Lee's NDE

Experience description: 

I was living in Santa Barbara that summer.  I got very sick with a pneumonia-type illness.  I did not go to a dr.  I did feel very ill and took cough medicine with codeine...I got from a friend.  I think I just felt like I was leaving at one time.  that it was impossible to be in my body.  I remember a tunnel and a far off light.  I remember knowing that going into the light I would not be able to come back.  I struggled and then I came back.  I sometimes wonder if it was real.  I had never heard of a tunnel or about NDE before this happened so why do I wonder if it was real?  it has always bothered me.  I doubt myself yet have felt like my old belief religious is not really the way it is.  my belief is more all-encompassing .  I am changed from this but still confused.  feel like I must be very imaginative yet how could I have made it up?

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain

In my experience I am not sure if it is a real NDE  I just knew that if I passed thru this tunnel and entered the light there was no coming back.  I did not enter the light.  otherwise I would not be here

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I felt conscious in that I was alert but my body seemed very remote

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   it was stronger than a dream

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I felt like I was not attached but did not see my body apart from me

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain

            Describe:      I remember a tunnel but not sure if I entered it.   if I went into the light at the at the end of the tunnel I could not come back

Did you see a light?           Yes

it was far off and was very bright

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

I know that now time is not really important to me.  I do not like being held in time.  I do not like clocks that dictate my life.  I feel like it is not easy being in time and space. it is limiting

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

I really have a different belief system but do not really know what it is...I just do not hold to the strictness of my old faith

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes

I felt I could not go beyond a certain point (the light) or I would not return to this life

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Uncertain

I am not sure...I know I decided to not go into the light or maybe even the tunnel.  I am not sure how far into this I got.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain

I feel like I have a deeper way of "seeing" things.  I know before a person dies that they are going to die.  it has been difficult because this has happened quite a few times...

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I am more open less strict in my faith..

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       it has been on my mind almost every day, especially in the last 10 years or so.  I want to understand if this was a real experience and why

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

I do not think they got it...

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No