Jamin A's Experience
Experience description:
On the other hand, the power of the images and feelings of the first part (hill, road, door) and the weight that they had and still have on my life convince me that it was a rather uncommon “real dream”. I chose to come back, I don’t know what motivated that choice…
This “dream” has transformed me – radical change of interests, development of new talents – and the images are still within me, they come back from time to time.
Today, I have the feeling that this turning point event has a great hold over my life, over my sense of priorities.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: Uncertain.
Explanation: Resuscitation from coma level 3, and at the hospital coma level 2 and 1.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes.
What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate? The power of the “dream” and the sensations felt.
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I was unconscious.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes, absolutely, but an uncommon dream of incredible power that I can sense as a “reality” or some kind of concrete images hardly describable.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes.
Describe your appearance or form apart from your body: I saw myself walking on the road, the hill.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Feelings of warmth, well-being; I was in a contemplative state, bewitched…
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Just wind. I don’t remember any other sound.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain.
Describe: The “Arabian/Andalusian” door was obviously there… and I was going toward it; but I repeat it, I’m not certain that what I saw behind the door is not an interpretation that came up after the experience. The images are also there but they do not have as much weight as my walk toward that door.
Did you see a light? Uncertain.
Describe: There was much light, warmth, many vivid colors on the way to that door. But ONE particular light … I don’t think so.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Uncertain.
Describe: Unfortunately, I don’t remember.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes.
Describe: The hill and the door were extraordinary beautiful.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes.
Describe: No sense of time; the space was imposing, immense, I wasn’t seeing any limit.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain.
Describe: At the moment, no. But the more I link my evolution, my urge to do creative works and my drastic change of mentality with this “dream”, the more I think that at this particular time I had access to some uncommon knowledge.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes.
Describe: The Arabian/Andalusian door represented a transition.
Did you become aware of future events? No.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Uncertain.
Describe: “I chose to come back, I don’t know what motivated that choice…”, but I know that I did decide to do so, that’s all.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes.
Describe: Mostly gifts related to an artistic sensitivity that manifested at that time.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes.
Describe: I wasn’t the same… I did not have this urge to create and did not believe as much in Love and sensitivity.
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices?
- Religious practices: nothing; I’m not baptised and I’m still an atheist.
- Ordinary life: I don’t know, I was a child at that time.
- Relationships: it changed many things regarding my “humanity” and sensitivity.
- Career choice: it changed everything (artistic development).
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes.
Describe: I talked about it with my parents and doctors but not so often with my friends. And it is the first time that I really wish to talk more about it. Reactions: my father helped me to forget, my mother helped me to understand, psychiatrists and healers, met afterward, helped me to transcribe and channel this “dream”.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
I don’t precisely remember; moments of fear, well-being, trust, lots of various emotions related to this experience … but those which remain from the experience today are warm and reassuring.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best: this “dream” image that transformed me and that is always present. The worst: the accident!! But there isn’t any “worst” part about the experience per se.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Everything has been written down when I came out from the coma; what I am stating today is only what I have been keeping to myself for 18 years…
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes.
Describe: I’ve mentioned that previously… it changed in the sense that I have the feeling that I know where to go.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain.
Describe: I never had any similar experiences, except at a party. I was a teenager and I had had too much alcohol and cannabis; I was “gone” and felt a similar dizziness, but it had nothing to do at all with the power of the “dream”… I frequently have timeless dreams (without medication or substances) in which I travel wide spaces.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain.
Explain: The questions are helpful, but it is still hard to describe the nature, the persistence of that “dream”.
Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire? The questionnaire is complete, no particular suggestion.