Kamme O's NDE

Experience description: 

Before I left my body, I felt COLD from the inside out.  Then I didn't feel my legs.... I told the nurse, "I don't feel my legs, I mean, I don't FEEL NOT FEELING them."  Then I left out of my body as if out of my chest area.  I was very high upon the "wall", "nose to nose" with the clock.... a female voice and 3 male voices were there.  Neither stranger, nor do I recall WHO they are?  SHE said for me to remember 12:05.  I asked, "AM or PM?"  She said that didn't matter, just remember 12:05.

I looked very far down to the yelling I heard.... I saw the room and the people FAR away.  Then I was THERE, standing there, but they wouldn't move for me to see.... I leaned through them or something... then my vantage point took me to the head of the bed.  I thought, "Oh, I don't look too good.  I should've taken better care of myself."

The voices said I didn't have "much time".  The people were upset and I didn't understand why?  I was FINE.  One lady yelled numbers, the others moved faster.  She said, "19 over 11!" and I thought, "Oh? If I run out of numbers doesn't that mean I am DEAD?"  And I laughed, "THIS IS IT?  THIS is what everyone is so afraid of?????"  I laughed the same as I hear myself laugh now inside this thing once again.  I was still ME, just not in this.

I saw that "light".... it is a being, LOVE, HOME.  It knew me, it knows all of us.  It made me aware that I have all ways been loved and will all ways BE loved, even if I forget again.

The female voice "behind" me said, "She doesn't know, you need to tell her!"  I focused my attention to her and the "light" was gone.  She said, "You had a baby!"  And I thought, "Oh! A baby?  I can't leave the baby with Doug...." and before I completed that thought I hit my body like a ton of lead.  The pain was AWFUL.  The voices were "gone" and I was trapped inside this again.  It was 7 years before I figured out they didn't MAKE me come back.... it was my THOUGHT/will that brought me back here.  Here is there... just different.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

My personal answer is "no", although the doctors may mention morphine for pain... what I experienced I am SURE was not effected by that... as I would know the difference.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

Yes and No.  Words give much room for free will and misunderstanding..... in that way, I would say "yes".. I notice trying to explain the unexplainable feels like talking in circles... never ending.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

Emergency C-section

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           TOTAL

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   NO

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

It didn't matter.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           PEACE

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain

            Describe:      At the beginning of it.

Did you see a light?           Yes

Without my physical eyes.... I recall thinking, it is so bright that it would burn your eyes through your head, if you had them.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

They were with me.... I think I knew who they were, but I don't remember now.  I remember knowing them, but not WHO they are.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain

I think I knew what my son's life would be like without me here.  I was not going to allow it.... I HAD to come back.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

I still do.  Can't FEEL Mondays from any other day of the "week".... don't FEEL time like I did.... distinct impression it doesn't matter.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Everyone goes home.  Everyone is loved.  All is forgiven.  God is God by any name.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

Aware of more.. trust myself more.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

Death is a reward, not a punishment or end.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I wish I could tell everyone... I wish I knew how to describe it so that others could remember too.  I don't see things as "right" or "wrong"....

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

I do not fear death... the part of me that is human has those reflexes.. but I look forward to going home now....

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

Every chance I get... if people are interested.  Some people are happy not knowing.  I do not imagine that if they don't know now, they won't know "then", because God knows everything and everyone, all ways.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Confused that I didn't go to "hell" like everyone threatens here.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Sometimes I feel very "homesick".... I long to be in that "light" more..

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        If people weren't so afraid to "die" they wouldn't be so busy killing each other.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Drugs is like dreaming with your eyes open.... NDE is different than that.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    If I could do it again, would I?  YES, I would.  Has life here been easier because of it?  Yes and no.