Susan L's NDE

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Experience description: 

I had a cervical biopsy because I had had a pap smear which indicated it was needed. This was done in an OB/Gyn's office. He had delivered my 2 children. I was fine during the procedure. After, I was getting ready to get dressed. The nurse was in the room with me. I began to feel dizzy, and told her I felt that I was going to faint. She had me lie down, and I fainted. She called the Dr. According to him, there was no pulse when he got there.

During the time I was "out", I had the most joyful experience of my life. The joy and ecstasy I felt was beyond description. I was with a presence which felt like a male. I felt fully alive. I felt warm and very loved. We were in a loving situation like a welcome of a very loved one who had been away a long time and had returned. The emotion was much stronger than any I have ever before or since experienced. When the Dr. resuscitated me with CPR, I felt as though I had been thrown at a very high speed through space and then hit a solid wall. I was afraid when I woke up, and didn't know where I was. I thought I was being attacked, and tried to claw the Dr.'s face which was in mine. I felt disoriented for the rest of the day. The Dr. told me that the cervix was very sensitive and could trigger the vagal nerve response that I had.

I had another experience 10 yrs. later after having had thyroid surgery. The next day I was suffocating to death because my nerve to my vocal cords had been touched during the surgery, and the vocal cords were paralyzed and there was swelling which blocked my airway. I was floating off and looked back at myself on the bed with the Dr. there working on me. I thought to myself, "I am dying, this can't happen. I feel too peaceful. I can't go yet, I have a small child." They then knocked me out, so I didn't feel any more. They had called my husband at home to come because I was dying and they felt there was nothing they could do.

This has had a very positive effect on my life and spirituality. I also had an experience when I was 3, and having my tonsils out. I can clearly remember watching the surgery being done as though I was up on the ceiling. This was really strange to me after I recovered from it. I remember it well, and have talked about it all my life.   I have always been very intuitive and a little psychic. I am sensitive to all environments and living things. I "know" when things are going to happen. On the night of September 10th, I was in the Bolivian "Amazon" region with my family on a boat trip. We were sitting around a campfire with the "Captain" of the houseboat we were on. I had had no alcohol or drugs, which I never have, so my mind was clear. We were enjoying the peace, being all alone in the jungle with no one around for miles. Suddenly, I saw explosive lights in my head, and felt a strong sense of fear. A voice entered my head, and said, "don't worry, you are all safe here". I told my husband about it when we got back to the boat. I can stand next to a person and tell what profession they are. I have trouble in crowds because of all the energy which affects me now. I tend to seek out nature.

I am a normal person. I have 4 children. I majored in dental hygiene and journalism in university. Right now, I am back in school, majoring in psychology, because I want to earn a counseling degree in order to do grief and "death" counseling. My near death experience did affect my life. I do not fear death, and I know there really is life after death, and it is beautiful.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I felt like I was alive and perfectly conscious.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   no

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes, I did during the last experience I had after the thyroid surgery.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

I was with someone, I felt a strong loving male like presence. I was with someone I knew.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I became a little more psychic

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I am no longer afraid of death. I feel more empathy for all living things. I feel more energy emanating from all living things

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I don't talk too much about my experiences. My husband tends to believe me when I warn him about something or someone, because I am usually right. I have had another spiritual meeting with the same presence under hypnosis, and was given some wisdom about the earth. I felt the same loving feeling at the time.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

 People just think it is interesting, but I feel they don't really believe it. My children have been influenced a little by it. They don't fear death as much as most children.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I felt some regret that I had to leave that feeling of joy and love, but it has stayed with me in some way for the 13 years ever since.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Before and after

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes, Once under hypnosis

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

 Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    No, it seemed fine.