Kim G's NDE

Experience description: 

I was in an Urgent Care Clinic receiving a Pic IV Line. The line was inserted and the nurse went to Radiology to confirm the placement of the Line. I had just came back from X-ray and told the technician I was dizzy and not feeling well.  No one was in the patient room when I started to go into shock because I was allergic to the PIC Line because it was made from Latex.

I became very dizzy and had to lay down on the examination table.  I started to feel weak, and it became hard to form words. I could hear everyone around me trying different procedures to bring me back. I realized I was not in my body but seemed to be in an area that is parallel to ours.

When I jumped to this parallel universe I was able to be at one place but observe the language of the clinical staff trying different ways to get me to respond.

I was at a place that had unlimited light.  There were no landmarks. This light was white and all encompassing.  My body was absorbed into the light. I felt surrounded by people. Some I knew, other I did not know them.  One voice of someone I did not recognize was talking to me.  As they talked I felt my body had left and my soul was here.  I felt the most serene and contentment I had ever felt in my life.  I live with constant pain from my body. I did not feel my body, therefore I felt no pain.

The voice asked me if I wanted to stay here.  I said yes for it was the most comforting place I had ever been.  Then different voices welcomed me to this place.  Then I heard my decease Father ask me if I thought I had done everything I wanted to do back where my body was.  I remembering considering this request. I realized at that point that if I said yes I would be stuck here.  I also became aware that this place was a stepping stone to someplace even bigger than this.  Everyone said they wanted me to stay.

At this point I heard my husband calling my name.  He kept repeating my name and saying wake up Kim.  I ignored his request because of the all consuming delight that I had finally gone someplace where there is no pain.  Where I felt such joy and contentment I did not want to go back.

Then the voice of my father said I had to make a decision.  I started to search my thoughts as to why I should stay here, and why I should return to earth.  I heard my father say there was much work still to be done with my family.  Suddenly I realized I did not want to stay here.

I tried to pull away from this warm, white lighted universe where all pain is gone, where waves of contentment and love surged all around me. 

I told my father I want to come back.  At this point I was back on the examination table hearing my husband calling me to wake up.  I struggled to wake. I then realized the other universe did not want me to go and there began a pull between that universe and my husband calling.  I kept saying I want to come back, and feeling the others saying we want you to stay.  This struggle seemed to go one for awhile, however, I had no sense of time.

I returned to my body with a slam, like I was thrown into myself.  I immediately started to throw up mass quantities of mucus.  Later it was told to me that at least 2 pints of mucus left my body.

I woke from the lethargic struggle, feeling my body's pains, and understanding immediately the choice I had just made.

The treatment team was so excited to have me awake that no one asked any questions of me.  I was taken by ambulance to the hospital which is 20 minutes away from the Clinic.

During the ambulance ride I was thinking about the white-lighted place and suddenly I returned to it.  I again felt this all encompassing warmth and contentment such as my life had never known.  I struggled to return, and once again I was slammed into my body just in time to see one of the Ambulance team hovering over me with two heart paddles in his hand.  They were getting ready to revive me by electrically jolting my heart.

In the Emergency Room they drugged me because I was struggling on the table so much.  I do not remember even going into the ER.

I later accounted to my husband what had happened to me and have asked him to tell me his side of the story.  I told him at times I was not in my body.  He believed that had he not been there calling my name they would have lost me.

I realized that this was true.  I would have gladly stayed with the white light feeling the warm energy surging through my body, where pain no longer exists just the love and contentment.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No, Latex Allergic Reaction, Anapolotic Shock

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

I was receiving a PIC Line IV for antibiotic Home Use, It was a standard procedure, The staff at the Clinic did not know what was happening to me. My husband was there and he had to tell them exactly what to do.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I could feel anything.  I could not feel my body. I felt able to make decisions and listen to questions and to think about them and answer them.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No, I was not in a dream.  I seemed I was in a parallel universe where I could see what was happening in the room where my body was, but the room where my soul now resided was filled with white light and warmth.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

My body was left in the room I was in.  My soul was at another place talking to people I knew where dead.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      It was as if I jumped from my body to another area that had no boundaries or landmarks.

Did you see a light?           Yes

The white light surrounded me.  There were individual white lights for everyone that I felt was here with me.  We all had our own light.  The light seemed to surround you as a form of feeling, not a physical form that we see on earth.

The while light was a feeling of warmth and contentment.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

I knew all of them had died.  This knowledge was given to my thoughts.  Some people I recognized, others I did not.  I was listening to my father asking me a question. I remember I did not talk back to his question.  I thought of a response and felt that everyone there knew what I was trying to tell them. We communicated through thought waves.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes

After the initial experience I was ambulanced to the hospital.  I was thinking of what happened especially the white light, the warmth of contentment and the happiness of feeling no pain.  As soon as I thought of this placed I returned like I had not left the place. No one voice did I hear, only pure joy.

I realized that this place was not the ultimate place to be. I had a feeling that these people had not completed some task that would lead them on to another higher place.  I knew that if I stayed I would not go back to my body. I could think of the ramifications that would cause my family pain from a loss.  I knew I came back for a reason. I needed to do some task that I did not know what it might be.  That after I had completed this task the universe would shift at the weight of completing it.  I realized that I might not ever know what I should be doing to complete the task.

I know I shall not be afraid to die. I know that the other place is a form of contentment. I know that there are layers to the ultimate part of this universe and that I had only been in one such place.  One place which was task orientated.  I know I have something in my life that I must do to help someone.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

There is something I must do that this place was asking me to complete. I felt I must help someone who will touch my life as much as possible. I do not know who that is.  I have a very strong feeling that I have to help anyone who asks. I felt that once my task was completed then I would return to a higher place of contentment that I had already been in.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

This parallel universe mimicked ours except there were no physical bodies here.  It was like there were two rooms side-by-side. That I was allowed to look into where my body lay, and then turn my thoughts back to the universe I was in. I understood that the place I was at offered me something that earth could never do.  That I was free from pain, joyful, contented, at peace.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes, The time was running faster where my body was.  The other universe had no feeling of urgency of time.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes, I knew this was a stepping stone to another better place of white light.

In order to go to a different level of being closer to pure contentment that I had to do some task back on earth to go on to the other place.  I had to go back to earth and help someone.  After I had do this I felt that when I died I had completed the task I was on earth for.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes

The white light was as far as the eye could see.  There was not a physical structure of materials, including the body.  This place was purely a thought process place.  I knew if I stayed in this place my essence would be constantly searching for thing thing I did not do on earth.  I knew I had to leave this place in order to complete a task.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

I knew that I had to go back into my body.  I had to help someone. That this person I helped would do some awe inspiring thing that would shift the universe to a non chaotic order.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

I knew I was fighting the people in this contented place to return to my body. At first the struggle was hard, for they did not want me to go.

I could hear my husbands voice asking me to wake up.  I knew I must return to my body and talk to my husband.  A struggle was going on, a push-pull struggle.

I remember telling my husband that the people there would not let me go.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No response

I have the ability to feel the energy of a person by identifying what kind of energy the person emits to others.

I have the ability to tell anyone, using a piece of jewelry they wear often the history of the emotions of the object.

I have the ability of using "White Light" to cleanse and fill me with positive energy.

Now I know I can search out this other universe energy and see if it has tilted or altered. There is a renewed strength of urgency that this place could shift to another state that would not be a comforting place to reside.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

We have all heard of near death experiences by other people.  That as humans we hesitate to tell other because we feel they would not believe. I have a feeling someone of Christian faith would not believe such a place exists.

I tell this story to others who believe in reincarnation.  For this is the changing life force I feel when I die.

I know now that when I die I will be full of contentment and joy.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I can talk to others who might believe such a place exist. I have not talked with anyone else who has experienced this.

I want to shout to everyone I know to not waste your time on earth with petty things, like worry, but to help others as much as possible. To concentrate on making yourself happy through helping others.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

The joy I feel that everyone I help I will move forward in a feeling of contentment to have completed a task on earth.  I never turn down help from friends or other people.  I have become aware that our time on earth is short.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

Some people believed that a place could exist after death.  Most Christians believe in a physical place, whereas this place is where your essence goes.

I do not talk to others about this much.  I do not know if they will believe me, however, I do not care.  If they are to know that another place exists then it will be revealed to them in time.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Joy that I was now back in my own body.  A certainty of knowing a place exist when you die where your body does not reside, but your brain is there.

I am happy I had a chance to have this happen to me. I also feel an urgency to help others in this world.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worse part of this experience is understanding that I had left my body behind and I was at some other place.  Also that the people in this place pulled at me to stay there.

The best part of the experience is knowing that pure contentment and joy will exist after my death.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        As a Buddhist, I believe in reincarnation.  After this near death experience I realize that there are different levels after death.  That you need to fulfill as much as possible all tasks to help others while on earth.  That if you live a wasted life you will keep evolving to earth to relearn the reason you are here in the first place.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes

I can meditate using the strength of the "Light" to cleanse my body of negative feelings.  That I can rid myself of negative thoughts and enter a state of pure joy.  I can search out this place through the light to see if it is still there, but I cannot go inside this place.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

It can be very hard to describe this place using the English language for some feelings while I was there have no name.  I cannot stress to anyone the strength of my beliefs after experiencing this near death occurrence.

After this happened I went to the library and searched for more information on the "white light" and came across a book I have used before to meditate with the white light to rid myself of negativity and to medically rid myself of pain.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    Did you seek out other who have had experiences similar to your own?

Did you try and find books that would explain what happened to you?