EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I was driving to work. Not speeding. In an instant the truck was on its side
....sliding along the soft dirt shoulder of the road. My vision simply faded to
black like in the old movies. All sound stopped. There was no feeling in my
body. It was dark. I was not in a body. I was AWARE I was in the dark. I was
aware that I was observing and actually thinking. I thought, "Huh, that's it
huh". I experienced only a moment of fear before I faded back into a body full
of pain.
There was a witness to the accident. He said that it was like watching an
invisible kid play with a toy. The truck lifted straight up, turned side-ways
and slammed on the drivers side. Then slid along. Then flipped twice across to
the other side of the road. Then flipped over from back to front until it was
upright. He didn't think I was alive he said.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes Fluid build-up in the brain and broken neck.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
from the beginning to the end.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
from the beginning to the end.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I knew I was in the dark, in what I know to be a void. I was aware of
my being there without a body.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes Nothing loud or soft....no sound but awareness of thought.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
None really....as if I were a just an observer
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes There was no time except before I was in the dark.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Uncertain in a way, I considered there was no order or purpose
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes A few people. Disbelief mostly or just ponderance.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes I had ushered a woman out of her body once. she was very light when I
picked her up to give cpr but once I told her I couldn't help her and it was ok
to go home, her body was too heavy for me to even budge.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real Angry. Afraid. Hurt. Despairing.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Yes. that it was so fast. that the experience itself led me to the idea that
in fact, the dark was all their is with no God or heaven or light or meaning.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I still suffer physically from the accident so
it is a reminder daily what I had lost before the accident and what I have lost
since then. The experiences during the 1st 24 hours only confused me and I felt
resentful, unfairly chastised and doubted a God had no particular interest in
helping me as a person. I am still ambivalent.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I am
closer to my husband and mother but distrustful of anyone else. I am more
resentful and avoid people when I can.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
It
solidified my experience that God did not have my best interest at heart...if he
has a heart. I had a visitation by an angel in the first 24 hours after the
accident and although comforted by it, on the other hand, I was hurt and felt
unfairly abused.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
It
took from me more than it gave....just as life does no matter how kind and
loving in intent..
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
Be more open to the many of us of whom the experience has done nothing
particularly good for their lives.
