Ki R Possible NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

It started I was I want to say floating but it felt more like I was being pulled backwards through space I was not scared I felt very peaceful.  I could see the earth and it was getting further away I could see the planets going by me and I could see the stars.  at this point is when I was told but I didn't hear a voice why everything was and especially a lot about the earth which I cannot remember today I just remember having this knowing of all things and I looked at the earth smiled and said to myself almost like a light bulb going off, oh I get it, I understood and it was very beautiful and there was no sense of time as I was moving through space.  also as I got to a certain point my body turned although I was not aware of my body and never actually looked down so I don't know.  as my body turned I felt like there was someone there but didn't see anything but something was communicating with me telepathically and every thought was instant. what the conversation was I don't remember. 

I looked ahead and there was a vast almost panoramic line of light stretched across space I could see blackness above it and blackness below as I got closer to this light which sort of looked like the sun shining through a thick opaque type of glass it was very comforting and not painful to look at like the sun.  as I got further is when the overwhelming sense of my body absorbing all of this light it engulfed me it washed me it filled me up with such love I cannot explain there is no word stronger than love here on earth to describe it. I know now that this was god. as I got closer I could see silhouette shapes of people all lined up along the vastness of this light and that was it. 

I woke up in the morning and said to myself well that was a weird dream and I didn't tell anyone for a long time because I thought they might think I was a little kookoo I had never heard of these experiences before.  I then moved into my moms house with my husband and two children and I believe I may have been very early in my pregnancy with my second son when this happened.  we moved in and all was good I decided to confide in my mom about what I had experienced and she didn't have much to say.  besides wow.  it is very hard to try and explain it to people.  she came to me one day and said my grandmother bought her a book it was called 90 minutes in heaven my grandmother had no idea about my experience.

I read this book and as I read I got to the part when he is enveloped in this light with his indescribable word of overwhelming love, my eyes welled up my whole body tingled and I thought to myself oh my gosh this is exactly what happened to me.  I said to my mother could something could have possibly happened to me in my sleep?  did I die in my sleep? I became very upset about this because I don't know what happened and the thought of me dying in my sleep was quite scary. I feel fine and have no health problems.  and have not shared my story with many besides my close family and friends.  I know what I experienced. I felt the love of god and would not lie about something like that, because I am a born again Christian and believe in Jesus and God. I am not afraid to die anymore.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     it is hard to explain the light and how god is the light and the light completely engulfs you with an overwhelming sense of love a love no one here understands also that you can speak with your thoughts instantly there is no time and a feeling like I was always there and my experience here on earth never happened also that I had a knowledge of everything I knew why the earth was here how it was made that everything is perfectly executed and everything is connected all is one with god

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    when I was told, although there was no voice to be heard it was more like in my thoughts, about everything I knew everything, I understood lets say is a better way to put it, I had an understanding about the whole universe and why planets and stars are where they are why people were here on this particular planet also I had no memory of being on earth I felt like I was always there

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            when I was told, although there was no voice to be heard it was more like in my thoughts, about everything I knew everything, I understood lets say is a better way to put it, I had an understanding about the whole universe and why planets and stars are where they are why people were here on this particular planet also I had no memory of being on earth I felt like I was always there

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     everything seemed very clear and crisp I could see the blue and green of the earth and the clouds. also when I turned to the light it was almost like I could see further in my peripheral vision than normal almost all the way around

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            excitement, joy, peace, happiness, and the love of god was beyond words. when I think about it now I start to cry because it was so wonderful and I miss it and I feel very gracious I was able to experience what happened to me

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     it was a bright whitish opaque glowing light not like light here it is difficult to explain it, almost like it was alive and not just a from a  source, like light coming from a light bulb  but all around, all encompassing

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I did not see who was with me in the time when I was being pulled through space but I knew and was communicating with someone. also the silhouettes of the people lined up along the edge of the light

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     there was no time none if that makes sense there is no sense of time passing you just are.  I had no memory of being on earth I did not say to myself I miss my family. also it felt like I had always been there

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I knew why the universe was made how it was made why the planets are where they are and why the stars are there I felt like the stars were special. I knew how the earth was made and humans and people and the whole order of it all why the oceans do what they do and the plants animals insects people are all one we are all connected to everything like we were made from one source even the planets we are all a part of everything.  the details of the order of it all I do not remember

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     I don't know if I could call it a boundary as I had free will to go where ever I wanted when I got close to the light I didn't see any wall or anything it was almost like a giant rip in space like it just opened up like a zipper but I didn't see anything the light was just there

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     about 3-4 years I put it out of my mind for awhile.  I told my mom first then my husband then my best friend my mom was very interested an we have talked about it many times. my husband listened but didn't have much to say, and my best friend who has mixed feelings about religion and stuff like that I thought she would think I was crazy but she ended up supporting me and asked me a lot of questions

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was probably real    at first I thought it was a dream. and never really thought about it but always wondered why this happened to me.  I obviously have no idea what it is like to be in heaven so when I read the book 90 minutes in heaven I was astonished at the similarities and that is when I had realized oh my gosh this is what happened to me and I became well aware of my experience and talked about it frequently with my family and have always wondered did I die in my sleep and come back??

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    yes I look at the world differently I look at people differently because I was told that we are all one and we shouldn't treat people badly and have respect for one another because we are all one. also the love that I felt when I think about it I cry every time because it was so wonderful I wish I could share it with everyone.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I know what happened I felt things I have never felt I knew things no one knows. I am very moved about it. when I think about it I get very emotional. I think if I could have stayed I would have. but there was a reason I came back

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I feel closer to my family and friends and I have a different outlook on life

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I wish everyone can feel the love I felt even people who are not nice I want everyone to be there because we all came from there.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes