John S NDE 3876

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I ”died” and all of a sudden I floated, in a diagonal,  over the three teenage guys that attacked me ( and  their German shepherd dog ), about  a couple of meters above their heads. Everything became immobilized, like a dead calm, in the course of the events, time and space stopped. I could move myself anyway, completely free, free from the body's usual  inertia and limits.  

I looked down at my body - as if it was not mine- and I felt absolutely no sorrow, no regret for it, no pain, or anything else. I just realized that my body was there lying down on the grass.  Nothing more, nothing less. It may seem strange now, but at that moment everything appeared  to be  self-evident.  

At the same time that the world stood there under me, in its “frozen” state,  I found myself encircled  by an absolute warmness, in a state of satisfaction and light heartedness. I still continued to ”float ” (i.e. as if I was “hung “up  there in the air).   I turned round/ my real self/ my consciousness ( my whole self was like a sole consciousness – no body, no extension, no beginning and no end in that awareness that was me) and I saw straight ahead, a bit upwards ( I remember  I glanced up), an indescribable “light”, like an opening to another dimension, to a completely different world, and,  there was a face.  

I will never forget that face! It was so full of a welcoming, a non-demanding, warm smile of love…  In that inviting face, as  in the whole experience, there was nothing else than a complete pure and total love, unlimited comprehension, kindness, and  real affectionate, sympathetic and warm  humour. I cry now as  I remember that ( though I didn't believe I would,  after all these years ! ).   

There was a silent direct communication, which  I am not able to “ translate” into written or spoken words,  neither specially into an image. I just felt, from that wonderful face, that I was both welcome and expected; exactly as if I had seen that face before, and much more… As if everything  was so well-known, so familiar and so self-evident. Nearly as if I had been away in a long, long journey in a foreign country ,  and after a time I finally had come back again! Home, where everything was so well-known and safe. I felt the exuberant joy of returning home, of  being able to come back.  

Suddenly to my right , a bit further away from the  face , a “door” opened ( or rather an entrance, an opening without door), and it came closer to me, i.e.  the entrance became bigger and bigger ( or it was me to approximate the opening – difficult to know because I didn't need to make any movement of any type either float, fly, swim, go, etc.  I just wanted to go there – because I was curious about what existed on the other side of the “door”- and  so,  immediately, I was there at the entrance.  

At first I could only  detect an enormous “crowd of people “ on the other side of the opening. Then, when I was on the threshold, I saw a whole world there, as I would describe it now. Some ”creatures” stood at the inner side of the entrance – I supposed they were angels, although they had no wings, etc., just beautiful  happy faces and bodies that looked like human bodies.  They smiled in a  welcoming and affectionate way to me. I peeked through the opening but I ever strode in. Then I saw that ! An infinite “world” of angels stood inside there, millions, trillions creatures. And everything and everyone was in this indescribable pure and beautiful light, like silver; yes, I simply cannot find words to describe  that.  The most remarkable of all and at the same time wonderful : it looked like all these angels were expecting me! The little me!  

It was as if they showed me – or reminded me – what was waiting once for me, something felt  in a very immediate form...  At the same time, it appeared as if it they knew that  my “time” had not yet arrived.  I got first surprised, perhaps disappointed or something else, but I became reconciled with that and  accepted the fact. Not because it was their decision, but because it was my own decision. They had received me in this ”now” or whatever I can call it, but for some reason I should return to earth ( and , so, to my body). It was as if they just reminded me of my own decision!  

Within an instant I was in my body, raised me up, and ran from that place so fast that not even a dog would catch me up.  

During the following trial in the district court, when they examined in detail every kick, every blow, against my head and my breast, it was stated that “ the maltreatment should t be appraised as highly severe”. Some of the kicks against my head should have killed me.  And I hadn't been even to the hospital!  Obviously,  I didn't need that.  I had neither internal nor external injuries. I could run and walk normally.  It happened only that I spat some phlegm or some blood. This was all.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?        Yes      Not difficult at all  to write down such things ( they came rapidly  as “flowing water” and , so to speak, words were written by themselves,  after 21 years ) though difficult sometimes to find the proper words/expressions/ descriptions for certain  occurrences and events…

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?            Uncertain         I was exposed to severe beating and I was convinced that I would have died in that occasion.  However most of the injuries disappeared (caused by three persons and a dog) directly after the event, which makes it highly difficult to evaluate how life threatening  the situation really was…

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?   I was fully awake/conscious during the whole experience; I remember  thinking I was even more conscious in that condition than it seemed to be the world  and the reality under me.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:  I was fully awake/conscious during the whole experience; I remember  thinking I was even more conscious in that condition than it seemed to be the world  and the reality under me.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?        Yes      I could see many /different aspects of the surroundings more rapidly and simultaneously. I could perceive colours and light in a distinguished way. Everything was much, much clear.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes      In that way  we  address ”reality”, which  was going on under me the whole time, as a side by side dimension, everything was silent  because time and space had stopped.  I cannot remember whether  I “heard” anything … in anyway not  similar to the normal detection of “sound”, or even  if  “sound”  was there in a completely different form. It was like, so to speak, as “silence” never existed, I perceived sound in the form of jubilance , voices, conversations, music, a kind of delightful  mumble or joyful sound from all these creatures…

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?       Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?     Joy, happiness, blessedness, joy filled with humour, total comprehension, wonder, determination, mutual understanding, love, the feeling of being at home.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?   Uncertain         I don't remember having experienced any ”tunnel”. Only this entrance without door.

Did you see a light?     Uncertain         I cannot remember seeing any direct light, other than these beautiful, clear colours. And that all had a silver glimmer. I remember purity, beauty, and clearness in everything. I have the strong feeling, however, that I don't remember exactly everything that happened, that certain “things” disappeared from my conscious/mind…

Did you meet or see any other beings?            Yes      Creatures and/or angels. Some were above me, some were on the other side of the ”door`s opening" .  I recognized none of them as belonging to my terrestrial life, or, on the opposite, to my previous “ spiritual life”. I am sure of that. We communicated  through telepathy, I suppose. It was like ”voices”, which came and went immediately between us. A complete clear and direct communication, that didn't allow any sort of lies, only clean and clear communication. We talked about those things  I had described, about the meaning  and the purpose of my life, about the world of God and everything around order and meaning, and much more .

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?          No       

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     No           

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?    Yes      The infinite world that existed  behind the “door`s opening”.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?        Yes      Both time and space in earth stopped completely.   Simultaneously  ” the time and the space” in the other side was completely alive, evident and real.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?           Yes      First of  all:  There was a meaning in my life and existence here in earth, something once I had chosen myself. There is  a meaning and an order in the whole world/cosmos/ the world of God. Love and comprehension is the most important. I could really learn what forgiveness means and deals with, the great secret it comprises ! What  is the purpose of continuing my life here in the earth, however, I couldn't know/ remember.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?        Yes      I chose  not to cross the boundary/ door's opening.  I realized I had complete independence of choice to go ahead, but I didn't do it, in accordance to what I had decided before I was born which deals with my tasks/school here on earth.

Did you become aware of future events?          No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes      I can sometimes predict the future , which often has been verified,  both in important and more trivial  events. I have dreams that become true,  have visions  in the form of  quick  "film clips” or insights. I can sense and detect, in a audiovisual  form, the presence of dead people/spirits. I cannot use wristwatches  because, in different ways,  they get broken:  the watchband itself  breaks down, splinters become loose, the watch stops completely or goes too fast/slow, the minute hand bends under the glass cover. 

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes      It took  10-12 years before I told my wife. She understood and reacted with interest, fascination and joy. She was surely influenced, before she recently died. Also other people has been  affected later , solely positive.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?           No       

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:      Experience was definitely real      It was more real than the “reality”. I felt both sorrow /regret and  an  inexpressible  joy for having  experienced that. I remembered, then as now , exactly all around it. 

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?           In especial, the fear/insecurity for the death  disappeared completely. To have experienced everything around Jesus, the angels, etc. , and the love and humour have a highly indescribable significance.  The insight , especially, into  forgiveness and understanding is important.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:        Experience was definitely real.

It was and it is a great richness; the experience made me also more serious and reflexive, more sensitive to other people  and, not least, to animals.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes      They are now deeper, more empathic and sensitive.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?      Yes      Now I don't believe, I know.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No       

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Only this: We are all interlinked; we all belong to the same universe and cosmos.   Anything we do against others , we do against ourselves, the existence and God. Love, understanding, humour and wisdom are the most important. Nobody escapes from this, nobody is an exception, everything is interconnected.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?     Yes     

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?         The most important  in this case, probably,  is that those who had had a NDE participate and elaborate as much questions as possible to cover the range of NDEs and their different causes and events.