Jen V NDE-Like

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was slowly aware of a light ahead of me.  I seemed to be pulled along toward it.  There were stairs in front of me but I wasn't aware of using them...they were just there.  Along the sides of me were other people who were in the darkness that were trying to climb up but couldn't and seemed stuck in a huge mass of themselves.  All things that happened next seemed to happen all at once, or in very fast succession.  I came into the light.  The light was so brilliant but not warm nor cold.  It was almost as if it consumed me.  A feeling of Love so powerful and consuming, washed over me.  It was so potent that you could almost reach out and touch it. 

A group of people came toward me with warm greetings.  They spoke to me with thought and I knew they were like me but I could not focus on facial features.  They were to, consumed by the light and it spread from each of them.  As I was aware of them welcoming me, I was also then aware that there seemed to be some confusion that I shouldn't be there and was told it was not my time and that I should return to finish my life's work.  There was no negativity about it but a comforting gesture to return, that I was there by accident.  During those moments I had looked into the distance and realized that it was so beautiful, colors were so vibrant, my senses were so alive.  I had a sense that all knowledge that was to be had, was there for my knowing if I so chose.  That is when I understood that I would have two boys in my lifetime and they would be some years apart.  I also knew that I would have a rough life for some time but would find someone/something that would enrich myself for the rest of my years.  It was also made known that toward my latter years I would make a huge difference of some kind in the world. 

Almost as soon as it began it was ending.  Those that had welcomed me were gently moving me back toward the darkness.  I was told that in time I would visit again and to be vigilant in my life.  I went backward into the darkness and saw the people on either side of me pulling at each other and trying to find the light.  And the next thing I was aware of was waking from my bed and having that feeling of Love burning in my chest.  I was saddened by having to return but knew there was more of my life to live.  To this day, some 16 years later; I can feel that Love and I have an overpowering sense that there is something great to come and to be watchful and vigilant.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     There are not words to describe completely and fully what I experienced.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I was told that it was not my time and I should return.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            When I was told that it was not my time and I should return.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     It was as if I could see everything.  There were no limits to what I could see if I chose to.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     Same as my sight.  I could hear all that there was to hear if I chose to hear it.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Indescribable peace and love.  The feeling of love was so potent that it consumed me.  It has stayed with me all the years, it was so strong.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     I'm not sure if you could describe it as a tunnel but it was a darkness that lead me toward a light.  Once I came upon the light it was as if I passed through it and there was no more darkness.

Did you see a light?           Yes     I saw a soft, brilliant and encouraging light.  It was so intense and permeated my self and everything around it.  It was not a blinding light but a consuming light.  It was very easy on my sight.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     When I passed through the light I was greeted by others like me.  I can not say that I recognized them but they knew me.  They were happy to see me and we communicated these feelings without words.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Knowledge was there for the knowing.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            I understood that my life was not finished and I was to have children, two in fact both boys and I was even aware of the age gap between the two.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      I am capable of being very empathetic to everyone I encounter.  It is as if I can feel what they are feeling.  No words need be spoken as I just know what they are feeling and how to make them feel better.  I also have an uncanny ability to know what happens next and have sometimes predicted what would happen in the future...all has come true.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     After the experience it took me nearly 10 years to be able to talk about it without getting emotional.  I have only shared my story with 3 people.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No       I grew up with only my father, mother and sister.  Grandparents were not part of my life and so I had never known anyone to die.  I was sheltered from most forms of media too, so there was never a time that I had been exposed to such things.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real   

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     It helped me to realize that we are all the same and that death is not an ending but a transition to something much more fulfilling.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I often wonder, why me?

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes