Marie Claire's NDE

Experience description: 

I made a suicide attempt by taking antidepressants. In intensive care unit, I found myself drawn in one of the room corners, being spectator of all what was occurring. Then, I entered a kind of tunnel enlightened by a terribly dazzling light. I hesitated a lot to go back, but someone, with a very soft voice, told me to do so.

It was at the same time, a marvellous and terrifying experiment because nobody tried to explain me anything. After ten days being in a coma, I awoke with a chaplain sitting besides me. In fact, … people expected me to die.

However, this changed all my life. My vision of dead (without fear), and always… go to the main points!

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes, The fabulous, indescribable side of such experience

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

Suicide attempt

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           coma

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   It was much better than a dream !

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I was without substance, floating up to the ceiling. I was only “alive in my mind”, I had neither arms nor legs any more…

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Light and very melodious sound.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:     And ethereal and luminous tunnel

Did you see a light?           Yes, Terribly dazzling but not painful nor unpleasant

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes

As a clip which is on, very quickly, and which some scenes are very clear and some others are fuzzy ones.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

All what the doctors said while taking care of me, the instruments which were not there any more when I awoke. All this reassured me about for my mental health

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes, There was neither time nor space any more, only feelings

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

I have the impression to have changed of dimension… to be different from the others. To look at things in perspective became much easier for me

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes, To have reached another level. As if there were a succession of lives, in stages

Did you become aware of future events?       No, On the other hand, I became a much more intuitive person

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

All occurred without any action from me, I was absolutly unable to change anything.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

More intuition and feelings, more sensitivity

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes, They were reinforced

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?      I have difficulties to stand superficial people. In my life all became simpler without being easier for all that.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, Mixed reactions. I don’t speak easily about it.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Concerning my life, a huge serenity and joy to be THERE            

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

The best side: fabulous well-being

The worst side: the thoughts and the look from others, powerlessness of the medical staff

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        It was too beautiful! Now, I am simply waiting for my hour, but with joy and serenity

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes,  The best I was able to do.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    The medical staff attitude should be tackled.