Experience description:
I was in a
dark moist place that was warm. I felt totally peaceful there. Then a man in a
blue shirt showed up and picked me up, and we went walking. The further we
walked the brighter the light became, and he did, too. He carried me over a void
place, and I was given to understand that it was hell, because there was no God
there at all. It was a featureless plain that the person carried me through, all
the while glowing brighter and brighter and the road we were on glowed brighter
and brighter as well. Finally we were out of the void spot and the person was so
bright I couldn't look at him anymore. He carried me until we reached an area
that looked like to me three windows onto heaven. There I was given to
understand my place wasn't there yet, and I had to go back to my body. When I
did, the pain was immense and immediate.
I am no
longer afraid to die.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes The absolute peace and comfort I felt. The regret when I knew my place
wasn't there yet and I had to return to my extremely ill body.
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes My major organs were shutting down, and no one knew why. I was unaware
of this, however. My liver failed first, then my heart stopped, then my kidneys
failed. My husband found me turning blue in bed. I awoke, but my sense of
hearing was gone and I couldn't talk correctly. He called 911.
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
While he was carrying me on the bright road while he and the road got so bright
I was dazzled, and when I realized I had to go back to my body.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
I had never felt such peace and joy and welcoming in my life. I belonged there
and they are waiting for me to return when it is time.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I feel like I went from the shadow of the valley of death to complete
light, and I did.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Joy, peace and awe
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes It was
the place where I was waiting for the light to come, but it wasn't a tunnel for
me, it was just kind of dark, like gloaming time.
Did you
see a light?
Uncertain It got lighter, but until the man in the blue shirt picked me up
and started to carry me, then the light grew and got brighter and brighter.
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Uncertain Just the man in the blue shirt, and we didn't talk, he just let
me know things
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
No I had been held up at gun point at the bank I worked for a few years
earlier and had already had a life review at that time.
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes The three ways into heaven were beautiful.
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes I was given to understand my place wasn't there yet. No, I had no idea
of what would happen if I crossed the boundary, because I couldn't, it wasn't my
time yet
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes I told my physician, and a nurse while I was still hospitalized. I told
my husband, and my children and my psychiatrist after I was out of the hospital.
I don't know if it affected anyone or not.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes My mother had one back in 1960, but it didn't sound anything like hers.
She saw her body and I wasn't aware of mine. No, it didn't affect me.
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real The experience happened, I questioned my
doctor & psychiatrist to see if they thought that it was synapses of a dying
brain, they didn't, and I don't either. Something like that had never happened
to me before or since. It was real because it happened.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The sense of
total peace and joy I felt. I have never felt that at all before like that. It
is indescribable.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real It was real, and if it had been a dream or
such it wouldn't be so clear and bright like it just happened, and I'm not
afraid to die, I'm ready.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I pray more.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes I could
probably give more details, but the questions were pretty general.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
What physical problems remain after the NDE, and What senses had you lost prior
to your NDE, Does anyone in your family think you got a miracle & why
