Joni H's NDE

Experience description: 

There were no tunnels or sense of being transported...just there, above me was an indescribably WHITE wing. It had no beginning and no end. I could see the feathers in great detail.  There were two voices, but were not speaking directly to me, but to each other, it went as follows " We are going to give her, her new name. " The other voice replied " But it hasn't been three days yet " and the first voice said back " But we are going to give her, her new name anyway. "

During all this I could see tiny beings without shape, almost like little spots and they were literally painting, art work of some sort. The colors were so brilliant and the wing described above was more white than we see here, almost luminescent. 

I was not afraid, no thoughts except being in awe of the beauty of the many different colors and the whiteness of the huge wing. There was no snapping back into the body or anything like that at all. I was just there, like magic I guess. I have an incredible appreciation of color and flowers much more now, than I did before. I was amazed by the voices, for I could not see anyone, no people, just them speaking to each other about my "new " name. I suppose life has left it up to me to figure out my new name some day, because they did not tell me what it is.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

results from overdose of anti-depressants

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

very small beings, had no actual shape, as though they were at a distance, best to describe being unable to see their form.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

Lethal overdose of drugs, suicide attempt.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was not aware of my physical body at all or anything that had to do with life, or death.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No, very lucid, very up close and personal.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Yes, the tiny beings were making high pitched sounds, pleasant, pleasing sounds.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No

Did you see a light?           No

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

#4, I did not recognize the voices, nor the other sounds.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain

another vision verified that my sweet son would no longer be with me. He has since my hospitalization lived with my brother, and still does to this very second.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No response

It was most definitely another dimension, but was not like being moved or transported.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

There did not exist any time, could not feel sense of time or anything of that nature.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain

There were no boundaries, no thoughts of making any decisions, just wonderment.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

#13, the second vision. My brother and my ex-lover were standing at the foot of my hospital bed, both shouting independently of each other, at me saying " I am going to take your son away from you " in very angry voices. After a six day coma and allowed a regular room, I called my brother and he proceeded to talk very mean to me, as if he had wished I had died, angry and he does have my son now.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No response

I can sense other's feelings as though they are my own feelings, I cannot stand to be around what I call now, the dark cloud ambience of rooms or people.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I am convinced that there is life, real life, after death, more real than what we are in now

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       Mostly, I feel like I am not the exact same person as before, different, special.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Because of the overdose, I am crippled, will never walk again. I am alone. I am learning to make this journey the best that I can and to help others, TO HELP OTHERS.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

Doctor's call it hallucinations. People who are more aware call it visions. yes, people tell me that something special surely happened to me, because of the severity of the overdose and I did not die. A six day coma was long enough for me to learn, not to try to take my earthly life away from myself, it is not my decision to make.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Joy and the need to tell others.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best, the beautiful colors and a new name.