Kolleen's NDE

Experience description: 

I remember me going through an orange tunnel accompanied by an entity, it was guiding me. But the feeling of energies going up and down through this tunnel made me worrying. When arrived to the end, I was greeted by, in fact I think they were shades thanking and greeting me. I had the feeling to have already met them before, at one time or another. Then, someone guided me through a very bright corridor (my mind goes blank at this moment) then I find myself in a bath of flames. I should understand something and I didn’t know what, until I told myself that it was not normal to feel so well there. I was not alone, I saw the one who became my husband later one.  He told me how to leave. Something happened in me and all at once, the flames burned my body and I called Saint-Pierre for help, with the hope he would open the door for me. That’s what he did after a while, checking that I reached the result he wanted me to reach.

Out of there, I felt extremely well and I was guided outside where St Jean-Baptiste began to take care of me. He asked me to sit and I had the feeling to be above the clouds, above of a sea of clouds. Then, he hold a book to me, which he allowed me to leaf through. My life was written there (I absolutely don’t remember the details  and I don’t think there are still topical topics; I think that it was about the life I should have had in case I missed my exam). After discussing with St Jean-Baptiste he asks me if I agreed or not (I don’t remember the subject) and when I asked to review some details that I wanted to remember, nothing any more, all pages were blank. Then someone took me back inside and opened another door. There, I saw my mother and one of my sisters walking in a spangled gold street. I don’t remember any more what I was told about them.

Then, I asked to see the Virgin Mary and someone asked me to enter another (room) without any wall. After a while, she arrived, being accompanied by his Son, he was a child approximately 6 years old. Then she told me about the confusion of God, my eternal father. I asked if I could be of any help and she told me that it was exactly what they were expecting from me.  It was the same thing for all those who had the same experience but without being obliged, always with free will.  Thus I asked to meet God to decide with him what I could do to serve his cause and she told me that God was not someone we could meet, we wouldn’t bear the vision. But he is an energy that we can feel and see as a light of variable intensity depending of one’s heart’s purity. He came following Mary’s request. I considered this presence as an honour and told him my feeling. I also felt this sadness which Mary spoke about to me and he told me “I chose you with a few others also chosen to try to awake the consciousnesses, that’s a last chance I give them. They all think they are God so I consider they don’t need me any more. He showed me the future of the world and we almost arrived at the ultimate point because, since the Gulf war, all what I was shown occurred and even more since Bush came to power.

Moreover, nature already began its work and less things evolve, more it will react, the Apocalypse. He  tells me that for the ones chosen, they don’t have to fear the death because he will be with us, what ever will happen. He told me about the means at my disposal (this, I will keep for me) and why I can be useful for him. Every one who is chosen has its own way to go. There were also other middle-aged people. I know that they help me for doing my task. They are my guides. I go out of the room again and I was asked to enter another one, full of children of different ages. Then I was asked to choose the children I’ll have in the future, while someone gave me the strong and the weak points weak of each one; I did it.  And, with a lightning speed, I came round, in the state described above.  

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes, I was too young and I came to the conclusion that I had an NDE only recently.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes
I  am prone to stop breathing while sleeping and at this time, I took refuge to the bottom of my bed. I remember me being expelled of my sheets and having suffocated. Since this, I’m claustrophobic. 

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? As a child thrown in the middle of adults’ problems.

    Was the experience dream like in any way?  Not really since I could feel pain in the flesh.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     It is difficult to say, I left without physical body but when arrived up there, I had the impression that a body wrapped me and that this body was developing. Was it to help me to find my place in the future? 

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  For sure but the worries I had about what I saw took precedence over this. 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No  Now, I would compare this tunnel with an umbilical cord which some light goes through.

Did you see a light?           Yes. Orange and soft as a mother’s belly who is expecting a baby.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes, I already described it above. A priori, I knew them. That’s the feeling I had.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes
As written above in my life’s book, all this is cancelled and I do my own choices, always trying to respect my promises. In the day after day life, that means I have the husband and the children I chose and I lost the children I should have had in my original fate.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

The Gulf war, Bush election, some islamists in an US airport. I won’t tell anything about the rest; I have already given a few additionnal details above and in any case, everything can always move to better or worse depending on human decisions.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

The sea of clouds and the worse, I mean the bath of fire.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Yes of course! There is no death but eternal rebirths; dying is coming into the world; God can make judgment mistakes and he accepts this. That’s the reason why he gives us an ultimate chance now.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events? Yes

Most of them occurred and I’m waiting to see what will happen for the others. I don’t wish anybody to know the worst of what I was shown. Read the apocalypse written by St-Jean and put yourself in his position, seeing things which are out of your time. I could make it because, in my dreams, as for Nostra-Damus, all is symbolic.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes, Occasionnal cures, different premonitions and perception about the signs they send to me.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes

Not immediately, but the time they chose was approximately 10 years ago.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?

To be with God, I do not need to go to mass, I take life with diplomacy and I know that nothing happens without reason.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

They understood and as they let me having my free will, I let also the others having their own free will.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  They rely on me and may be I won’t be equal to the task.
           
What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best is to be in God’s secrecy because I surely don’t deserve it. The worst is to consider I am right.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes