Experience description:
I was admitted on
August 10th 2001 for surgery. (Hysterectomy) The next day, I experienced severe
abdominal pains. The Gynecologist called the help in of a Surgeon on Sunday
12August. I was sent for various scans/x-rays. By 13th of August I was extremely
weak, could hardly even breath. My stomach was so swollen, I felt like it could
burst. (I wished for it to happen, as I could not stand the pain any longer)
The Tuesday around lunch time, my mom was visiting me in the hospital room. I
saw my uncle's face, as if in a dream, but yet awake. Told her he had an orange
glow around his face, and looked so good.
The next
moment, I saw myself drifting out the hospital, over valleys, (could clearly see
the Aloes beneath) then over the beach, the sea and the next moment I was on top
of the clouds. The sky was beautiful clear. The clouds formed a white floor,
(same as what you sometimes, on a clear day experience, when you are flying 20 -
30 000 feet high) Then I saw a sun ray, which looked similar to a spotlight
moving from far over the clouds in a circular motion closer to me. I tried to
touch it as it got closer to me, but it pulled away. In the right-hand corner of
my scope of view, I was aware of two shadows. (Similar to when you are in a
movie house, and you see the black silhouettes of the heads of the people
sitting in front) I was not scared of them, but they did make me feel
uncomfortable. I asked God to please protect me from them. I saw the sunray,
and wanted to dive into it. I heard something similar to a choir of female
voices, telling me/ singing to me, that it is not my time yet. I did not want to
listen to them.
The sunray
came passed me again, and I dove underneath it....
There are
absolutely no words in ANY language that can describe the utter sense of
peace/joy/contentment/happiness which I had experienced. I remember thinking,
how could I not have realized how heavy my body was on earth? ..remember
comparing my body's weight to a 5ton elephant! ..how light I felt! How fast I
could move! I could think of myself/see myself as a ball of energy & moving so
fast!
The
feeling of peace, could be at best, described as follows: Try and think of THE
MOST relaxed & calm state in which you have EVER been! I compare it to being
totally alone, with my ears submerged under the water in a bath. There is no
sound....you're completely relaxed.... well this comparison to that of the
peaceful experience I encountered could be compared to still sticking your head
in a bee hive!
I asked
God, that if it was truly not my time yet, to please tell me what my purpose on
earth was.. then I woke up in my hospital bed... for something that felt like
hours, my mom told me I was just "gone" for about two minutes! I woke up
smiling telling her, I know what my purpose on earth was! To find joy and
spread joy! Sound so simple.... A short while later they pushed me back to
theater.. (my intestine got perforated, during the initial hysterectomy and the
leak caused my body to slowly being poisoned) Psalm 23 repeated in my mind over
and over...
Approx. 2
months later....
Although I
knew my purpose on earth now, I could not imagine that it was so simple.. In any
how, I was a kind of happy/joyful person, so what? Then my husband, who have
NEVER in his life, attended any Christian courses etc. decided one Monday
night, to join a friend of ours, (whom we have not seen in close to over a year)
on a disciples course. He attended this on the Thursday and came home telling
me about the part in the New Testament, where the rich man, who had everything,
asked Jesus what he could do to inherit eternal life.. Jesus told him give up
everything you had, and the man could not do that. somewhere in between all of
this, my husband uttered the following words. And God said, find Joy in me, and
spread it! I was stunned! This was God speaking to me so directly! I knew the
joy I thought I had to spread, was not the same I had in mind! I was shocked..
scared as I knew this meant, I had to basically stop my life I was currently
leading.. move back in to my "Father's house" and have HIM in the centre of my
life.. Today, 4 years later, I am FAR from where I would like to be/should be..
still living a "normal" life, still getting drawn into the everyday life
issues.. but every now and again, I realize, that I have to pull out.. not to
become to part of the daily life issues.. and remember ... God is out there!
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
..The sunray came passed me again, and I dove underneath it.... The experience
directly here after.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
I could rationalize so much faster, take in so much more. Think of so many
things, all at the same time.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes Degree of Solidness.. I felt (if I can compare the feeling to
something) like a ball of energy, that moved fast.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
PEACE, Happiness, contentment.. we do not have words to truly
describe the emotions!
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Uncertain
Not a tunnel, but the sunray!
Did you
see a light?
Yes The sunray
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Uncertain I did not see anyone, but heard their voices
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes Passing over the valleys, clearly seeing the plant growth
beneath me, the beach, the ocean and being ontop of the clouds
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes This happened afterwards, not during. I woke up in my hospital
bed, repeating the same words over and over.. my purpose on earth is to find joy
and spread joy..
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Uncertain Just heard about it on TV etc. Was not sure if I could
believe it or not.. Same as the question of Are there Alines??? Who knows????
You don't believe until you see..
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real 4 Years later, it is still has real to me as
ever. I remember this experience, much better than I remember things that have
happened during that year!
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The whole
experience
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real Nothing has changed. It is as if
something have happened, you experienced it, and carry on with yr life.. Can't
change the pass, what happened, happened..
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
I am trying to
teach my family to live closer to God. I am a lot more aware that he truly
exists, and that he assists me in every day matters.
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
