Experience description:
It was an ordinary
day in the life of a young carefree man and suddenly, without any warning, I
felt extremely ill and was close to collapsing.
I went to
see my local doctor and after examining me I was told it was a simple case of
the 'flu. I was prescribed antibiotics and returned home.
As the
days passed my condition grew worse and developed a very high fever.
I was
unable to eat or drink anything, rapidly loosing weight.
By the 8th
day I was lapsing in and out of consciousness, and my mother decided to take me
back to the doctor. I was too weak to stand, my uncle had to carry me. The
doctor said I had double pneumonia and had to be taken to the hospital
immediately. Because I was lapsing in and out of consciousness I'm unable to
recall much of what happened. I vaguely remember being wheeled on a stretcher to
the back of an ambulance, and then being wheeled into the hospital casualty
ward. Then I briefly came around when a nurse was inserting an intravenous drip
needle into my right arm.
Suddenly I
had a strange sense of complete weightlessness and began floating upward, I
wasn't at all alarmed by the experience. I continued upward until I reached the
ceiling about 9 feet from the floor then stopped. For the first time in several
days I actually got to see myself, not in a mirror but my body laying motionless
on the hospital bed below me. What a sad and pathetic sight it was, a grey
deathly gaunt color with deeply sunken eye sockets and cheek bones, and yet in
spite of that ghastly sight there was a beautiful feeling of a tranquil peace
and wellbeing. I was almost immediately aware of a high sense of alertness and
it seemed that I could see and hear everything and everyone within the large
ward. Then I gradually became aware that I wasn't alone, and I'm not talking
about the other people in the ward. There was an unseen 'someone' approaching
me. An indescribable overwhelming love began to completely envelope me and with
it came a sense of joy that defies words.
I noticed
there was a soft blue aura all round me (I later realized the blue aura was me).
Then a gentle yet all powerful voice spoke softly to me "Malcolm...Malcolm, it's
not your time. Go back now." The best way I know how to describe the voice is -
think of a million electric power stations all working together at the same time
and this wouldn't even come close to the energy that his voice produced (I say
'his' because it was definitely a mans voice). The next thing I recall was
waking up two days later in a different bed, in a different ward, being attended
to by a young nurse.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes The feelings of unearthly joy and overwhelming love
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Uncertain Developed double pneumonia
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
While hovering above my body.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
I felt that I was able to zero in on any thing or anyone simply by drawing my
attention to them regardless of the distance.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
No
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain I believe I was able to listen to normal
conversations across the other side of the ward.
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Peace, wellbeing, joy, love.
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes An unseen being communicated with me and told me to go back.
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes There was no sense of time, as though it ceased to exist
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes When I reached the ceiling
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes The ability to lay hands on the sick, often resulting in their immediate
or speedy recovery.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes About 20 years later I shared it with my wife and then with some
friends. Their reaction was of considerable interest in the matter. Whether it's
been of any real influence to them is uncertain.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I knew it was very real but was unsure how to
communicate the experience to others.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The fact that I
encountered this being of love who gave me another chance at life on earth.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real Prior to my NDE I was an atheist and
didn't believe in any afterlife, but after the NDE I had to reconsider
everything I believed. If this 'Being of love' wasn't God then who or what was
he? Why was I out of my physical body but still very much alive?
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
More love,
patience, and understanding.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I believe in
God
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
