Mari C's NDE

Experience description: 

I had a tonsillectomy and all went well till discharge when I was given an injection of sulphur. I have no recall of any of this until I reacted about 15min later in the car on the way home. I remember being sick on my mothers lap and seeing the skin reaction. Next recall is sitting in the wall of the emergency section of the hospital and watching the events separate from myself.

The time seemed inconsequential and I was uninterested till a separate space opened in the room and I left. A hazy journey (seemingly short) and I was enveloped in light & exquisite & infinite love. By now I recall this as an ageless soul. I felt as best as I can describe in a state of total bliss, once again there is no language to convey feelings. There seemed to be a collective consciousness who welcomed me but at the same time conveyed the knowledge that I was the one responsible for the decision to stay or go back. I recall these decisions not as a small child but a person with accumulated knowledge to evaluate the choice and make a decision. The decision to return was based on the knowledge that I was not finished in my life and there were things to accomplish and fulfill. There was no distress at the thought of return and once the decision was made there was no more recall.

These experiences have stayed crystal clear and as fresh as when they occurred.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  there is no language to provide verbal expression to some of my experience

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  In body, I was totally unconscious.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No, it was crystal clear & there was no sense of unreality about it.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I don't recall an appearance and it seems to be too earthbound a concept to be a relevant question. The feeling was that "I existed?"

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  contentment, peace, thoughtful, safe, returned to home?

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Not exactly a tunnel but an opening into another space

Did you see a light?  Yes

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  no physical shapes as we know them but an enveloping sense of being swept into the arms of a group.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I listened for a short while to the conversations of the medical staff but it all seemed to be a disassociated event from the real world I was entering. I remember faces and the concern of fear of our family doctor. 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Time was of no consequence

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Uncertain

      Describe:  This question leaves me unable to respond. I was aware that I had come home from a short journey and would be off on another.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  As in an above question I made a decision to return and this my decision but without words the "soul group were a sounding board for my thoughts"

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No response

      Describe:  too young to have had previous life experience

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  No response

      Describe:  as above

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  yes - I feel as if I am quite disconnected from the world at times and never seem to have attached very strongly in relationships with other people - as if a portion of me is still an observer?

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Only a couple of times but it seems to be something to share with people who understand the limits of language to convey the experience.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  There were no bad parts and I feel secure in the process

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  In my adult life my beliefs have been affected by this event but I feel for the better.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  No

      Explain:  Same story - there is no scope in language or word to really tell you how it was. This is no reflection on your questionnaire.