Lynne's NDE

Experience description: 

I can recall laying in an operating room on a cold white table.  My mother was there along with the doctor and a nurse.  I remember the doctor saying that I was dead.  I was above everything, watching it all.  My mother said that she was glad that I was dead. (I confronted her with this about 30+ years later and she turned absolutely white.)  I then went into a warm tunnel that was very bright (like the aurora borealis) and welcoming with a person sitting on a chair.  It was so peaceful and so wonderful.  I didn't hurt anymore, and I could run and breathe and I loved it.  I was told by this soul that I had to go back to earth to teach others.  I didn't want to go back.  I wanted to stay. 

I read my obituary later that week.  My death had been expected because I was so ill with asthma and had been for many years. 

I wonder if the little scar above my left breast has anything to do with a procedure the doctors did to bringing me back to life.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    

no idea, I was only eight

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

I had asthma, and spent most of my childhood under an oxygen tent.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           very alert

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   no

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

My spirit was floating above, and I was watching my body below.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      the tunnel was bright and light and shimmered like an aurora borealis; blue tones, warm yellows

Did you see a light?           Yes, see #9

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

Have no idea who he was.  Just a very loving soul - incredible peace and love emanated - he said I must go back as I had things I had to teach.  I figured I was only EIGHT, leave me alone and let me STAY!!

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

I heard my mother say that she wished I was dead.  I verified this with her about 30 years later.  She turned absolutely white and said "you heard!" - but, you know what, she never said she was sorry that she said those hurtful words, and I can't imagine EVER saying that to my children.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes, I knew it was "time" away from "time".

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

I was just told that I had things to teach others.  I guess it's true, because over the years I've had a lot of people tell me that I've taught them things (but, mostly things that they were made to learn, kicking and protesting every inch of the way).  I seem to be a catalyst for change.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

I was made to go back to my body and I was angry.  Why should I go back to where I wasn't wanted on earth?

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I have a hypersensitivity to people.  I feel their emotions too clearly.  I felt the need to "turtle in" when I was working, otherwise I couldn't stand it.  It was like walking around with raw skin.  I seem to have an ability to heal.  I'm also a mother earth type - I got pregnant against all odds, and yes, I was on the pill, for all the good that it did!  I also seem to have a hypersensitive body.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I believe in God, but not religion.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       relationships - with my children, I have great relationships;  with husbands, forget it, I just don't know how to make it work.  I don't know how to play in their world.

daily life - I hated the work-a-day world - just a misfit; incapable of lying therefore didn't fit into the corporate structure.

religious practices - should have been a Buddhist or something because I sure don't believe in Christianity as it's taught - Christianity teaches hate and they've totally misinterpreted the whole Book.

career choices - I originally wanted very much to be a child physiotherapist in Toronto's children's hospital - I wish I could have followed that dream, because I very much believe in the healing touch.