Jennifer's NDE 3044

It was about 10:30 Sunday night- I was in my backyard with my dog. It was the final potty break of the night.  My husband was inside, he works nights and was supposed to be at work, but took this day off.  After being outside for a few seconds I heard some rustling in the live oak tree (it was over 200 years old).  I noticed my dog looking up in the tree and I also noticed some of the little branches moving around.  It was dark outside and I got a panicked feeling.  I opened the sliding glass door and yelled for my husband to get a flash light.  A few second later, he came to the door and I repeated that something was in the tree and to get a light.  I shut the door and looked at my dog (a dachshund).  He looked back at me, and then I heard two popping noises.  I realized at that point the tree was going to fall.  At that same point my dog looked up at the tree and I yelled his name.  I ran into the yard, scooped him up and starting running to get between the two houses.  I didn't know which part of the tree was going to fall- I just knew it was going to happen.  As I was running with my dog (granted at this point I only made it a few feet) I heard the terrible noise of the tree breaking.  I repeated to myself with fear- I've got to get between the houses.  At that point- about 6 feet from my goal- it happened.  I was hit by a portion of the tree.  I felt several things at once.  But the first thing I felt and saw when the tree hit my side was being in the middle of a bright light.  It was around me and the edges were yellow and red.  At that moment I felt the presence of my granny and my grandpa and felt that they were there with me.  I felt that they moved me to where I wouldn't be directly hit by the tree- like they saved me.  I then thought "wow, there really is a white light" and "this isn't how I'm supposed to die-I've got too many things to do".  It's as if time stood still b/c when I was back in my life, I saw the remaining part of the tree fall, hit the swing, and I watched it continue to fall on me.  The actions were freeze framed, piece by piece- but my thoughts moved so fast.  All the sounds and smells was frozen as each section moved.  Once it all fell, all I heard was crickets and I remember looking at the sky feeling panic and pain- wondering if I was dying and all the things I would leave.  My husband came out and found me under the massive tree limb.  I could hardly speak- was getting cold and sweating.  I whispered to him after I asked him to call 911- where is Lucky?  (my dog)  I thought he was crushed.  My husband called for him and he emerged, unharmed, from the side of the house.  I had further experiences in the ambulance and at the hospital.  I can further explain.  I will say that while at the hospital being wheeled into surgery- I made an effort to look at myself in the mirrors that cornered the walls.  It was it I said good-bye and wanted to see if I looked how I knew I did.  Dead.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     It was difficult to find the words to explain the intense, complicated feelings.  Words seem to dumb the experience down.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Yes-I was hit by a 65 foot live oak limb in my back yard. I suffered internal injuries, bleeding and superficial lacerations.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    The moment of impact with the tree limb.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            The moment of impact with the tree limb.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Everything was heightened beyond anything I ever experienced.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     I noticed the crickets and the piercing silence.  I've never just noticed and focused on that before.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Calm that there is more than what we live, fear of unknown, fear of leaving without saying good-bye, love from my deceased relatives.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I was in the light- it surrounded me- but I didn't move into a tunnel.

Did you see a light?           Yes     All I saw was a bright light- it surrounded me and it had yellow and red ridges that spiked.  It was similar to when you look at the sun and the different colors move around.  There were a few differences, but mainly- it was around me- as if it was a part of me.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I did not physically see anyone- but I felt and knew my granny and grandpa were there.  I felt their spirits with mine.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     After the experience when I was on the ground waiting for help to arrive- I thought of all the things I did wrong in life and disappointing others if I died.  Unresolved issues left me feeling panicked.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes            I felt a more aware, separate existence.  It was a division between my life and the experience I was in.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time seemed to stop, but my mind continued and my senses were heightened.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Things are coming back to me slowly- it all made sense at the time.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I have tried talking about it with others- very few people- but they don't understand.  They don't seem to comprehend the difference between before the accident- the experience- any my life since then.  They seem to put a simplistic explanation.  I wish to talk about it more and understand it more.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    The experience was real- I wonder how real this life is now.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Seeing the light and confirming it does exist, feeling my relatives with me, seeing myself in the mirrors at the hospital, holding on and not letting myself sleep in the CT scan.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I wish I could bottle the experience- I'm scared the feeling will fade with time.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I have more meaningful relationships and cut out the crap of those that are not meaningful.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I have more to say- but would rather say it.  What I wrote was exactly how it was.