K.C. R's NDE

As I was hemorrhaging internally and going through severe fits of cold, heat, sweat, etc. I am told my eyes rolled back into my head and I lost consciousness.  My (intense!  Vivid!) recollection is a seamless series of events that I will try as best as possible to put into words.  First, let me digress and indicate why I am doing this.  Yesterday I had an executive physical, and in answering the doctor's questionnaire I wrote down "major trauma" in 2006.  Naturally he followed up on that and to make along story short said that my experience was so pure and vivid I should write it down and share it with others. He assumed I had read about other NDEs to bring clarity to my own events, but I told him no, as a matter of fact I had not read anything and it never occurred to me to do so.  He advised me to Google NDE and share my story.  I thought it might indeed be a good idea to get it on paper, so maybe I can share it with my grandson when he gets older; he is six now. 

So, I was in the hospital bed, feeling really, really bad.  My eyes rolled back into my head.  I then found myself standing in what appeared to be the basement of a large building.  Like the basement lobby of a very large hotel.  It was not a hotel, but just a very big open area, with lots of arched stone entryways to....not sure, but they were dark areas.   The light was a bit dim.  I looked all around me and there were these arched doorways all around, maybe 15 to 20 of them.  I looked again and over to my left, about 50 feet away there was what appeared to be a man standing next to a doorway.  

This whole series of events that I am describing in the basement, so to speak, was seen by me through some sort of vision filter; the best way to describe it is exactly like the digitized commercials we see on TV, where there are digital people - they look almost real, but just not quite.  I didn't have any glasses on (I don't wear them anyway, except to read small font) and there was nothing otherwise that made we aware of the digitized surroundings, that's just the way it was. 

I looked at the man.  He was looking off in another direction.  When I looked at him he turned a bit and faced me.  Our eyes locked in a gaze for a couple of seconds, then he started walking towards me.  The man was extremely intense looking.  He was Caucasian.  Had long brownish / dark hair, to his shoulders.  His eyes were really, really intense.  He had very chiseled facial features.  He looked like a cross between the Joker of Batman fame, and illustrations we see of Jesus Christ.  He was wearing an overcoat. Not a big man, about the same size and build as me - 5'11", fit and trim, slight build; not a real big guy.  He walks towards me.... 

I stand still as he walks closer.  He gets right up to me and grabs me.  We proceed to wrestle, for a very long period of time.  We physically wrestled.

On the ground.  Just like an extreme sporting event.  He was a superior wrestler than I.  Although I gave it a valiant effort, he was a bit faster, a bit smarter. Sometimes I would have a bit of an advantage, but he would quickly reassert his dominance.  My thinking during the wrestling is I am wrestling for my life.  If I lose I will die.  Not that he was mean, just that the wrestling is so powerful and the stakes are my life. He never said anything. In my mind he was in control the whole time.  

I was physically exhausted and was wondering how much longer I could last, then I finally broke free from his grip.  At the time I broke free I felt an immense sense of relief - like I get to live!  But at the same time I "knew"

that if had wanted to I would not have slipped away. I stood up, several feet away from him.  He stood up also, looking at me the whole time.  No facial expressions, just those deep, penetrating eyes and chiseled face looking at me. 

He turned back towards the archway he had come from, and walked back to where he initially was standing.  I looked around again, to try and figure out where I was at.  I saw the same dark archways.  I looked around again, and off to my right one of the archways had an incredible glow / light to it.  Kind of like a white mist was flowing from the archway.  That got my attention.  I was thinking "I wonder what that light is?"  I walked towards the lighted archway.   

As I got closer the light was more bright.  A color of bright white, so brilliant it is hard to describe.  It is also like a mist - I could feel it as I got closer to it.  Just before I got to the doorway and was in the presence of the light, like being immersed / enveloped in it I began to feel...all knowing, happy, stress less, exuberant, I am aware of all the answers to literally everything, just this ultra-fantastic existence of all problems vanishing, joy, physical and mental limitless being - that is about my best human description. 

I walked through the archway of incredible light, and was in a kind of room of this wonderful light.  The room was more like an elevator shaft (without the cables or elevator).  There was no ceiling. I'm standing in the middle of the "room" happily immersed in this wonderful misty, powerful light, and I begin to float upwards.  Up and up and up, in the beautiful nurturing light.  After what seemed like 5 - 10 seconds of floating I never reached a top or anything, but I shifted back to the hospital bed world.  It was like I jumped back into this world through my eyeballs...I jut floated up and up and then had this eyeball sensation that my eyes rolled back out from inside my head and I started to see this world again.   

I opened my eyes (although I never had any sensation of closing them or opening them) and saw my brother Kip's face inches away from mine.  He blurted out "Where'd you go?  Where have you been?"  The whole series of events was so vivid, and so real, I thought for several seconds "How do I explain it?"  I just looked at him and said "I'll tell you later!"  I was totally dumbfounded on how to put it into words. 

It was so intense, so real, so very real, that the best way I can possibly attempt to describe it is to say that that was the real world I was in; the world I am in now as I type this is the "dream world."  

I've been back to that world (different surroundings and events; same light and euphoria experiences) twice since, by the way, in glorious dreams.

Further evidence - not that I need any now - that this is the dream world and the other side is what is "real."  

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     The sensations were so utterly strong they defy description in language.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Had a bad motorcycle accident on 2/18.  Crushed abdomen / chest area.   Crushed all ribs.  Punctured / collapsed lungs.  The doctors in ER punctured my chest by my heart to put in a chest tube to get the blood out and pump air in. Nearly died that day - but that was not the day of my experience.  Was in ICU for 11 days. On day #7 they removed the chest tube.  That night my spleen burst and I was bleeding internally. I lost consciousness, so to speak, of this world we are now in and went to another place...

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    During the wrestling, and as I walked into the light and was overcome with amazing, indescribable euphoria and intelligence.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            During the wrestling, and as I walked into the light and was overcome with amazing, indescribable euphoria and intelligence.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     The event was in somewhat akin to digital animation.  The light was the brightest white I have ever seen.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No       Nothing to hear really - there was no dialogue.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Uncertainty about where I was (in the basement). Apprehension as he was walking towards me.  Somewhat of fear or more like dread as we were wrestling.  Relief as I broke free. Absolute euphoria during the light phase, as well as absolute, all-knowing intelligence.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     Walked through the stone archway into the "elevator shaft."

Did you see a light?           Yes     Unworldly bright white light.  Like the white light you see when you arc weld things.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     For the first 9 months as I dealt with this internally I assumed I was wrestling with the devil; I've since examined it further and know the opposite to be true...

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       My entire life has changed, in a positive, fantastic way.  I learned peace, perspective, kindness, love, compassion, and on and on and on.... 

The "accident" was by far the best thing to ever happen to me.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes            Basement made of stone, archways;  "Elevator shaft."

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Yes and no...it is hard to put this into words... 

Yes in that the "switch" back and forth from / to this world was like real world time. 

No, in that the "switches" were seamless.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            The whole universe was revealed to me as I was immersed in the light.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     Walked through the archway; floated up through the shaft.

Did you become aware of future events?       No
           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes    

I have had multiple instances of knowing - really knowing - things before they happen.  Not just a gut instinct, but a firm knowledge and foresight.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I shared it with my wife a week or so later.  I've shared it with my daughter who is 25.  Some co-worker / friends. My doctor yesterday... There reactions were pretty much like "Wow!"

A heightened level of spirituality is the usual influencing factor.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I'd heard about it on Tv or in a magazine, about the same as if you asked me If I knew what a nuclear reactor was; I'd heard about them in passing but never thought anything about it or read about it.  Had no real interest.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It took a lot of time to assimilate the meaning.  I was rather bewildered about it all.  I knew what happened, and it was more real than I can describe, but I did not know how to verbalize it.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The meaning of the wrestling episode - I think a lot about that.  The whole all-knowing thing - has brought endless peace to my thinking and life (as I know it in this "dream world" we are currently in...)

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            The reality of the event defies human description.  It was the best thing that ever happened to me - besides the subsequent two "dreams" I've had with a similar experience.  I can better verbalize it now.  I'm still "curious" as to the meaning of the wrestling episode; I grapple with theories...

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes    

All more positive.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes            I crave understanding.  I love going to church and experiencing / exploring God.  I pray all the time.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes