Ken G's NDE

Experience description: 

I went to have a hernia repair, a one day deal, but they kept me overnight.   I stayed in the hospital from 26 Nov till 30 Nov.

The next morning, at around 5 am, I had a liver and kidney failure.  The body began to fill with fluid.  I stopped breathing.  I remember watching medical staff from the corner of the room.  At first, I thought that there was someone else in the room whom they were working on. Then I realized it was me.  I felt peace and no pain.  I felt someone else in the room but they didn't say anything, they were just watching like me.

I wish they had let me go, as I will die of liver failure (HCV), and don't want to go slowly. It was the first time in years I felt no pain and was at peace. If I could go back, I would!

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

I was on a morphine pump, I believe it confused me.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

I didn't want people to think I was nuts as I was very confused

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

I had liver and kidney failure

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           confused

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   no, I know 100% I was watching them as I could see their backs.  There were a lot of people in the room working on me.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I was watching from a corner of the room

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No

Did you see a light?           No

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain

I believe there was someone to my right that wasn't part of this medical team and was there to meet me.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain

I remember them saying, "He's not breathing." Then I remember wondering whether I should tell them that I have a living will or not to tell them.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Uncertain

I am very confused about it. Everyone says it wasn't your time, but I wish they had let me go.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I have been to church, but because they send a basket after I was home.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

Yes! Most didn't want to hear it as they didn't want to believe that my HCV is this far along

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  confused

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best was the feeling of no pain, peace. Worst is not staying there as I have pain each day.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        it was real, there is something about it which I don't know but am seeking an answer.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Uncertain.  I don't know what to ask.