Janet S's NDE

Experience description: 

I had been having some chest pain and took a nitro tablet. It helped and I decided to lie down on my bed and rest.  As I was lying there, I was thinking about having left work early and how I should be there getting things done before I left for the weekend. 

Suddenly my heart started to do what I can only describe as a "shudder." I started to call out to my daughter when my heart stopped.  I suddenly realized that EVERYTHING had stopped.  There was no sound, no movement, nothing.  I was standing there taking in this fact, when I looked down & saw my body on the bed.  I thought "oh, I'm dead" like it was a completely ordinary thing.  Then I remember thinking, "I wonder if the rain stopped too", so I went through the wall & looked around outside.  The rain had not just stopped, the raindrops were suspended in mid-air. It was the most awesome sight I'd ever seen.  I remember moving around looking at different drops and I found one that was quite large, so I was looking at it closely and was about to touch it when it started to fall. At that same instant I was back on the bed. My heart was beating again and I felt so happy, & realized I was grinning from ear to ear.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain, had taken a nitro tablet

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

the awe I felt and the feeling of bliss or absolute happiness, but more than that

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

my heart stopped

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I felt fully conscious and more alert then normal.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   not like any dream I've ever had

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I don't recall my appearance or form, I just was.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           there were no sounds or noises at all, which amazed me

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No

Did you see a light?           No

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

I felt that time had either stopped or didn't exist

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I started seeing flashes of things, people, events.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I feel more in control & accepted a promotion that I had already decided not to accept.  I had previously been very reserved with my emotions in any relationship, and now find myself openly showing and expressing how much I care for the people in my life, including a new relationship with a man.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain

The "visions" are disturbing and I'm not sleeping well.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

The person I shared this experience with related that he had a similar experience several years ago and that he had to get counseling to get over it.  He was very supportive & encouraged me to talk about it.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  happiness & wonder

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      the worst part was how it frightened my daughter.  The best part was the feeling of peace and happiness it gave me.