Lloyd P's NDE

I was in a dark void or space like in the universe without the stars in the distance was a light no definite shape similar to a puddle of spilled water.

The light was pulsating as if alive, I began to move toward the light, was being drawn, all of a sudden it was like I was moving at the speed of light.

The light was like a boundary but it was transparent, I passed through into the light: it is hard for me to find the words to describe the feelings one encounters.  I was blinded by the light unable to see anything but the light did not hurt your eyes.  It was like looking into the sun a million times over a pure white light. I felt warm, safe, peaceful, and in the presence of pure unconditional love.  It was like the light was absorbing me, my life was being shown before me, I got emotional, maybe I cried, I was ashamed, but I felt the love and knew everything was alright.  I know I was in the presence of God.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    Only in the sense that people have a hard time believing.  I know that it was real. Told son at hospital in recovery room that things went bad, that they had killed me and I had went into the light and did not want to return, I would have stayed.  Was in ICU for a week before I was strong enough for surgery.

Allergic reaction to succinylcholine died instantly.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No     

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  When I went into the light.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        I was viewing my life in the twinkling of an eye, I mean everything, I was asking questions but knew the answers instantly. Heard no voices but there was communication, knowledge and understanding.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          Yes    The brightness of the light, pure white as snow, depth perception was endless no end a continual light.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?          No     

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Love, shame, peace, and forgiveness.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        Yes    Into the light.

Did you see a light?         Yes    A bright light like a star in a dark void just one star as I was drawn closer it was pulsating like breathing it was alive. As I neared the light it grew and encompassed everything it had to be a boundary between light and dark.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   Yes    I learned that the only thing in life is unconditional love.  I also sensed or knew that a son who I lost in an accident at the age of 32 was safe and in the light.  I know now that death is not the end there is life after death.  I have a minor in bible from Abilene Christian University, I'm lost now and am having trouble understanding some of the teachings of my religion.  People around me say my personality has changed, I am more compassionate and understanding, things that used to be important don't mean anything anymore.  I am more emotional, have a deeper sense of feelings for others, I care more for the plights of others.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No     

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          Uncertain    

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes    Inside the light there was no end to the space and time was unlimited, meaningless as my life passed before me instantaneously.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    My son was safe and in the light.  One's purpose in life is to bathe in the warmth and love of the light.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes    The light.

Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain            I believe that I had found my soul mate before this and came back to reunite with this soul.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Uncertain     Have a sense and perception of knowing someone in a past life, a sense of having done things before.

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    Shared with son the day it happened.  Son knows without doubt what I told him and knows that I indeed died, but has never said anything.  Shared with family of my uncle at his funeral in April 2005, told them he was in a wonderful place because I had been there.  I believe they were thankful and relieved.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No     

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I know I went into the light, the feelings, emotions and love experienced were real.  I still find it hard to understand why I'm still here.  It's like I'm caught between two worlds.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         See 40 above.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Yes    Relationship with soul mate wonderful.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    I now believe that everyone returns to the light which is God.  I also believe