I saw all white,  I saw a beautiful gate that was half opened, I walked to it and just as I was entering it a voice (not a voice but mental telepathy) caused me to look in the direction where I saw Jesus Christ and scars in his wrists.  I ran to him and fell to his feet crying and kissing his feet, I kept telling him I loved him.  He helped me stand up and I looked up at this huge throne where a bright light was coming from.  I knew it was God.  I began talking to him telling him how much I loved him but he would not listen to me. 

Jesus looked up at him and began speaking to him for me. At that point God listened.  Now I know what the bible means by Christ is the mediator between God and man.  God understood and told me to go back.  I begged not to go.  I felt such love and peace there.  He told me is was not my time.  He could not make me go back unless I wanted to.  At that point he told me that I had children that were going to be born to me.  At that second I desired to go back and he sent me back.  Jesus stood on my left in front of Gods throne. That would have put Jesus on Gods right hand.  Amen.  It is REAL...  praise THE LORD.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes

I took an overdose. But questions regarding the bible were answered and I KNOW THAT THIS WAS REAL.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No: Yes

the beauty of heaven and the brilliant colors that were there  especially the love that was felt there. No words can describe in our language.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I WAS DEAD: I KNOW I WAS IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   NO WAY: NO WAY. IT WAS REAL.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

A SPIRIT .  PEOPLE COMMUNICATED THROUGH MENTAL TELEPATHY.:  I LOOKED DOWN UPON MY LIFELESS BODY AND HAD NO CONTROL AS TO THE PULLING ME THROUGH THIS VAST AREA.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           GOD TELLING ME TO GO BACK IT WAS  NOT MY TIME :  NO SOUNDS. JUST MENTAL TELEPATHY

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      A VAST WHITE AREA, NO ENCLOSURE BUT I FELT IT COULD HAVE BEEN  A TUNNEL SO VAST THAT YOU COULD NOT TOUCH THE SIDES OF IT

Did you see a light?           Yes

THE MOST BRILLIANT LIGHT THAT YOU COULD NOT SEE ON THIS EARTH

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

I TOUCHED JESUS AND HE HELD ME,  GODS SPIRIT HELD ME AGAINST HIM

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

NOTHING OF THIS EARTH WAS IN MY MIND. IT WAS ALL HEAVENLY

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

A GATE.  I BELIEVE THAT GOD KNOWS WHAT KIND OF GATE WOULD DRAW YOU THROUGH IT. FOR EXAMPLE A COWBOY WOULD NOT BE DRAWN TO WALK THROUGH A GATE WITH FLOWERS ALL OVER IT. I BELIEVE IT PLACES A GATE THAT ATTRACTS THAT PARTICULAR PERSON TOWARD IT.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?            Uncertain: Yes

I KNOW WHEN CERTAIN PEOPLE ARE GOING THROUGH PROBLEMS OR ARE GOING TO DIE.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes

THE GATE OF NO RETURN

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

I WAS TOLD THAT I WAS GOING TO RECEIVE A GIFT OF CHILDREN FROM GOD

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

I WOULD NOT COME BACK UNTIL GOD GAVE ME THE DESIRE TO COME BACK BY HAVING CHILDREN

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

JUST WHEN SOME PEOPLE ARE HAVING PROBLEMS OR FIXING TO DIE

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

IT IS HARDER TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD NOW, BECAUSE IT IS SO CRUEL.  IN HEAVEN THERE WAS SO MUCH LOVE, AND HERE THERE IS NONE

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       EVERY ONE SEEMS MEAN TO ME. :  I HAVE BEEN MARRIED 6 TIMES.  NO ONE CAN GIVE ME THE LOVE THAT GOD GAVE ME.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

I AM VERY MUCH A CHRISTIAN. AND I HELP OTHERS CONSTANTLY, EVEN HOMELESS. GOD SENT ME BACK FOR A PURPOSE, NOT TO JUST LIVE.



Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

JUST A FEW FRIENDS:  A FEW PEOPLE AND MY CHILDREN

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  LOVE:  I CANT WAIT UNTIL I DIE AND GO TO HEAVEN FOR ETERNITY

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      HEARING GOD KISSING JESUS :  KNOWING I WAS SPECIAL ENOUGH FOR GOD TO SPEND TIME WITH ME AND GIVE ME MY KIDS

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        THE LOVE IS UN DESCRIBABLE

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

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