Michael AS's NDE

Experience description: 

      I was drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes all morning. I went to mow the lawn, when I attempted to start the lawn mower, I became aggravated because continuous pulling on the starter rope failed to start the motor. My adrenaline kick in and I continued pulling on the starter.  My heart when into rapid convulsions and palpitations, I have had a heart problem due to stress, and I was born with a heart murmur. I thought to myself now look what you did you started the heart problem again. I need to stop for a moment and relax, but this time my heart continued its convulsions.  I quickly grabbed my arm to check my pulse, there was none my heart had stopped. 

I felt no pain from its stopping. I became weaker and began to stumble around eventually collapsing to my Knees.   I looked at the trees end the neighbors house. The colors begin to pixel into solid square blocks of colors.  Like if you slowly move closer and closer to your monitor screen until you're nose touches the screen.  Then I saw black color still fully conscious but no longer in my backyard.  I never really thought that I could be passing over never occurred to me.  I had no more body, could not feel hot or cold. I didn't need to breathe, I didn't hear any sounds. I was pure consciousness. as I looked around but not through my eyes I just had vision and consciousness.  I saw a black void endless in depth. I remember just thinking humm ok big black void? as I was floating in the void I turned to see what was pulling me forward slowly.  I didn't feel any force on me just the sensation of being pulled towards something.  I looked forward if you call it forward and saw a light in the void.  I would say it was about 400 yards ahead of me and I would be there in about two minutes, at my constant speed. as I drifted towards the white light that twinkle like a star, it didn't hurt to look at it. after the year I finally realized the passage in the Bible, I believe it goes as I enter into the valley of the shadow of death I fear no evil.

Suddenly and quickly faster than I enter the void, everything went into reverse and I moved away from the white light.  colors that were blocks of color began to focus again and I saw the trees and house clearly again. I was back in my body in the backyard. I felt sick end was going to be sick to my stomach.  I got up from my knees ,and went back into the house .  It laid down and pondered the experience.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I have had heart palpitations, but with this event I know my heart stopped .because I know the feeling of the palpitations and normal heart rhythm. and I could feel my pulse had stopped.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I was fully conscious of the event and could see clearly in my mind's eye what was happening around me.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  no it was real just like being here.  but that I didn't have eyes to see with only my mind eye of consciousness.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  as I entered the black void I realize my body was no longer with me.  I could see but only with my minds eye like dreaming but everything was clear and I was pure conscious having retaining all knowledge of my life and memories. I was not any smarter.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  I was not sure what was happening during the experience. I was just curious of what was it I was seeing.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  I heard nothing only my own thoughts of thinking what is going on.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Uncertain

      Describe:  it wasn't the tunnel or enclosure just a black void of endless space and the white light ahead of me.

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  yes the classic white light that doesn't hurt your eye's.  Or should I say my consciousness eye's

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I don't know how long I was out in the black void.  but my body was cool when I returned to it .

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I have been psychic before the event, but never really investigated my abilities. but I now can communicate with the dead, for people who wish to talk to them.  But other psychics take 20 or more years to fully developed their abilities like John Edwards from sci-fi channel.  Or James van Praagh.  I got their books and studied and can do it. but it's only been six months and I really wish not to continue because it's a decision that I made because it would be a lifelong endeavor to fully study and development my abilities to their full potential. and I do not want to go that path.  I know I can do it therefore I know the ability is real. I have done readings for co-workers and some say I was on the money.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I know their is a supreme creator and life is not a cosmic bang phenomenon caused by space dust and amino acid's.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I know I can't change people ideas about life but I can share my experience. I go about life as I have before but with a little more respect from time to time for people.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  they are mediocre in neutral in their feelings but more of a positive response from religious Christian believers.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  just that life isn't a mistake.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  the best part of it is knowing there's really something after death.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I think life is all about becoming a better perfect person.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I believe more in a supreme creator.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire?  non-that I can think of.