Lucinda T's Fear Death Experience

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I had to run into the sea to rescue my (profoundly deaf) daughter.  To summarize, I was repeatedly knocked under the waves, and twice carried along, arms pinioned, rotating slightly, in the undercurrent.  I prayed, " Help me Jesus", and felt the concomitant calm.  During the longer of the two periods I naturally assumed I was surely to die.  At this stage I saw five amazingly spiritually beautiful people coming towards me, full of vigor, with a lift in the stride, and the light played around them which was emanating from them. They were in white and pale clothes, and one lady had a white dress with material with a blue floral pattern inset. The man slightly in front had fair hair, parted. He already knew exactly how I had come to be there; I was relieved by this. They were amazingly friendly and warm, and I was so pleased to meet them, and still feel really fond of them. I had never seen any of them before. They were warmer, kinder, more gracious and more alive, at one with their purpose, than anyone I have ever met on earth.  But I said to God that I had four children, and that this didn't seem the right time.. and shortly after an incoming wave, and an out coming wave met each other and I got my chance to push up. I spent rather a lot of time mourning the lost "opportunity".

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      As an English graduate I enjoy and feel very comfortable with words; nevertheless some aspects are difficult to describe e.g. the quality of the coloring of the light emanating and playing around the people I saw.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Thoroughly conscious and alert throughout.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            Thoroughly conscious and alert throughout.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      Don't know if they were open or closed.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Calm, orderliness, sense of the bizarre, wry humor, resignation,

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain     

Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes    

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain      Only in the sense that I knew they knew what had happened in my life. And I discovered how fast you can let go of what you have to and who you have to and forgive people, when you know you just have to, very sharp-ish.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes    

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Altered space.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain     

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain     

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     careful who and how shared.  Most people cannot get it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes    

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    Amazing.  Expanded my understanding.  Mercy and grace are so central.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Already written

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            More real than much of the dross of everyday life

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes    

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I stress grace and mercy more and am a bit more critical of the administration-bound blindness of the religious institution.  Judge people against the people I met, who were a new yardstick.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes