Kristy C's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

In the middle of my surgery I woke up, looked at the doctor & told him that what he was doing hurt. He told me they would be done shortly & then realized I had woken from anesthesia, I remember they were talking about golf. He started ordering more anesthesia then I remember hearing my heart monitor beeping, the nurses started saying they were loosing me and asking me to stay with them then beep beep beeeeepp. Next thing I knew, I was standing over the doctor watching them work on me, I wasn't scared I was fascinated. I could see everyone. I know they were working on me, they seemed extremely hurried, and I remember it amused me because I was no longer in pain. I remember being pulled backwards and when I turned I was in an earthy tunnel and a door was before me that opened into a spectacular light. The light was brilliant, but it did not hurt! As I passed into it, it glowed with warmth, love, knowledge, & understanding. Not just my own knowledge but knowledge of everything complete understanding, collective but separate. Everything made sense. Everything was more vivid the colors were brighter & deeper, everything was tranquil and at peace the moment I crossed into the light. I was now standing in a lush rolling meadow, covered with blooms & trees. I felt a presence strong and even more wonderful; I knew my family was with me. The presence had a deep resonating voice that touched the core of your soul. I don't remember what the voice told me, but the peace & calm seemed to magnify. I remember sitting in the meadow, I was cradling something in my arms, asking to cross a small free flowing stream, and not being allowed, I asked to stay. I did not want to go back. I knew the peace, warmth & light could not follow me back. I tried to walk toward the stream, but then I was being pulled down & backwards through the door. I remember leaving the warm glow of the light and being filled with immense sadness as all of the knowledge and peace left me, my senses dimmed, & my vision seemed muddied compared to the brilliant vibrancy of the meadow. I was angry, mad.  I felt the air being knocked out of me as I hit my body and the pain returned. I remember the nurse saying she's back & I started sobbing telling them I didn't want to come back, begging for them to send me back to the light. The nurse just kept saying stay with us. Don’t close you eyes just stay with us, & she was holding my hand. When I think about it I am filled with an extreme since of grief & loss but I know that I will be returning someday & then they will let me cross the stream.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     It is extremely difficult to express the warmth, comfort, love, and profound knowledge. there aren't enough descriptors in the English language that would ever truly be able to convey the depth or vibrancy.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain     

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    when I passed through the light

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            when I passed through the light

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Everything was clear, colors were vibrant, alive, deeper & brighter.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     I remember just knowing the voice I heard was penetrating, but the knowledge of the universe felt shared. I could feel my family's thoughts

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes           

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes    

Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes    

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain      I felt like I knew everything would be ok & I am more patient know, I have a better understanding of people & their needs & fears

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain     

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes    

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time seemed endless. It didn't matter to hurry or rush, there was no need

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     no they wouldn't allow me, I knew that if I crossed I would stay there.

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain
            I sometimes have dreams in which I feel a hint of the warmth for the light & most times those dreams come to pass, but some of them have been months away. I will tell my husband & then remind him when it is happening & he can relay what I had originally told him & when.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      I sometimes have dreams in which I feel a hint of the warmth for the light & most times those dreams come to pass, but some of them have been months away. I will tell my husband & then remind him when it is happening & he can relay what I had originally told him & when. I seem to know more about people than they would normally let any strange know, I have a deeper understanding of what life is supposed to teach.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     My family didn't believe me until I had told them about a few dreams I had had where there had been family turmoil & I had not been privy to any of that knowledge.  When I told them what the problems were and the different paths they had and that  passed loved ones were watching & there with them whatever their decision. It scared them. I also know when people close to me have passed or are going to pass, before anyone calls to tell me.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real   

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    yes

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I have learned to be more patient with people, because I know that while here we all have a limited understanding

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I am more  open minded

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes