Maria N's NDE

Experience description: 

I FELT AN ENERGY SUCTIONING ME TO A BRIGHT BIG LIGHT, THEN TRAVELING THROUGHOUT A GARDEN WITH GREENERY AND A STRONG SMELL OF ROSES.  I FELL THE PRESENCE OF MY GRANDMOTHER BUT I NEVER SAW HER,  ALSO A MUSICAL SOUND OF HARPS, A SWEET CALMING MELODY. NEXT I WAS ABLE TO SEE A SURGERY ROOM, A PATIENT ON THE SURGERY TABLE AND THE NURSING AND PHYSICIAN STAFF AROUND THIS PERSON.  I WAS ABLE TO SEE THE LEGS OF THE PATIENT BUT NEVER THE FACE.  I NOTICED THAT I WAS VIEWING THIS SCENE FROM THE CEILING AT A CORNER ANGLE,  I FELT NO WEIGHT OR BODY, I DID NOT HEAR CONVERSATIONS ONLY VISUAL MONITORING.  I KNEW THAT THIS PATIENT WAS DECEASED. 

THE BEST EXPERIENCE WAS THAT I WAS ABLE TO EXPERIENCE CALMNESS, WARMTH, LOVE, PEACEFULLNESS THAT I WILL NEVER FEEL IN THIS WORLD,  ALL THE SADNESS WAS GONE, MY INSECURENESS AND MY EMPTINESS.  I HEARD A STRONG AND VIBRANT MALE VOICE COMMANDING ME TO GO BACK THAT THIS WAS NOT MY TIME.  I REPLIED TO THAT VOICE THAT I WANTED TO REMAIN WHERE I WAS, I DID NOT WANTED TO GO BACK,  HE COMMANDED ME APPROXIMATELY 3 TIMES TO GO BACK NOW. 

I REMEMBER WAKING UP AND I HAD TEARS ON MY CHEEKS AND A DEEP SENSATION OF SADNESS.  MY FIRST WORD TO A NURSE WERE:  I SAW ALL OF YOU WORKING ON A PATIENT THAT WAS DECEASED.  I WAS ABLE TO DESCRIBE WHERE THE STAFF WAS POSITIONED.  THE NURSE LOOKED AT MY STARTLED AND TOLD THE OTHER STAFF TO REMAIN QUIET.  I ASKED TO SEE MY PHYSICIAN BUT MY HUSBAND SAID THAT HE HAD TO LEAVE IMMEDIATELY.  PER MY HUSBAND,  HE NEVER GOT TO DISCUSS MY STATUS WITH MY PHYSICIAN,  NEVER GOT TO SEE HIM AFTER THE SURGERY.  I FOUND OUT THROUGH MY MOTHER,  1 MONTH AGO THAT MY HUSBAND DID TALK WITH MY PHYSICIAN.

MY HUSBAND WAS TOLD THAT I HAD SEVERE COMPLICATIONS DURING MY SURGERY BUT THAT I WAS NOW STABLED.  AFTER THIS EVENT,  I EXPERIENCE VISIONS OF ANGELS, ANGELICAL MUSIC,  ABLE TO SMELL MY GRANDMOTHERS ESSENCE AND THERE HAS BEEN NUMEROUS EXPERIENCE WHERE I HAD FELT HER TOUCHING MY HAIR OR MY SHOULDER WHILE I SMELL HER FAVORITE PERFUME AND HER CIGAR.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

POSSIBLY INDUCED BY THE ANESTHESIA USED DURING SURGERY.   BUT HAD MANY AUDITORIAL AND VISUAL VISIONS OF ANGELS PRIOR AND AFTER MY SURGERY.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

NOT HARD TO EXPLAIN IN WORDS AT ALL, POSS. DISBELIEVED BY FAMILY MEMBERS.   AT FIRST I QUESTIONED MYSELF IF IT WAS A DREAM,  I AM NOW SURE IT WAS NOT A DREAM.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain

MY MOTHER ASURED ME THAT MY EX-HUSBAND (AT THAT TIME MY HUSBAND), WAS NOTIFIED BY MY PHYSICIAN THAT AT ONE POINT THEY HAD SEVERE COMPLICATIONS DURING THE SURGERY BUT THAT I WAS NOW STABLE.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           SEDATED I SUPPOSED.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   DREAM LIKE BUT THE ESSENCE, THE SMELLS, THE PEACEFULNESS AND THAT VIBRATING COMMANDING VOICE WERE TO VIVID TO PENETRATING TO BE DREAM LIKE.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I WAS NOT ABLE TO SEE MY BODY, I FELT NO WEIGHT, NOTHING THAT COULD POSSIBLE MAKE ME EXPERIENCE PHYSICAL DISTRESS.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            PEACE, WARMTH, FULLFILLNESS,  NEVER LONELINESS.  HAPPINESS.  AND SOMEONE NEXT TO ME GIVING UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           ANGELICAL HARPS,  A VIBRATING MALE VOICE.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?            Uncertain, I REMEMBER THAT BEAUTIFUL GARDEN WITH STRONG SMELL OF ROSES.

Did you see a light?           Yes, STRONG BRIGHT POTENT WHITE LIGHT THAT BLINDED ME AT THAT TIME.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain

THAT MALE VOICE, COMMANDING ME TO GO BACK AND THAT THIS WAS NOT MY TIME.  ALSO THE FEELING AND PRESENCE OF MY GRANDMOTHER WAITING FOR ME.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes

YES, THAT BEAUTIFUL GARDEN, THE ANGELICAL MELODY AND THE SENSATION OF ME FLOATING.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes

MY 5 SENSES WERE VERY SHARP, INTENSE AROMATING ROSES ESSENCE,  MY VISION WAS VIVID COLORFUL AND VERY CLEAR,  I FELT A STRONG WARMTH IN MY SOUL AS IF A DIVINE CREATURE WAS PROTECTING ME.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

NOW I AM ABLE TO FEEL WHEN UNPLEASANT EVENTS ARE ABOUT TO OCCUR.  I AM ABLE TO SENSE PEOPLE WITH NEGATIVE ENERGY AROUND ME.  I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT THERE IS ANOTHER LIFE AFTER DEATH.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

DREAMS THAT HAD BECOME REALITY.  I AM ABLE TO SENSE WHEN A PERSON OR LOVE ONE WANTS AND WILL COMMUNICATE WITH ME.  ONE MORNING AS I WAS GETTING READY TO GO TO WORK,  I HAD A STRONG FEELING THAT I WAS GOING TO BE INVOLVED IN A MINOR TRAFFIC ACCIDENT.  AS THE DAY PROGRESSED, I FORGOT ABOUT THAT VISION UNTIL I DID EXPERIENCE THAT MINOR COLLISION APPROXIMATELY AT 3PM THAT SAME DAY.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

YES,  I WAS AWARE THAT I NEEDED TO RETURN TO MY BODY AND TO EARTH AS THAT POTENT VOICE COMMANDED ME.  I FELT VERY SAD COMING BACK.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

YES,  I WAS ABLE TO VISUALISE ANGELS AND DARK SOULS IN MY HOUSE.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I AM VERY CERTAIN THAT AFTER DEATH,  THERE IS A PEACEFUL PLACE TO GO,  I KNOW THAT I WILL SEE MY DECEASED LOVE ONES AND GOD WHEN THE TIME OF DEPARTURE COMES.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I FELT PUZZLED,  OTHERS WERE IN DISBELIEVED WHEN I TOLD THEM MY EXPERIENCE.  MY HUSBAND LOOKED AT ME STRANGE AFTER THIS EXPERIENCE.  BUT ALSO  MY EXPERIENCE HAS HELPED ME OVERCOME THE PAIN OF A DIVORCE.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

MORE SPIRITUAL GROWTH.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

YES,  I TOLD MY BROTHER AND HE SEEMS TO BE THE ONLY ONE TO BELIEVE ME IMMPEDIATELY,  HE GAVE ME YOUR E-MAIL ADDRESS.  OTHERS DISBELIEVED MY EXPERIENCE.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  DEEP SADNESS TO BE BACK INTO MY OLD BODY AND BACK TO EARTH.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      FEELING THAT PEACE THAT I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO EXPERIENCE IN THIS LIFE.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I NOW KNOW THAT THIS WAS NOT A DREAM.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes, YOUR QUESTIONARE IS SHORT AND TO THE POINT,  IT HELPED ME NARRATE MY STORY STEP BY STEP.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    NONE