Kathleen P's Probable NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was critically ill, had surgery and within 24 hours I was septic went into ARDS and placed on a ventilator. I remained unconscious for 6 days and it was unknown if I would survive. I remember waking twice. Once I saw my fingers and being a nurse thought to myself, "oh boy I'm septic", and again to see my nurse holding my Foley catheter, I noticed the color of my urine and again to myself thought "multi-system failure, that's bad". Next I found myself surrounded by an all consuming light.

It was wonderful, comforting and described as incredibly good. It was a glow as if in the center of a candle flame, that orange yellow glow. I had no sense of body and saw only the light. I felt torn between staying and so wanted to. I heard myself say, "but he is only 9" referring to my son. Immediately after that I found myself sitting in my hospital bed there were no machines, no IV's, I felt fine. There was a knock at my window. I knew I was on the second floor and was surprised. With a giggle I said "okay I'll play along, come in!"  I closed my eyes and when I opened them I saw my Grandfather standing at the foot of my bed shaking his finger at me and shaking his head. I closed my eyes and I was again in my hospital bed unable to speak and my friend was wiping my mouth and I heard her say "Oh she's drooling." After that the process of waking up and recovering began.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No       ARDS (Adult Respiratory Distress Syndrome)

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I was awake and alert the entire time.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            I was awake and alert the entire time.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Conflicted on weather or not I could stay and sad I could not.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     All consuming warm glow.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     While in the light I felt not alone. My Pop was clearly there after the light.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      My friend did wipe my mouth.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     I think another dimension. The room was accurate and the feeling of reality was strong.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I could have stayed if I wanted to. I wonder if the rest of my family was there.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain            I present, interested to see or know more, but had to choose. Like that bit of uncertainty or unwillingness to leave my son made the decision for me. I still struggle with what my Grandfather meant. I was curious to learn and know someday I will get to go there again.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     It was immediately and continue to do so up to this time. People are quite interested.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I knew they existed and grew up with the normal "Go to the light" sayings.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I can't explain but to say it was as real as sitting here typing to you.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I still struggle with what did my Grandfather mean. Was it wrong choice, or was it a sign to get my life in order.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I was a victim of domestic domination and abuse. I was being controlled by others. I stood up to my oppressors and took control of my life living it the way I wanted.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes