Ludmila NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was on obstetrical table, to me have made a narcosis through a mask … I have an allergy and I have a mitral heart disease, caused by abundant and frequent bleedings, haemoglobin was very low … besides for the last six months into my body was poured about 10 litres of someone’s blood. 

And I slept under anaesthetic, saw nothing, did not hear and did not feel. 

Suddenly I opened my eyes and saw over my head some dark space, and I also saw medical staff working over my body I was very surprised to see an input in air space, I never saw such a thing before. This input was in the form of a square, while the length’s of each side was about one metre long… and my soul started to enter that space through the head, it flied upwards on huge speed at the angle of 45 degrees, and it’s speed was like rocket speed. 

My first feeling after an exit from my body was the feeling of an incredible relief. My feelings can be compared to as if I took off all the clothes intended for the temperature of 50 degrees below zero but the temperature around me was 50 degrees above zero and, besides, I’ve got a bonus - cool running water. But even this comparison for me, heart patient, does not correspond to full scale of feelings that I felt at that moment. 

I continued my flight, and medical staff all this time called me – Ljuda! Ljuda! … 

I felt so good, that it slightly began to irritate me that they called me, - Why are you calling me, I do not want to come back at all. I did not think with the help of words, I felt and understood everything without words. And despite that I moved away from my body, and paid attention to medical staff voices, I did not feel weakening of sound vibrations... 

After a while I have lost interest to the people’s voices and have started to feel tunnel’s open space in which I flied... Everything that surrounded me had no influence on me until something drew my attention Everything was usual and accessible to me without any restrictions. I had a free access to all knowledge and to all information. 

But they did not interested me at all, because I knew everything and I did not have a necessity to use all that information … I was overflowed with the feeling of pleasure, and the feeling that at last I was coming back to the place that was so dear to me. My movement was guided by my interest. There were no words in my consciousness. In my mind I used only concept, logic and intuition. 

I moved permanently upwards, my consciousness revealed more and more, and I can describe a condition of my consciousness as an allegorical symbol of a flower of a lotus, which opens its 1000 petals. 

Suddenly, I began to move downwards through the same tunnel and on the same speed, thus I had a verbal thought: "What I am doing! Now I am so far away that I can not return … and I’m leaving my 7 years old daughter … » And by means of a product of material world – A WORD, I was again lassoed in the material world. I did not create this thought, but it has influenced me before I have realised it. Probably, it was karma, because I have a strong psychological attachment to motherly energies, and even during that moment I was strongly subordinated to them. I feel all material world with the help of these energies only. 

When I moved downwards, the lotus of my consciousness was gradually closing, as flowers close their petals for the night. Soon I saw the end of the tunnel, top of my head, my body and medical staff, and a part of the surgery room. Feet of my thin body have approached to the top of my head, and I have started to enter my body, as a hand enters a glove. And I felt asleep… I had a dream. In my dream I was quickly carried on a wheelchair, because my life was in danger and it was necessary to save it. They took me downstairs, and the floors were like a screw trajectory … we’ve already reached the hospital’s basement, there were some more floors which were necessary to pass … at last they brought me to a room with the words "Operating room " on it, and it was located on the lowest floor of the basement. Doctor-woman whom I never saw before opened the door of the surgery room saying: “Take her in immediately, we have to save her life…”, and after this words I woke up. 

I did not have a desire to tell what had happened to me, though the doctor has told me that she was very frightened and thought that there was nothing to do …. 

At that time in our country there were no literature about soul and spiritual doctrines, neither could I hear about this from others, so I had no opportunity to learn about similar experiences, and, I thought, that people won’t understand me. But more than that, I did not want that somebody would profane my sacred experience. 

In the morning they took my blood analysis. I asked what haemoglobin I had, and I was really surprised when the laboratorian told me: “140 g/L”. 

“How can it be?” - I asked. “Yesterday it was 28, I lost a lot of blood yesterday in the evening, and now I’m having 140 g/L?” 

 “It means that in your body a spare depot of blood manufacture was opened,” - she answered. 

I was so happy to learn guardianship of the thin worlds about people who are enslaved in material bodies. 

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes         * incredible feeling of ease and freedom for the soul, 

* Complete freedom from the sense of guiltiness and all other prejudices. 

* Universal ability to know and hear everything that you wish to, because the tunnel passes through a cocoon of all knowledge and material world information.  

* And that extreme atmosphere of universal LOVE till the understanding of my own existence, 

* And also that I had a chance to act as I chose – to die or not in the material world… 

*I was a full-grown soul for that atmosphere of LOVE and the FOUNDER, 

* I felt that I was coming back to my spiritual roots, that is I was coming HOME, there, where I was another, the same as other inhabitants of that house. To my regret, my memory had not updated that concrete vision of the inner world that I saw during my NDE and that corresponds to me I can explain it that way: evolutionary and civilization changes took place over there too. If I now, 50 years after that day, would wish to return to my native land, I would not see in myself an image of that district and people as I would know for certain that practically everything there underwent changes. 

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes, I was very sick and half of the year I spent in the hospital. 

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While my soul was outside my body I was in a vigilance condition … the longer was the distance between my soul an my body, the stronger became the sense of vigilance … 

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Raised state of vigilance and vigilance comparing to the everyday life 

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain. Condition of the raised vigilance and vigilance, in comparison with an everyday life while my soul was outside of my body … the further I was from the body, the feeling of vigilance became more aggravated... 

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?       Yes      I could to feel without any restrictions everything what I wished to know, or to recollect, if it is possible so say so... I forgot nothing, and I did not try to remember anything. For me everything was like «here and now», I should only define for myself what I needed most of all... But when I was in the tunnel, I saw nothing, except the tunnel and an exit from it. 

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? I’m not sure.        I do not remember vibration of voices of medical staff, I remember only that to hear sounds of a matter I could irrespective of distance... I needed only to want to hear someone. In my body, probably, from my birth, I am hard of hearing on both ears. Physically I can’t stay too high-pitched sounds, and I do not hear at all words that are said in a deep voice. 

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes 

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was to week because of my illness; I was tired from seen hospital walls and closed space … 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes       I do not know, may be that tunnel (limited space) always exists over me, but I cannot see it from my body … but that tunnel was not dangerous for my soul when I moved in it … 

I did not understand, what the tunnel consists from, but I had a feeling that that it consisted from a kind of alive substance, similar to a very dense energy. 

I wonder why all describe a tunnel as a pipe. In my NDE it was like a corridor with obviously expressed four corners... It looked to me like it was similar to lift mine, more than that I moved, like I was in the lift, only without lift. 

Did you see a light? No 

Did you meet or see any other beings?            No 

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?       Yes      during 20 years I could not bare the thought that a person should die 

In my NDE I learned that that’s not so... 

I learned that we ourselves define when to die in our physical matter, but we have to be psychologically free from our mind activity and our material interest even if they are in a form of parental self-sacrifice. 

There we have more possibilities to help our children in difficult for them moments. Here, during 30 years I failed to influence sufficiently on my daughter. 

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? When I was coming back into my body, I saw the top of my head and doctors, but I could see only from square space with the size 1,5m х 1,5m х 1,5m which settled down at an angle of 45 degrees to the horizontal area and opened me the room review. As soon as I started to enter my body, I felt asleep. 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?

Yes      The tunnel itself was that place, and the material from which this tunnel was made … I myself could open new corridors in any place of 4 walls of the tunnel, and any of them would take me into the world that corresponds my interest … but I wanted to return to My Inner World 

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes           I noticed that any verbal thought faster influences on our choice than on our comprehension. I have not yet realized the thought, but my movement during fraction of a second has changed from "upwards" on "downwards" and only going down, I have realized all essence of the thought. 

But time in the tunnel has no special value, I was provided with a possibility of another comprehension … 

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?

I’m not sure     I  had a possibility to learn everything, but when I was coming downwards, my consciousness was limited in space … we receive all knowledge from the Sky, and our consciousness can simply recollect knowledge when we are moving away from social games of the material world. 

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?      I’m not sure     I continued to realise the form of my material body, and have suddenly recollected that, moving away from my physical body, I could lose possibility to return into it... And the tunnel was not so close to top of my head, so that during some period of time I could exist in a material world without a body …             

Did you become aware of future events?       No           ... 

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?                 Yes      I was cured from anaemia... the secret of the Universe settled inside me 

my thinking became global... 

I have voluntary wanted not to use my natural extrasensory abilities because I consider them to be psychological lag on a material world, and I wish so much to return to my inner world... 

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes    but only 10 years after the experience, when in my country freely began to speak on spiritual topics … and even then people were not sure that these experiences come from my sensible mind, that’s why nobody made comments on this topic, but I began to hear from others that they had endured condition of consciousness similar to mine. I have defined for myself that the way the consciousness exits the body depends on spiritual development of a person. 

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    I’m not sure     For about one year I had prophetic dreams … in one of that dreams I dreamt that I even had escaped from the closed premise in which a funeral ceremony took place, I had to punch out a hole in a roof in order to escape… 

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:           My experience was real      my soul trembled with happiness that people do not die… 

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?        The whole moment when I realized that my consciousness was leaving my body... 

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:

The experience was definitely real      It remained bright memoirs, as one of the memories of my life … 

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No       ... 

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?    Yes      I have learnt that religious ceremonies and rites is the invention of the material world … in the inner world the great value have cleanliness of intention and a free choice … 

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?     Yes      I was cured from anaemia by miracle 

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?     Actually I told everything already 

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?     Yes 

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?      I would add a column concerning personal evaluation of spiritual development and psychological attachments to the material world