EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
The alarm on the blood pressure machine was the last
thing I heard before it felt like I shot out of myself. In the next instant, my
back was to the ceiling and I was looking down at all the activity. I knew the
body on the table was mine, but it didn't matter to me. All I felt was an
intense curiosity about what I was seeing. There was a bright silvery white
light to my left, but I didn't want to look at it yet. In stead I wanted to look
the doctor in the eye. With a thought I was there face to face with him, but he
couldn't see me. His concern was to get the baby out, while another group worked
on me. With a mere thought I went around to each person in the room and watched
them. I was looking at my nurse (she looked so sad) when suddenly I was slammed
back into myself with tremendous force. All the pain gripped me, and I could
feel the pressure from the incision on my lower abdomen. I heard someone say "We
have her back". Then under anesthesia I went. When I awoke in recovery the same
nurse was there that had been holding my hand in the operating room. I told her
about the things I'd seen and heard while I'd been outside myself.
Unfortunately, it frightened her and after that day I didn't see her again. When
I tried to talk to the doctor about it he ignored me.
I
can't fully describe the intensity of how it felt: colors were more vivid, sound
was different-more melodic, there was absolutely no fear only curiosity. Before
I came back I heard (more like a thought) "Not yet." I tell you, coming back was
scarier than leaving...
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes Mere words are inadequate to express the experience.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes I was in hard labor for 14 hours with no progress. My daughter was in
fetal distress and I was rushed to the operating room for an emergency cesarean
section. While being prepped, my blood pressure dropped to 62/48 and I went into
shock.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
Right before I came back.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
Right before I came back.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes Everything seemed to be luminescent and the colors were much more vivid.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes It was more like hearing thoughts and it had a melodic
quality.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Curiosity and detachment.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes Off to the left, silvery white.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No I could sense others nearby.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes I heard what was said around me and I could describe what they were
doing to me while I was... away...
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes There was no sense of time at all.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes I knew I couldn't leave the room.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I've had them as long as I can remember, but they've intensified since
this happened.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I shared it with the nurse. After that I waited 14 years before I told
anyone else. It frightened many people, but now that I've talked about it more I
find that people who are old or ill want to hear. I believe it gives them
comfort to know or hear that there is something else after this organic life.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I know it was real.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I will be there again someday.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
They're more significant.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I'm
now spiritual, but I practice no indoctrinated religion.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
