Kathryn G's NDE

Experience description: 

I had a cardiac arrest.  The next thing I remember is looking at my body laying on the gurney and I looked inside the ambulance and saw a small sign that gave the load capacity.  Being a rather plump person with a sense of humor about it I looked at my self lying there and thought ok we'll both fit.  Then I stepped up into the ambulance and my Dad Who had just died in May said " What are you doing here? (although he didn't really speak I just knew)  He was smiling and teasing me I answered " I don't know."  Then he communicated to me " You have to go back you have grandkids."  My Mom was sitting next to my dad and she communicated her agreement with my Dad. 

Then I remembered floating over my body and seeing the Doctors and Nurses working on my body and I remember thinking to myself, "Why are they so upset?"  It was okay where I was but I couldn't communicate that to them but that didn't upset me I just have no words to describe the light coming from my parents or the way I felt.  I still cant put it into words. 

The next thing I was aware of was my Daughter telling me I was in the hospital they had just done surgery on my heart and I needed to fight because I was in ICU.  She and my two sons, my daughter in law and my sister were so upset and I couldn't tell them I was going to be ok because I was on a respirator and it made me mad.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

I know what happened to me is as real as the fact that the sun sets in the West can not understand why some doubt what I know is true.  It has confirmed what I always known was true.  That we are not alone when we leave the earth, that some how life goes on. and that we can communicate with those who have left the earth before us. And that there are beings ( some call them angels ) that are every where and they help us when we need it.  I guess my frustration is I cant find the words to describe what I felt or what I know to be true.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

I had a sudden cardiac arrest I felt no pain.  I just fell over dead on my front lawn.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           It was as clear as a bell.  I knew every thing that I was doing but my body was not with me.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No It was just as real as could be.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No

Did you see a light?           Yes, White but I cant describe its brilliance or how it was coming from the inside of my parents.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain

I know I am supposed to be here to finish being a good grandma.  I know that the love we feel goes on with us and I know we can communicate with those that have gone before us if we listen and believe what our hearts tell us.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

My sister told me I had to be out of my body because the direction the EMTs were putting me the ambulance would not allow me to read the load capacity sign.  My sister said I was completely naked lying on the bed in the ER and that is how I saw myself.  I started out with all my clothes on.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain

The beauty came from knowing where I was.  It was the most wonderful place I've  ever been.  Words cant describe it.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes, I know where I'm going when I leave this world.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

My Dad told me I had to go back and my mom agreed.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes, I am understand my dreams now.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I know life is a gift we are here to learn, we chose our circumstances to do that learning and since I chose to be sick most of my life I have no one to blame and I'm no longer angry or depressed about my chronic pain.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       My Grand kids have a happy fun loving new Grandma.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

My youngest son believes me completely, My daughter believes the parts the agree with her Christian upbringing.  My oldest believes me but he wont talk about it with out making jokes about it.  He's afraid of what people might say.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  First I was just mad because when I went back in my body I was back in pain.  After that I was happy and at peace.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      It was really an easy way to die that is how I hope I leave when I die for good.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes