Kandy V's NDE

Experience description: 

I had had a very high fever for several days. The doctor did not know what was wrong with me because she was not aware of the flaws associated with the dalkon shield, and besides, we were in the middle of the Pacific.  I was delirious much of the time.  The doctor did not give me antibiotics because I was pregnant, but when I started to miscarry, she took me straight into surgery (d&c). 

While I was under general anesthesia, I simply sat up and got out of my sick body.  I remember seeing the operating table and the medical staff around my physical body in my peripheral vision.  Right out in front of me was a being, with a material body, but not like a physical body.  Its arms (I use the word loosely) were opened out to me and I climbed into its lap.  I was laughing and crying at the same time.  I said ( we spoke with thoughts which seemed perfectly normal at the time) "I almost stopped believing in you." The being kind of chuckled and said "Well here I am." 

I cannot tell you how much love this being was capable of giving.  The best description I can offer is that it was as if love permeated every fiber of whatever body I happened to be in.  There is no earthly experience that I have had that comes anywhere near this experience of being loved so totally and powerfully.  I think there is a little blank space here where something else might have happened or been communicated, but I'm not sure.  

Near the end of this encounter, I asked "Is it time for me to stay with you now? Or can I stay with you now   But the being said "No, not this time."  Then it showed me that I was connected by these threads of love to my two children, and that these threads were like a reflection of the love this being was capable of giving.  I understood then that I had to return to be with them.  Returning to the body was a difficult task.  It was like being squashed into a tuna can.  I got back by somehow connecting to the breath and concentrating on the point of the intersection of two lines, kind of like aiming for a target.  I remember being aware of being back in my body.  I had a long recovery.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Yes

      Explanation:  General anesthesia

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Uncertain

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  I can explain it in words, but they could never come near conveying the experience.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I'm not sure what you mean.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Not like a dream.  Believe me.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No response

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I experienced my consciousness in another kind of body.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  I experienced mixed and intense emotions, relief, love, joy, sorrow at having to leave the being.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  can't remember

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No

Did you see a light?  Uncertain

      Describe:  The being emanated a kind of light

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  see above.  I seemed to know the being.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  see above #4

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  No response

      Describe:  see # 4

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  Was shown I had to return to the body.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Have active and sometimes helpful dream life.  Am more sensitive and aware of deep connections to others.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Am certain that life is eternal.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  Am more aware that everything counts and that relationships continue.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  I don't share this experience very often.  I only offer it when I think someone might benefit from hearing it or when others share similar experiences.  I don't really feel the need to have outside validation of this experience.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Right after I had this experience i was too sick to have any emotional reaction.  I did not fully recall this experience until at least a year later when I was more or less completely well.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The best part was getting to be with the being, the worst part was being squished back into a physical body.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I am certain that life continues after death and this knowledge makes life more meaningful.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Have sometimes felt that I have left my body during sleep.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Uncertain

      Explain:  Nothing could "comprehensively" describe this experience.

Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire?  To tell you the truth I think the best way this experience is communicated is from one human being to another when they are in the same physical space together.  You know, the old fashioned oral tradition from one generation to another.