Marietta S's NDE

Experience description: 

I was very young and my brothers and sisters of which I have 7,all went up into the hayloft to play. They were not supposed to but did anyway. I wanted to go with them but they said I was to little and wouldn't let me go.

They left the door open so they could check on me I guess.  When they were playing, I climbed up the ladder, and then climbed in.

I was standing in front of the door, and of course its in the floor of a hayloft, I started toward them and they started to come n get me. They were fussing at me. So I started to back up, and by they time the screamed at me to stop I fell out backwards. I fell on my head and neck, and I've always had trouble with my neck since then. Just that I was not n my body when they got down to me, because I was above them looking down. They thought I was unconscious or dead but I wasn't. I was just watching them. But, I was ok and didn't get why all the excitement, I was there and safe, and I didn't like them being upset. But it is strange how I felt I still remember that after all these years and with me being so little u wouldn't think I would. I knew there was someone with me. I felt them holding me, and they loved me even more then my family. They run and got mom and dad. And I got back in my body by that time. I don't really remember anymore. My head hurt then.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No       I was very young I don't think I was taking any medicines, or so my mom tells me.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? I never told anyone. I knew they wouldn't believe me.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      I don't really know they took me to the hospital and was told to keep me awake. Don't think they did anything else.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was awake and alert, and wondering why they were so upset with me, and why was I on the ceiling lol. But at no time did I feel in danger.
            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes and I wasn't afraid at all, just felt like a normal thing in a way. Isn't that silly? And the more of these questions I get the more I seem to be remembering it.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     I didn't feel my body at all, I was n no pain until I was back n it. I felt like an angel. And have always felt like I was an angel since then or had a fascination with them.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I actually felt good, peaceful, and mellow sort of. Like I knew Jesus was there or somebody who loved me very much. And I was ocean I felt happy, happier then when I was in my body. My body made me feel draggy like I couldn't move. but I could move n feel freedom.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           don't remember sounds. nope no harps or nothing. sorry

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No            Not this time, didn't get to go anywhere because he told me I had to go back. I didn't want to though. It's so amazing how much I remember now that I'm finally talking about it. I guess I just figure why remember it I couldn't tell anybody.  They wouldn't believe me.

Did you see a light?           No       I didn't see the light until later. another time

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No       I didn't c them I felt them. It was just a peaceful loving feeling. And safe. They were holding me and talking to me, but I didn't look back at them I just knew who they were. It was Jesus. And he told me he would be telling me things. And he has always shone me things. It like deja vu don't know if I spelled that right. But when he shows me things its to show me I'm where he wants me to be in my life.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Uncertain     

It felt normal to me like I had done it before but I don't know when.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      I heard them saying that I didn't know anything because I was dead oh unconscious.  I told them I was there but they didn't believe me, and laughed at me. But I knew I had.  I heard them say what they did and I was there too and watching it the whole time.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No response      Feelings very aware of everything almost giddy I was so happy. And I think my whole life Vie searched for that feeling again.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      It just seemed like a second or to, but a lot seemed to happen in that time. He told me a lot of things.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     special knowledge that's what he gave me. to let everybody I met know I love them like they r the most important person in my life. And to always b good n help others and that if I did that he would show me things. And that as long as I wanted him there he would never leave me. And he has always been there I still feel him even today.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No       I don't think so I went no where. just floated

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     I knew when people were coming before they got there. and I sense how people were feeling. I knew sensed when things were going to happen sometimes. U know why I know its true, because I still know the feeling of being there. and its so vivid.

 I have cold chills now just thinking of the feeling and how I want it now. I've got lost a while as a teenager to drugs and partying. And with everything I have done  a lot  of things in my life nothing has given me that feeling, and I know that's what I was looking for in my teen years.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No       I didn't want to go Jesus put me back, he told me I had things to do.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain      I just have little things happen all the time, like he will give me a strong feeling to talk to people sometimes, and if I don't do it sometimes things happen to them and I'm left felling like maybe I could have prevented it.

 Jesus told me to talk to my husbands aunt one day and I was busy, she even ask me to come in and talk to her that day. But, I was so tired and wanted to go home. I told her I would come over first thing in the morning, the next morning she was dead.

 another time I was at work and he told me to talk to a man at work I didn't even know. we both were on a break outside by ourselves but we didn't know each other but Jesus kept telling me to talk to him that he sent him to me. I was to embarrassed didn't and the next day he had shot himself in the head. There r more.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No response            not so much with this one except always knowing Jesus was with me. But I have with the many experiences I have been through. And he has given me a knowledge of the Bible and it just seems so simple I don't get why others have such problems with it.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       All my experiences together have effected my life completely. Everything I do now evolves him.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     As I said he has given me knowledge of him. A personal relationship, where he tells me what to do, and not to do. and prophecy.

Have you shared this experience with others?         No       if u include laughter. Or disbelief. when I was little haven't told anybody since then.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  very emotional about things and loved everything, and everybody. And when I forget that feeling, Jesus seems to fresh me sometimes. Not with out of body ex.

but he does something in my life. To refresh me.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was the experience itself, the feeling the love. The worst part is I cant hit my head everyday to get that back .lol

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Yes, for anybody out there who is depressed or whatever u need he is with u to. All u have to do is call out to him and tell him u want him to take over urn life. We r spiritual beings. And that feelings I had just very short, and I was a child. And its has inspired my whole life, and my search to get back to it. and I've had it a few other times. Just imagine what he can do for u.