Lori M's NDE-Like

Experience description: 

The evening of my NDE, I quite literally crawled to bed.   I was so sick and in so much pain that I couldn't lift my own head without great effort.  I remember crawling into bed and curling up into the fetal position and sobbing and rocking from the pain, I moaned, "Why me God?  When is this going to be over, how much more can one person take?"  Quite a normal litany under the circumstances.

Suddenly the tears stopped, the pain stopped, the confusion stopped.  I became more clear headed in that moment than I had ever previously experienced.  I KNEW what I had to do.  I had to ask for it to be over.  Simple.  Or so I thought.  I now know that nothing is SIMPLE.

I rolled onto my back, closed my eyes, and prayed for it to be over. "Please God, let me come home."  I began to experience a small amount of fear or separation anxiety, so I immediately began the relaxation exercises I had been taught to help with the pain and anxiety I had experienced for many years.

Just as I felt myself relax, about to enter the alpha state, I felt a heat and a light move up my body.  When it got to the top of my head, I felt a great pressure and the feeling of a void, no sound, no light, like being stuck in a vacuum.  Suddenly there was a noise like the passing of a speeding train, a whoosh sound and I was moving it seemed upward through a dark colored tunnel filled with lights like stars around it.

With a flash of the most intense white light, I found myself standing before the Source.  I hesitate to explain my experience at this point, as it seems to me that that part of an NDE is very individual and personal.  I will suffice to say that the Source was a geodesic orb which emanated all I sensed, felt, etc. and that there were other entities present.  I was told to turn and look at what I was leaving and where I was going, in order to make a good decision.  In other words, is this what I really wanted, or did I just want the pain to end?

As I turned, I saw the Earth in the distance.  My experience lasted 6 hours in our time, and as such it is impossible to accurately describe everything I experienced.  I will say that I saw my future, my past, and was allowed to make my decision from my now, as well as being given an important life message.

My reentry into my body was very painful and I immediately felt that something was very wrong, like I got back in the wrong body or something.  I got up slowly from the bed and looked in the mirror and got scared.  I didn't recognize myself immediately.  Many others didn't recognize me after the experience, as I underwent some intense physical changes in that short time.  During the experience alone I lost 2 inches in height and 12 pounds as well as more cosmetic changes, hair, complexion etc.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes

prescribed marijuana

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

we currently have no words in our experience to adequately describe a "FEELING" or "KNOWING"  the feeling that is the most difficult to describe is the pulse of light and feelings of acceptance and drawing that emanated from the "SOURCE"

I have heard this referred to as "unconditional love" but that only takes into account one of the "feelings" emanating from the Source.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

Within the previous 6 months I had received 8 diagnosis from 8 different specialists, most of them auto-immune in nature.

At that time, my physician prescribed marijuana and told me to look elsewhere for my answers, as "they" could not even begin to explain why I was still alive, much rather how to "cure" me.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           conscious state to alpha state

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   no

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

light and energy

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           noises upon leaving the body, whooshing sound only intense

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

Did you see a light?           Yes

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Suicide is not an option!  There are many ways to commit suicide, all with negative consequences, spiritually, physically, mentally.  We naturally choose suicide in some form here, the ideal passage will teach us to live and appreciate life.  Really important to survive our suicidal human tendencies through to our natural end of physical life.   We are here to learn how to survive ourselves, literally.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

resignation and hope

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No response

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

complete change of belief system

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

it is usually when others share with me therefore we both experience affirmation of our experiences and I have found this to be a useful tool in healing.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  fear, confusion, excitement, hope, love

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        wondering if anyone else has experienced extreme physiological changes after their experience