Maria F Probable NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I had induced labor for my second childbirth.  General anesthesia was administered. I remember this event as if it just happened.  I remember feeling something was being turned inside me.  I remember seeing the doctor and he was counting numbers.  I felt as I was above them, seeing them working on me.  Next, I remember seeing my husband and 5 year old daughter in the room outside the operating room. They seemed upset.

All of a sudden I was going through a dark tunnel, but with flashing speed, and straight ahead was a very bright!!! light.  Then I was in a meadow with beautiful flowers surrounding me.  The colors were so vibrant! I felt peace and love surround me.  I looked to my left and there was a splendid man in a white robe, with shoulder-length hair, beard and mustache. Then he was in front of me.  There was a bridge separating us, and he communicated in telepathy.  I understood that I could go no further. Then I woke up in my hospital room. I don't remember any way back. However, I laid there feeling so sad and a overwhelming feeling of heartache, and remorse.  I did not want to be here, I wanted to be in that other place I had been in. 

I learned later that I had a difficult delivery.  The baby's head was not angled in the birth canal. Also the doctor had a difficult time stopping the bleeding. I was not myself for about 6 months. Everyone thought I had postpartum depression, but that was not it.  I longed to be at the place I visited.  I couldn't talk about it, because I didn't know how to explain it, or even if it was real. But it felt very real to me.

It was several years later when I was watching a documentary on TV.  This man was describing an experience he had after suffering a heart attack and was clinically dead.  It was the same experience I had... going through a tunnel very fast, and a bright light ahead.  I almost fell off the couch when I heard this.  They called it a near death experience.  All I know is that 35 years later, I can remember it as if it just happened.  I will never forget it!

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     Words cannot express what I experience, felt and saw.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Lost a lot of blood.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    through out the entire experience. Beginning from when I was above myself and everyone in the operating room, and up to, knowing I could go no further.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            through out the entire experience. Beginning from when I was above myself and everyone in the operating room, and up to, knowing I could go no further.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     As I said previously, the flowers I saw for example, were so vibrant, and felt like they generated beauty and love. The man in my experience was peace and love.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Uncertain      In my experience, it was more of feeling rather then hearing.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Feelings of love and peace

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     Right after I saw my husband and daughter outside the operating room.  I felt myself going very fast through a tunnel. But not with my body.  Hard to explain.

Did you see a light?           Yes     The light was a very bright with rays of glowing light.  I was not frightened by it.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I saw a man who looked like the picture we know of Jesus.  The man communicated in telepathy to me.  I knew that I had to go back.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     My husband was outside the OR with our daughter.  He was not there before I went in.  The counting I heard by the doctor is confusing to me.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     Possibly another dimension.  It was not like anything on earth.  Although I saw things like flowers, a bridge, the atmosphere and everything was glorious, and splendid.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     It just seemed different.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain           

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     It was made very clear I could not cross the bridge.

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain
            I seem to have more cognitive experiences. Something I did not have before my experience. I've been told...more spiritual.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      I sometimes am aware and sense things before they happen. But it's not of psychic, paranormal in nature.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Ten years after my experience.  People seem amazed and look at me in wonder and perhaps interest.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I couldn't stop thinking about it, I was not myself even six months after, because I did not want to be here. I did not understand why I couldn't stay!

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Yes, because I feel I saw the face of Jesus.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I understand now, why I could not stay.  I still need to fulfill my mission here on earth.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     Although not right away, more significantly in the last 7 years.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     Again, not right away, but now more then ever.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I know what I experienced, and I feel somewhat privy to something greater then what we have on this earth.  I know there Is God, and He is good, and He has a special place for those who heed His Word, and accept Him as Lord and Savior.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes