Jocelyne R's NDE-Like

Experience description: 

I lay down in my bed, I was very sad, I ate little and slept little.  Several months earlier my husband had left the house and I thought that I didn't have anything to live for on earth.  My children could live with their father and his new spouse.  There was not anything that kept me.  I had decided to leave this life without remorse, without looking back.  I didn't take anything, nor drink, nor medicine, only the will to leave guided me.

I closed the eyes, I was in the blackness as in a train, then suddenly as if the train had gotten in movement, I crossed rays of light, more and more accelerated.  Then I am myself.  I tried to raise my small finger, nothing happened.  It was a stage of consciousness, I chose to continue.  The train vanished.  In the decor, there was soft light.  I floated, like an immense sea, I felt water, the sand, the sun, as if I was on the side of a beach.  Just the sensations, heat, humidity, light, very pleasant.

There was my cousin, my relatives and full of other deceased people. They told me,  you are where you wished, we waited for you.  It was gorgeously good.  Then far away, I heard a voice very far away.  I didn't want to hear it, I wanted to ignore it, but it persisted.  I recognized my son's voice, first like a buzz then it got clearer, then finally he repeated. “Mom don’t die, you know you want to live, you know you like life,” he said repeatedly to me. 

I thought “no” in my head, let - me where I am. Then as if I had not accomplished everything before leaving, as if I had forgotten a precious baggage before taking the plane, I made the decision to come back.

My son had wakened up in middle of the night, he entered in my room, he thought that I slept and he told me these words.

After being back in my body, I heard what people thought and I felt their suffering, that hurt me everywhere. I was not afraid of anything, nor of anyone.  There was not any more limit to anything, to what I could accomplish, my son began to drag me to come back in my body little by little.

I worked out of the home and my son watched over me; He had saved me life.  Then a friend entered in my life that gave back me taste to life, a soul-sister. Since then, I have developed quite a lot of intuition, I live life and I pay attention to my body as if I was going to live very old.  Several people told to me that I changed a lot in better.  There is my history.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  to speak with another person who has not lived it

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  very conscious

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No, it was real.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I was energy and light.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  I was very happy, a big well-being, no fear

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  Yes, the sounds of my son's voice

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  A train on an iron-shod voice that crosses rays of light, more and more quickly and the baffles of the train disappear little by little I am in the infinity, there is not any more horizon

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  Soft

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  My cousin, my grandparents and others, "you have a choice to come or go as you wish because your son is waiting for you.”

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  See above

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  See above

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:   I know that I came back for my children.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

      Describe:  I arrived to a place where it was everywhere the infinity.

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:   In life of every day, I enough often know of things that go on and that happens.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I knew that it would be hard to come back and I had very badly.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  More of intuition and with certain person one speaks itself in thought.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I like life, I live from day to day, I don't especially have a fear of dying.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  My priority changed, I have some best relations with my life and the people that I come in contact with.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  They found that beautiful.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I believe in the reincarnation and the thoughts owe the most possible of the love thoughts towards people.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  What I saw and felt gives me confidence in life after the death. I find that there is a lot of suffering when one lives on earth. When I came back in my body that made badly.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I am happier I know that one plays all game of an all, it is necessary that I make my part so that the all is as happy.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Sometimes when I am with special people who are full of energy for example, my soul-sister.  I feel a sensation that would resembles a little what I felt in my experience.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? 

      Explain:  These are only words, what I lived that is a sensation, an emotion it is different

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