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Judi C's NDE
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Judi C's NDE |
Experience description:
Then I was like pushed out into more black velvet, they on the right side of the tunnel I saw answers to equations in Algebra that I had trouble with in high school, written in bright neon lights. And a few other things written, I don't know if it meant anything. I have always loved neon signs. As the writing went on, this loving most kind all encompassing voice said "Judi, none of those things really mattered. You have all you need. He just assured me that I was not stupid, was not "slow" as I was called by my family. He said what I was doing was more important. He explained that because my sister and ex-husband were educated better than I, did not mean I was not even more educated on things of the Lord. I was in such peace, the Lord laughed, not at me, but somehow with me. I just knew he was conveying to me that I had a purpose for HIM..............................it seemed I was in that place for hours and hours. I have never before or since felt such peace and freedom, not ever.
They, I saw a brilliant light. Brighter than looking directly into the sun. There was a soft blue color here and there. they I felt as through two giant hands cradled me and was giving me a choice of staying or going back. I remember being heartbroken even thinking about leaving that place. Then he said "I need you to raise your two sons". (I only had one son at the time)...I remember the sadness of wanting to be obedient to the Lord and come back. His love allowed me to make the choice of coming back. Next all I know was that I was in the recovery room, with nurses and doctors checking me.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes it was difficult to express because no one believed me. I tried to tell the surgeon that I knew that the anesthesiologist had given me too much. I heard him yell at him "you gave her too much, you killed her". In recovery I tried to talk about it again to the doctor. His face turned a greenish color, he said nothing except "I will send someone to help you, he sent a psychiatrist to try to convince me that it did not happen and that I made it up. My former husband was only too happy to agree with them. Ten years later in a prayer group, and friend said "here, I bought this for you. The Lord wants me to give this too you". It was a book called "Life after Life". That was the first time in 10 years I was free to talk about it, every account in that book, was part of what I had seen and heard.
It was such a relief. I had been abused most of my life, and tended at this time not to trust myself and certainly not to push such strange things, it just made those people in my life think I was the one who was crazy and or bringing the abuse on myself, as though I were insane. It was a very hard time in my life.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I had had a very serious operation...upper thoracic syndrome. A lung collapsed
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? at the end when I was in the Lords arms.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: The only time I have even felt that love is occasionally during worshiping HIM or praying. When I was sexually abused as a child, I would hide and cry and pray in a tiny closet. I was about 7. My father would not allow me to cry or pray by then. In that closet I always
experience HIS presence...........He would talk to me and call me His precious daughter, and assured me that it would be OK
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes everything was crisp and clear and brighter than the natural eye could look at without going blind
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes I have never heard anything that loud before......I knew it meant something. I felt perhaps I had passed from sin, into love and forgiveness
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? at first during the loud voice some fear that passed quickly
From then on I felt more and more comfortable and then when I was in HIS arms, I was weightless, as though I was as pure and God himself, void of all sin
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes yes, as I said above
Did you see a light? Yes it was the brightest light I have ever seen........some had rainbow colors
very very soft, very very bright......beyond anything on earth
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes I was aware of passing others but did not know who they were. Afterwards I thought, perhaps they were my grandparents whom I had never seen
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes I learned that God knew me, from then on I had no need to ever be afraid. Even through I have lost my entire family because they at the moment are turning their backs on the Lord...............I
have such confidence in the Lord.......so deep so true, no one can steal it
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes Yes, I knew what had happened. The doctor had to know that I knew, he was very scared.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes yes, out of the tunnel into God's arms in that light
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes I felt that
the whole even was hours and hours long
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I knew that God was telling me he was going to use me in a special way. I no longer cared who in my family believed in God or not.........my faith continues to grow
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes When I got to God's arms and hands
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
for one thing, that I would have another son to raise. I knew with the
incest in the family, my children would need me to protect them. It was very difficult, but I knew God was with me
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I became very prophetic. I actually got into palm reading. When I learned God said to avoid that I did. Then it became a true gift from God used for His purposes
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes my family and friends ................some friends believed me...........it was 10 years later that I became bold about it
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I already knew the Lord in a very special way. I knew it was He who was holding me. No matter what anybody said or did, that was so real, it did not matter to me. I stayed silent eventually, after a few weeks, but as I said, with that book "life after Life" it gave me wings
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant
to you? I had not been loved most of my life. In fact, I would even say I had been used for others gain. My experience left me knowing I was very loved, and needed by God. In my Catholic days, my family would get angry and say "you need to become a nun". They taunted me about my faith.