EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I was traveling threw Nebraska when appendix ruptured. taken to
hospital and surgery. all was suppose to go well. as prep for surgery I was
given a muscle relaxant that stopped my heart. during surgery. when tubes were
taken from throat. I did not breath. some where I new this. I know they
attempted resuscitation. I know some how a nurse had spoken to my husband. that
I stopped breathing. as all of these things occurred. I also felt an seen a
bright light. an in the light was my daughter in law. who had passed 2 years
before. she was waiting for me. she seem in the light and part of the light. I
felt wonderful. happy and moved into the light. I knew I was leaving my husband.
an family behind. but wanted to go into the light. it was happiness a thousand
times over. utopian. Angela was smiling and getting closer. I heard my name
being called. and did not want to answer. an just like that I was looking at a
doctor. I was confused and unbelievably angry to still be here. the doctors said
my heart stopped. I did speak with a priest. but never could explain what
I was feeling. I just wanted to go back. in the years since I have never shaken
that feeling. I do not have dreams about it. but I have a surreal sense most of
the time. and a sense of peace. I feel no fear about death. I simply know where
I am going. I know it was real. although I can not prove it so. and as
people say it was just my brain shutting down. I no it was more.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes emotionally upsetting. hard to explain to family I was
angry I had to come back.
At the time of this experience. was there an associated life threatening
event? Uncertain
At what time
during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness? when I seen Angela (daughter in law) I was focused on her. yet
knew what was happening to me.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest
level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from
your normal every day consciousness and alertness. please explain:
when I seen Angela (daughter in law) I was focused on her. yet knew what was
happening to me.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal. everyday vision (in
any aspect. such as clarity. field of vision. colors.
brightness. depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects.
etc.)? Uncertain
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal. everyday hearing (in
any aspect. such as clarity. ability to recognize source of sound.
pitch. loudness. etc.)?
Uncertain
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
peace. warmth. love. happiness. utopia. contentment. no
remorse about leaving my family. like this is where I belong. this is what all
of wait for.
question 11. . I did not feel separated from my body. but I knew I was not in
it. I knew threw out I was dead.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes it was soft. not smooth/not textured/it was bright to the point it was
all around me. almost as I was enclosed in it. the further I went in the more I
felt wrapped in it. I do not know why. when I think about it/I think of roses.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes daughter in law. Angela. she was waiting in the light. she wanted me to
come threw to her. not words. but I felt her emotions.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No there is another world. place. and people I loved are waiting for me. I
think my life has been harder since. because I feel I am out of step with the
world
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes I knew I was dead. I knew my husband was spoken to even as they
continued to resuscitate. and yes it was confirmed after. right down to the
nurse.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations. levels
or dimensions?
Uncertain I am not sure what this means. I felt light. I seen light.
I am not sure if I went to light. or if light came and surrounded me. I mean I
did not see mountains/I love/or such
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes to me there was no time I know I stopped breathing. during surgery.
tubes kept pushing air in. but I was already in the light when I seen them
remove tubes from throat. or had a sense they were removing them. I
seen/felt/sensed/resuscitation. being done. an felt disconnected to it all.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge. universal order and/or
purpose?
Uncertain . I felt while in the light a sense of good.
belonging. home. safe. the and some thing more. have no words for the whole
sense. the universe I do not think so. I would say I felt totally
connected to God. and goodness
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No I did not feel a boundary. I knew or felt. I was dead. and felt
comfortable with it. I did not want come back and have felt like I was
snatched back. just as I was about to enter the other side.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic. paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain after. yes I get a sense of things. before they happen. but the
most profound. is my sense of life. death.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I did not share this for a long time. when I did my husband said he and
my one son felt I had some life altering experience. I shared this in small
amounts at a time. some thought I was crazy. some understood. some pretended to
understand.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No I always thought people who said this were crazy.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real confused why I had to come back. angry feeling
like I did not belong here.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
I
was close to Angela. I felt rather than heard her. assure me she was happy. and
all was ok.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real my angry has changed. I feel still as I should
not be here. like my time here is limited. and have no problem. passing over. as
I said no fear of death at all. almost like death is the beginning
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I
find I want to do more for every one. I was not a spiritual person before. now I
am deeply so. the world seems better now. or I notice it ore now
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
more
spiritual. feel a connection to God.
Following the experience. have you had any other events in your life.
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I
feel Angela with me all the time. I find my self trying to recreate that
feeling I had in the light.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
some of the questions are hard to answer. because. yes/no. answers do not apply
what happened to me is not tangible. its not just one thing happening at a time.
its a sense. a feeling. a knowing. all at once. the light is not so much a
light. but a surrounding of brightness. not smooth. not textured. I remember and
still think of the light like a rose. Angela in the middle. but it was not a
rose. it was just a sense. how I feel now. is a disconnect to life. but a need
to full fill something. I am predestined to do. question30. no feeling of
understanding. just completeness.
