Kasandra L's NDE

I had been having many problems with my thyroid.  It had swollen to the size of a grapefruit and I was having problems breathing.  Going to an oncologist it was determined that the best course of action would be to have it removed.   

Surgery was booked for 9-11 2001.  Arriving at the hospital I was prepped and put in the operating room prep room.  Drugged out of my mind a TV. was put in front of me and on every channel they were broadcasting the 9-11 events?  How fantastic I thought, what an amazing movie!!!  It must have cost a fortune to get all of these people to cast on?!  WOW!!!  I then proceeded to tell everybody about this great movie that was playing on every station.  Then I was wheeled into the operating room and everybody kept telling me everything would be O.K. that nothing was going to happen?  Everything was going to be alright...As I was going under I kept thinking, if everything is going to be alright, why is everybody so hysterical?  The doctor was shaking, the nurses were crying...I kept thinking maybe getting operated on 9-11 isn't such a good idea? 

The next thing I remember was being awake and feeling the blood gush out of me with every heart beat.  It was very peaceful.  Then my husband walked into the operating room recovery room and upon my sitting up blood started gushing out of my nose, eyes and mouth.  He screamed for a nurse or somebody to come immediately.  A nurse came into the room and screamed "Oh my God she's bleeding to death internally she'll be dead in 10 minutes!!!"  

Well I thought to myself how cool.  "I'm going to die consciously. I had better get things in order."  So I started with my list of forgiveness's.  And you can not imagine all the people you need to forgive until there's a deadline of ten minutes in front of your face.  The outpatient department determined that it was not equipped to handle the necessary second surgery so an ambulance was called.  It was at this time that the road between the hospital and out patient department was under construction and there was no way an ambulance could get to me.  The fire department was called and four big hefty guys carried me on a bed sheet from the out patient department into the operating room of the hospital next door and placed into the operating room. 

I watched my spirit lift out of my body and I lightly floated towards a tunnel and then I entered into a tunnel.  It was fantastic!  I danced weightless around in this tunnel. I flipped and did gymnastics like a pro.  There was a whooshing sound and it looked like clouds were floating in from the end of the tunnel where there was tremendous white light.  Coming near to the end of the tunnel I stepped into this white light.  I felt like I was being enveloped with white fog.  It was like how they fog a dance floor.   

I remember thinking that God was over doing this white stuff and that the whole environment could use a little color.  Nobody came to meet or greet me.  I remember telling God that if he were busy that he could just direct me to the library and I would be more then happy to look up the meaning of my own life.  No answer.  And the white light just kept coming and coming. I remember then telling God, that if this were death it was a little BORING. I told God that he should remember that poverty, celibacy and boredom were nothing that I did very WELL...HELLO ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?  No Answer?   

I became aware that there was a great knowledge being conveyed to me.  I had a sense that all of this was not the right time.  I remember feeling very frustrated and angry.  I remember cursing God and then being slammed back into my body and jumping awake out of recovery an hour before such a thing was suppose to happen.  I awoke to finding myself tied down to the bed with tubes everywhere.  I chewed through the tube down my throat and then ripped it out

I pulled the I.V. out of my arms.  I was hysterical! Totally mad totally enraged.  These poor nurses and orderlies had gathered around me telling me that everything was alright now...they had saved me. 

Oh yeah and just who the hell asked you to?  And I started to get ready to go home.  I was insisting that all of these tubes needed to come out now and I was getting out!!!  The doctor came in and gave me a sedative to settle me down so that my body could heal from the trauma.  I was then sedated and put into the intensive care unit for three days. 

While in the intensive care unit I visited 9-11.  I saw up close and personal the flames that burned people alive.  I was then shown a war about to happen in the middle east. I saw oil fields blazing.  I was shown a major flood.  And I was told to move from the valley to a cooler climate.      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes    

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     We were in the throws of 9-11.  The Twin Towers had just been bombed.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    While in the tunnel.  I had a sense of hyper sensitivity.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            While in the tunnel.  I had a sense of hyper sensitivity.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I had a sense that even when my eyes were closed I could still see clearly.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Frustration, anger, abandonment

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     It was grey/dark with a white light and fog floating towards me.

Did you see a light?           Yes     Brilliant white foggy light

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     I learned that I wasn't particularly evolved.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Yes it seemed like I was there for hours.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I felt that information was communicated to me but I don't know what exactly.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     I felt like I was in an outdoor waiting area

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes              Gulf War, Tsunami, the fall of the world as we know it

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I told my friends the very next time I saw them.  They said that they expected as much from me.  Ray said I talked too much about having died, he said nobody cared.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It just was exactly as I remembered it. Nothing has changed.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    It just was as I described it nothing has changed.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     Yes, people seem very stupid for the most part.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes            Yes I believed that we have all been mind controlled by religion.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     It was just as described.