John G's Probable NDE

I have experienced many things I later found out no one else could see, from nearly infancy. My "feelings, or premonitions" saved my life at least 3 times , 2 of them in Boston, where I was held up at gunpoint, but I knew ahead what was coming, and what to do. Both times, the police were shocked I wasn't dead, or at least shot. I am 54, never had even a beer, and had a 182 IQ back in Jr.High ( Ridgefield, Ct). I have an uncanny memory, along with mild dyslexia.

 During the summer of 1983, after listening to subliminal tapes at night, to open up "psychic abilities"...I was walking across the pastures of my new farm, and got a vision I can still go back to in my mind, and examine things. I saw my dear late mother Louise to the left, from above, in stirrups, and knocked out, bleeding profusely. To the right of her , was the doctor, he was bald on the top, with curly ringlets going grey. I knew he didn't want to be there, and was disgusted to have to be there, as he pulled off the gloves, to get ready to go scrub up again to sew my mother up. I also was aware that he was a golfer, and a social climber. I didn't like him on any level. He mildly disgusted me.

  All the way over, to the right , were two nurses, on the right of the two, was one of Scandinavian American heritage. I didn't really relate to her, but she was a kind , rather passive , and uninteresting person to me.  Next to her, was a very large Irish/American nurse. In her arms was the most handsome baby you could imagine....other than he was red and purple, with a dangling umbilical cord. The cord was maybe 10''. As I looked, I realized it was me.

The fat Irish nurse would not give up on me, as I think she knew about the C's being special ( the veil).

  The following Christmas, I flew my mother Louise to Dallas, and when we got to my home, I asked : "mom...was I born dead??"

For the first time in my life she yelled at me saying 'OH MY GOD......WHO TOLD YOU??? NO ONE COULD HAVE TOLD YOU...I NEVER EVEN TOLD YOUR FATHER"

I accurately described everything to Louise, who lived her life only in truth.

I'm only bothering with this, as I would hope women might be aware that prior to my first breath, I understood everything going on in the delivery room, and knew what everyone was "about", as people.  I agree that life begins at conception, obviously, and have unique insight to share. 

 I did suffer mild, and at the time , undiagnosed , dyslexia. I actually stayed back the year they had given IQ tests, and the office at Ridgefield High School, in CT, called my mother and said " Mrs G, Jay CHEATED on his IQ test" ...my mother apologized humbly..... three hours later, got another  call  " Well, Mrs G, no one else's IQ is even close to Jay's....obviously, there must have been some mistake". From the beginning of 7th grade, take two...a new guidance councilor from NYNY, Mrs G, was fascinated by my IQ, and tested me before school, during lunch and break, and after school, for the entire school year.  The results surfaced that following summer......exactly 182 again. They surmised that I " didn't apply myself" .

 We were the liberals , in Ridgefield CT, and the school system pandered to the wealthy, not us.  After my vision, and conformation with my mother , I realized where the learning disability started, and over the decades, grew to forgive myself.  Paradoxically, a very kind couple used to shop at the aquarium I worked at, and he was a dean of admission , at Dartmouth. I was accepted to school at age 15.....and if the drunk drive hadn't hit us on Easter Sunday, 1970, I would have gone, as I was wanting to work with endangered species in Africa, or Australia.  Having had the offer though, was always very comforting to me.  I have always been on a different path than my contemporaries. I didn't want to be, but I was.  I'm not hung up on money, though it seems to always come to me, and I think I'm not passive per se, but very loving and caring. I have always had dreams about events and people , in premonitions. I can not seem to turn it on, but have much pre-cognition. 

When two, at Barnum and Baileys Circus, in Stamford Ct, I escaped under the bleachers, and ended up in the Elephant Tent.  I wasn't talking yet, took long long time to, but I knew what the elephants were thinking, and the female kept me against her front left leg, and in a definite order, she permitted each of the other 14 of them, to shuffle around their noisy chains, reach me, and check me out. They were very gentle, and always started at my head...down my face  ( they had humid breath ...with hairs in trunk!!!) and the slowed down on my face...then half way down....then would go to my sandaled feet...back up to the  middle...pause  then continue to head, at which time the lead female would just tense up a little, and tell them it was the next ones turn. It didn't scare me at all, I knew I was safe...finally, with half the state police searching for me, the elephant trainer came in, and in a crude loud voice said "get OUT of here"....mildly insulted and offended, I ran out......guess who got a harness after that??

  My mother always said  i was born 1231.....birth certificate states 3:43, but my mom was out by the time I was talked back in. Well, here I am, and every day has been a gift from God !!!   I live my life that way !!

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    YES, THE QUACK WHO WAS DELIVERING ME, KILLED ME  ( I LOATH MOST DOCTORS AND VIEW THEM AS HIRED HELP, AND GREEDY UNENLIGHTENED BEINGS)

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  I just remember the scene from ceiling of room, and the understanding of all the people in the room.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        I didn't have a really correct choice....

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          No     

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?          No     

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          I wasn't scared, I was just observing. I understood everything going on, and the personalities of the people. Remember, I hadn't been born yet, and once out  hadn't breathed for a very very long long time.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        No      I wish, at least then my experience might relate to someone else's.

Did you see a light?         No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   No      what life?? it hadn't begun

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes    Yes , my mother confirmed my recalled vision, and it really freaked her out.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          No     

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Uncertain     hey i was a stillbirth    but it felt different than pregnancy

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No     

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes    yes , the ceiling of the delivery room...with bright lights

Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain
          I have known things ahead of time throughout my life of 54 years, among them things I didn't want to know, I sense when people from my life are going  to pass over.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Uncertain     Well, these things run in family, both sides, along with the dreadful high IQs.

How I wished I was stupid, growing up, like everyone else. I am unable to know if it was my destiny, or from my still birth....perhaps both??

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    When I remembered it in 9 / 1983   and confirmed  12 / 1983,  I have shared it with my friends when I felt it was interesting or informative to them.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No     

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I know what is real

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Well, when life hits a bump, I "growl" at that nurse who talked me back here !!I do it with tongue and cheek, as she has passed a long while ago, and might be aware I'm thinking that, and out of respect to her, I only say it with a smile in my heart.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         My number wasn't up....not YET anyway...

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Uncertain     I loved a lovely girl in high school, named Julie. She was killed 2 weeks after our head on collision. I passed her on the road 3 minutes  before, and waved to each other. I would have ended my life because of this event, but feared that had I, I would never see her on "the other side". She is worth waiting for.  I try extra hard to be kind to all, in her memory.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No                   

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain     Remember, I was stillborn, so some question do not apply.