Kerry L's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

To begin with a guy I liked had moved overseas because of the military.  This left me very, very depressed.  I was living with my sister at the time.  She was a office worker and her husband was a cop.  I got so depressed I wrote a letter saying I didn't want to live anymore.  So I took a bunch of pills.  My sister found me and called the ambulance.  I remember on the way to the hospital that someone said we are losing her.  And I don't remember the rest of the ride there, until we got there.  Then they asked me a bunch of questions.  I know I had a near death experience because I later read a few books on it.  And everything in these books were some of the things that happened to me.  Not everything happened that people talked about in those books, but a lot of those things.  I still remember this experience today, just as if it had happened just yesterday.  As plain to remember in my mind.  It was a forever changing experience for me. 

I remember everything being so dark.  And I was being whisked through a tunnel at a very high rate of speed.  There was the brightest light I have ever seen.  It was blinding.  I remember going through this tunnel, and then I remember floating above a field of flowers.  Then I remember seeing the pearly gates and they were so beautiful. I wanted to get in there so badly, but was allowed to look over the gate, but the gate wouldn't open.  Everything on the other side was so beautiful.  More beautiful than anyone could imagine.  The roads were emerald and diamonds everywhere with gold.  Everything was so shiny and sparkly and just awesomely breathtaking.  I saw Our Heavenly Father and he was sitting on a throne.  He looked ghostly like, but a bright whitish glow about him.  I kept saying, I need to get in there, I need to go to heaven. Let me in, Let me in.   And I remember distinctly that his reply was "You can't get in here, it's not your time to go."  And then he disappeared and everything went backwards.  Back through the flowers, the bright light, the tunnel, and the darkness. 

I've read somewhere that people who have NDE sometimes afterwards sometimes have a sixth sense or a stronger sense of things that are going to happen.  I found this out myself.  I have a few visions, or things just pop into my head like something is going to happen and it does.  It may not be at that moment, or it may be a year or two up the road, but I've had things come true, from images or things and they do come true.  I tell you this NDE completely changed my life.  It made me not afraid to die, but more aware of a higher being, and I knew then that God had something more in store for my life.  I just didn't know what at the time. Now I have a daughter in college and a beautiful granddaughter.  And that in itself is a beautiful thing.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I would say at the end when it became dark again

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I would say at the end when it became dark again

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Everything seemed more clear, more bright.  Everything had a really, really bright, brightness to it.  Everything more brighter than your normal colors. Our Heavenly Father seemed like a vision of brightness with an overwhelming glow.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      It was just really plain what was said to me.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Happy with what I was seeing, but scared, and just wanted to STAY There.  I didn't want to leave.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     Definitely a tunnel and then a bright light.  A very very bright light.

Did you see a light?           Yes     The light was almost blinding.  It was very, very bright.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     Yes, Our heavenly Father.  He was on a throne.  And he simply said "You can't get in here, it's not your time to go."

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     All I saw was the road, and it was made of emerald stone, and diamonds, and gold.  There were also pearls everywhere.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No       No, I tried to get through the gates, but I couldn't get through there, but I was allowed to see over the gates and that was all.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes  I have had things happen to me in visions that later became true.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     Yes, Psychic

Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I knew everything was real, just from the way it happened.  And later when I read a few books on it, I knew I had experienced a NDE.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I just know that heaven will be beautiful and I won't be afraid to die, when it is my time to go.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    It is as clear in my mind today as it was the night it happened.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I feel more closer to people

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     Yes, I got saved 8 years later.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No, this about sums it all up, as far as I can remember

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     It's as real now as it was then.