John R's NDE

Experience description: 

I woke at about 7am on a weekday with difficulties breathing ( as usual, I was under constant threat of asthma attacks ), I woke my mother and told her and she gave me some breath spray and some Fedrabarb.  These failed to wok so I was in for another trip to the doctors, I often ended up at the doctors and very rarely went as far as the hospital.

I got into the doctors about 8:30am and was made wait until 10:30am until a doctor noticed I was in trouble and turning blue, so I was rushed into the surgery and given some needles, I don't know what they were but they didn't work and I slowly worsened.

At about 11:30am my mother couldn't wait for the ambulance to take me to hospital and raced me there in her own car, while running into reception we were told to go strait up in the elevator, as we entered the elevator my mother told me it was "ok now and everything was going to be ok" but I could tell she wasn't sure, she was trying to calm me down. So I gave up and relaxed and whispered "thank you mummy", it was then that I was drawn backwards down ( but across ) away from my eyes. I was heading down a tunnel at an amazing speed ( was like everything else was moving not me ) leaving my eyes behind me like 2 little holes way off into the distance until they were completely gone ( But I could still hear softy what was happening ).

I arrived after what seemed 5 minutes, to a place I couldn't see but could feel or sense, I felt an overwhelming joy and love come over me like a stream going through my body. I was aware of the presence of "my lady in white" had arrived and she was welcoming me, it wasn't a verbal communication, was more like I could feel what she wanted, I seemed to know the answers to my questions before I finished thinking about them, like I always knew them. I was asked whether I liked it there and did I want to stay, of course I wanted to but seemed to be given the knowledge that if I went back I wouldn't be able to take back the knowledge, I was aware of knowing the reasons for living as well and to what I would have to do while I was to go back, but it was mainly hypothetical because I wasn't really wanting to come back.

I believe the experience seemed to be a very long time there, about 2 hours, most of the memories where left there, but in this world it was approximately 15 minutes. these entities, spirits or what ever words you would use to describe these beings where not of flesh and didn't seem restricted to physical limitations like we have, while I was there I was indeed like them.

I was prepared for this experience for about 4 years prior from the age of 3 as I was visited by a lady in a white robe with a hood, she wore a rope for a belt and sandals on her feet and never once spoke to me, she didn't need to, I seemed to know that she was keeping an eye on me.

Any way it was time for me to answer them on what I wanted to do, whether stay or go back and it was then that I heard my mother get the news off the doctor on the top floor of Mt Isa base hospital that I had gone, he said he was sorry ( I asked my mother was I dead when I got back because I heard the doctor say so ) and she was shocked, not as shocked though as when I got back. after I heard my mothers desperate cry's I become undecided with these entities and they smiled and and seemed to understand and then I was on the way back down the tunnel ( this time it was much faster and seemed to take only 30 seconds, at the point of arrival I took a deep breath looked up at my mother and then passed out, I was asleep for 2 days and woke as though nothing had happened, my asthma has never been life threatening since.

Something I would like to add, was that while I was there, I know I was in the real existence, for example when I got back I was in pain in my whole body ( not from my struggling to breath ) but from gravity, and like I was in a dream world, ever since I have seen this world as being not quite how things really are, this place is the dream compared to the clarity of thought of that place.

If you want more information about how the experience has affected me please don't hesitate to contact me by e-mail, I would like the opportunity to talk to some-one that has had the same experience as I had and to talk to people that know. I thought I was alone with this experience until I was 15 and on TV a show called that's incredible come on and some other people in America were talking about the same things that I had been ridiculed for 8 years for.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  Some of the events I have found hard to explain IE: the feeling of love "there" was like a physical thing that flowed into me and out the other side like a stream.

Also the knowing everything and then not being able to bring it back or remember.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  I was declared dead on arrival.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I was more alert than I have ever been, I think I was in a higher state of consciousness.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Only the part when I had come back, life seemed to be the dream for months.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  As stated above

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Love, joy and peace.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  I heard a rushing wind type of sound while traveling down the tunnel.

I still imagine this sound to help put myself to sleep.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  As stated above.

Did you see a light?  No

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  I cant be sure How many, I know I sensed more than one, but I only conversed with one.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No response

      Describe:  I had become aware of both the past and the future but wasn't allowed to bring those thoughts back with me.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Was not allowed to bring that back. 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  Time seemed longer there, and there didn't seem to be any limitations to distance.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  Sometimes when things happen in my life I get deja vu like I can say the next thing that's said and events that come true, I get this like 5 minutes before it happens.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes, I have knowledge that is not learned here ( like some cult rituals and I have never taken part in anything of that nature )

I see aura's.

I sense spirits and when I see them ( which is rare ) they make me cold even when its a very hot climate.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I don't fear death.

I KNOW there is existence after death.

I know there is a beautiful, loving place beyond deaths door that is waiting for me.

I know kindness and pure love is the key to unlocking the answers to life.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I am constantly disappointed in people that say they know what love is, then do very un-loving things.

I am treated with contempt because I welcome death and don't show the usual western fear of it.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Since I have learned others have had the same experiences, I have found other spiritual people that have have similar experiences with spirits.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Back then I was happy to be back, but as the time passes I am becoming disappointed

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Best: I know a great place awaits me

Worst: I long to be there.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I don't want fame or profit from my sharing this with you, I only want to be able to share my experience with fellow NDErs and to give people hope that death isn't always a thing to fear.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I have always had spiritual things happen to me, but I spend most of my life looking for answers, I look forward to being able to rest.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

      Describe:  Not of going to the other side no.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

      Explain:  I believe so, I have tried to be as complete in the detail of the NDE as I could.

Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire?  I would ask more questions about the other experiences that are a spiritual link to the experience, like they know you know the truth too.