Judith E's NDE

Experience description: 

I had this procedure done several times before and what I experienced was totally different than the last time. When I was given the medicine previously I remember feeling a strong jolt and instantly at that time my heart slowed down and was beating normally.  I am on medication now that keeps my heart beating with a normal rhythm and it works beautifully.  The condition that I have what is called Aortic Valve Regurgitation (means it doesn't close properly).  I believe it is the cause of the rapid heartbeat also.  My father had his Aortic Valve replaced.  My grandmother had what they called a leaky valve.  There wasn't much they could do for her at that time.  My father said she would say "my heart is just running away with me".  I feel so bad that she wasn't able to get any relief from it. 

I got off the track, but this last time that I was in ER, it was handled in the exact same way and the results were the same.  However, what I felt happening to me was not the same at all.  I saw them put the medicine into my IV and immediately after I saw that something very odd happened to me.  I have no idea what happened but I will try to explain it the best that I can. 

All of a sudden......I was somewhere else.  I didn't know where, but I was alone.  The room that I was in was gone or maybe I was gone.  But I wasn't in it.  The doctor and nurse were gone, but they never left.  I guess I left, but I don't know where I was.  I can remember " I wonder what I am doing."  I was not afraid or especially curious.  I just kind of went along with what was happening like it didn't matter.  I felt like I had left, or at least I had left the emergency room and everybody else.  I believe I left my body too, because I couldn't see any of it.  I also could not feel it.  I just felt very light and peaceful ....... and curious.  I felt as if I was in a recliner heading forward as if the grade was similar to a plane taking off.  I wasn't going straight up but I was going up and forward.  It was kind of dark, but not totally black.  It was more like a gray misty color, rather like a fog.  At the same time I felt as if I wasn't in the room anymore and was traveling along to somewhere and alone, a noise was part of the sensation.  I couldn't hear the doctor or nurse talk or see them.  It was just me.  As I was going to say, at the exact same time I left and started to move through what was like space, a very strange noise was there.  It was like a ZHOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMM.  It seemed to last a long time in a way, but I know it really didn't.  I suddenly saw something I recognized......a circle of white clouds with a circle of blue sky in the middle.  Then it was over and I knew I was back.  I was in the room I had been a few seconds before and I remembered the faces of the doctor and nurse and they were just talking normally as though nothing had happened.  I really wasn't sure but something very un-normal had just happened and I knew that if I lived to be 150 I would never forget it.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

I was not given any medication that would alter my senses.  I was given something intravenously to stop and restart my heart.  I know this because after the event happened I asked the nurse how the medication worked and her answer was "It stops and restarts your heart."

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

The fact that I left my body and the other people and the fact that I was alone but not frightened is just so weird.  And there is no explanation for it in this world.  And the noise was so odd too.  I read about it in the bible after it happened to me.......about the wind sound at different times when the spirit came around.  Well, I think the Holy Spirit was just showing me that I would never be really gone and that there was something else for us.  Also the clouds........I had never heard before that Jesus left and will come back in clouds.  Whatever happened changed me forever.  I am a much kinder and more perceptive person; I have excellent intuition now.  I was talking to my brother on the phone after it happened, and what I told him was that I knew things now. He has passed away since then and I made sure he was saved before he died.  My sister and I were holding his hands.  My 24 year old daughter died in 2000 and my brother in 2001....both of them in December.  Anyway, it is very hard to describe such an experience.  A lot of things happened to me after I had this thing happen to me.  But I know I will see them again.  We will meet with Jesus in the clouds just like it says in the Bible.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

Yes, I believe so.  My doctor once told me that your heart could just stop beating.  Also these kind of heart beats do not circulate your blood correctly and cause the blood to pool and coagulate, thus causing blood clots.  This was the reason for the two strokes I had.  I could have died from my heart stopping or a stroke could have killed me.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Like I said before I didn't seem to have a body.  I could neither see it or feel it.  But I was thinking, so I don't know what to say.  I wasn't unconscious, because they never noticed anything (the doctor and nurse).  I just know it seemed longer than it probably was but I am sure it just happened in a split second really.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No.  It was not like a dream at all.  You know when you have a dream, and you wake up you start to forget it and can't remember details.  I know I wasn't dreaming but I don't know what I was.  The nurse told me they stopped and restarted my heart and what I think happened was that my spirit had started to leave.  I think I was my spirit and I left for a minute.  My spirit thought I was dead when they stopped my heart and I guess I was going to meet Jesus.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

My consciousness was me and I left my body in that room.  I never saw my body or myself lying in bed.  I just left or my spirit did.  I didn't worry about my body at all.  I just didn't have it.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Yes, I hear a sound like Zhoooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.  It was a mighty and powerful sound but it was not frightening to me.