Joelle L's Possible NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I remember being somewhere where it was very bright. there were others with me. I think like 3 or 4 others. we were in a group. there were others I sensed them but I could not see them. The ones I saw are funny. It seemed like all I saw of them were heads and small wings. we communicated mentally only. I heard farther away someone saying there is a body available, but you must act quick. I said Ill go. but one of the others close to me said No its too soon for you. I said I don't care I want to go. And they said you must go now or it will be too late. Next thing I remember is being in a crib. And this person was looking at me and talking and smiling. Later I could remember being somewhere inside a wrapping of sorts I would reach to touch it but I couldn't seem to reach it. It was comfortable. But then I would be scared, like claustrophobic. Since then many things have happened. I remember3 past lives. and since 2003 Ive been getting visions etc.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     Throughout my childhood the memories would mix me up, and my family kept telling me to be quiet. Only one aunt who lived with us encouraged me to talk about it only to her. I remember everything thanks to her letting me talk about it.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was born breech at home after hours of labor. when I finally came I was almost black/blue and not breathing. They wrapped me up and put me on the table. A while later the midwife came, and she worked and worked on me and I finally started to breath.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I can totally recall my last death and then it jumps to where I m with others there

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I can totally recall my last death and then it jumps to where I m with others there

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     everything seemed brighter like colors were brighter feelings were more sensitive. And the connection with others was better and clearer

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     like I said We connected mentally only. And my feelings sensitivities were much higher. When I remember something Its pictures and very strong feelings, no words

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Calmness at times, anxiety to come back.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     when I died last time I remember it was raining and the rain was getting on my face, I was afraid. Then I saw the stars they were so beautiful. And then I realized how can I see stars in the rain? But right then the stars were spinning and looked so pretty I tried to reach for them and they spun into a tunnel and that's the last I remember of that life.

Did you see a light?           Yes     stars turned into a beautiful glowing tunnel

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I don't remember until I was with those other beings. But now I know where I was, from my visions I now know we rest, sleep whatever you want to call it to get over the life trauma.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     Now they sometimes show me what can happen. They warned me of my sons death.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     Ive been to the other side a few times with my visions, What I see is a small totally white room. When you step into it all you see on both sides are a white wall. If you look straight there is a window there that is open and blowing a sheer curtain. And the smell is so fresh. Then look far to your left on the left wall you see a door opening. If you look through it there is a large field with beautiful flowers and flowing grass. and right in front about 10 feet away is a tree looks something between a weeping willow and an apple tree.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time seems to slow down there

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            when the visions first started I was told to go out and reinsure people about this tell them God is loving and kind, also we are all one with God.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     Ive crossed it many times. They told me that is why I remember, I came too soon. But was told it was a plan or else it wouldn't of happened

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            I was shown the Popes death, The angels and the whole big think about it. Also They showed me that field after the tsunami, there were so many people they looked so lost. They told me many guides were called to help. What I wont forget is when I was watching this with them they said look over there. I turned and saw this man He looked so kind. They said even the son is here to help them. As he said that the man turned to me and smiled. He had the most wonderful smile.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     Ever since I was little I saw things no one else saw. I sometimes know when someone is going to die. I don't call them gifts, they scared me to death as a child. and now it just makes me sad.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I told one friend only, and my aunt who has since passed away. I would be afraid to talk about it since people would probably think Im nuts. Its just something I live with.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was probably not real         In 1981 was when I first found out about my birth, and that's when I started putting 2 and 2 together. It explained a lot.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Well from all my experiences, which are too lengthy to talk about I am definitely NOT afraid to die. To me ,if you asked my biography I would go backwards.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            Because there is no way all the things that happened to me since my birth, even before I could think clearly, were made up. For a period of 10 yrs I closed my mind to all of it denying it happened. and it still came back.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I don't judge people and I feel everyone is part of me. Also when I worked as a nurse I told some of the dying some of my experiences and helped them move on without fear, and that's the whole purpose of this experience.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I cherish my family. But I don't go to church anymore, I feel God loves us no matter what and he prefers us to do good than go to church one day a week

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        My experiences give me mixed feelings. When they first started They were racing it was too much to take. I had to say slow down you are overwhelming me. I still am trying to find purpose in this. There is so much to say, I just cant type it. Its easier to talk. I have experiences and more experiences.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes