Louis B's NDE 2684

The experience that changed my life:

In March 1987, I don’t feel well. My condition deteriorates, I’m hospitalized. I sink into coma. Two weeks elapse and the night when I went out of coma, just before, I see myself above my body. I am overcome by a feeling of fullness. It has such an intensity that I don’t manage to describe it. I see myself in the bed, there is a being dressed in white on my right, he is moving air with his robe because my body is hot. As for myself above, I don’t feel anything. I also see around my bed people who came to see me during those two weeks. I hear what they tell me, I can accurately tell what they wore and where they were around my bed. These are facts I could check with them afterwards. I see all this in a state of peace and serenity. All of a sudden, I realize that I don’t see both my daughters. In a split second I feel myself go back to my body. It is much too small for me. I’m 21 and it’s as if I were putting kid nightclothes. It is painful. I wake up from coma and!

I realize that I am in a place I don’t know. Paralyzed, I can’t move and barely speak. My sight is blurred. It is hard to come back to this life. I slowly recover and at the end of May I leave the hospital walking. Physically I recovered, but psychologically that’s another story.

The experience has been informative for me:

Ø       If I’m here, that’s because I have a mission to complete, as any of us has.

Ø       I had to have another child born

Ø       Work at body level (physiotherapist) for 12 years, so that today, in 2006, I am applying for a job, to work with people grappling with death.

Ø       I do not fear death anymore.

Ø       I know I have a soul.

Ø       I still look for this intensity,  I feel it with people at end of life.

Ø       I feel lonely and I’ll always be. I consulted therapists for years and I still do. It’s as if I had a foot here and the other one there.

Ø       I am not able to integrate it in daily life. I’m on the way but I do believe that I will never make it totally.

I live in Sherbrooke region. Can you suggest somebody for help? Thanks for reading me, Louise

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes          The intensity, the feelings, the emotions, this is nothing human.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    A deep coma, a paralysis

virus causing encephalitis, meningitis and myelitis

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  Just before thinking of my children.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        Total fullness. No human thought. The real peace

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          Yes    A clarity that goes beyond what one sees

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
          Yes    I heard everything with great clarity

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          That was very intense. I still look for this intensity. It is not human.

It is Divine.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        No     

Did you see a light?         Uncertain     It’s as if I had been in the light. I did not see it, I inhabited it.

The presence was white, like the light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    A being dressed in white was on my right in my bed.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   Yes    Those that occurred during my coma.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes    how they were clothed

Where they were standing

What they said

I checked by asking them afterwards.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          No     

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes    In that state, time has no importance.

But I saw all of them at once, whereas they came at different times.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    Now I know that I have a soul. That we are all here to learn to love and be loved. Hard to find this intensity again.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No         

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Yes    I have a lot of intuition

I feel things to come, sometime it’s hard to experience this

I remotely feel people

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    I believe I shared a few months afterwards.

Well received but I did not feel I was understood

I believe that what I am influences them, but I would like to make them feel my experience so that it is clear for them.

I feel close to that state when I am with people at end of life.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No     

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   real   I know that it is real but I don’t think I can manage to make others understand that. It is painful for me not to be able to express this experience as I lived it.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Mainly the state you are in then.

Also to see yourself outside of your body.

Presence of that being on my right.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         Even 19 years after, I consider this is not so positive a gift. There is a reality in that experience which is not human, but we are human. You feel an intensity that you will look for all you life.

How to be able to integrate it in daily life? ..

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Yes    My values, my priorities.  I had to change my relations

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    I don’t believe in God, I know God exists.