James B's NDE

Experience description: 

      While stopped in the breakdown lane due to engine failure, I was rear ended by a car doing 65 mph. The left rear wheel was pushed up against the backside of the drivers seat, the vehicle was pushed over 50 yards and across the three northbound lanes of traffic into a concrete jersey barrier.  A registered nurse was two cars behind, and when she checked me for a pulse/respirations, she found none, so she moved on to the next vehicle.  Approx. 4.5 minutes later I crawled through the passenger window and walked across the lanes of traffic.

I remember being drawn toward a warm and lighted place, and thoughts and ideas were being imparted to me as though people were talking to me, yet there were no faces.  I felt safe and secure as I progressed toward the light~ then, as though I was being yanked back on a bungee cord, I was pulled backwards into total darkness, and I knew that I was scared, naked, and cold.  I ran, but I did not know what I was running from.  I ran off the end of a cliff or precipice of some sort, and as I fell it became more light and I began to develop panoramic eyesight like a raptor.  As I fell further, I finally took flight, and I saw far below me the body of a Native American woman lying face down in the dirt.  I flew down to her, rolled her over, and a great white bird rose out of her body and flew away, and I then went to ashes, much like the Phoenix. For years (every night), this experience manifested itself as a dream, and I was forced to relive it over and over again to the point where I was afraid to sleep.  Years later, as I was about to begin a new college class, the professor walked in~looked at me~I looked at her~and she motioned for me to follow her into the hallway. I recognized her and she recognized me.  She then began to recount to me the details of my experience when I died in vivid detail.  As it turns out, she is Native American (Mohawk), and is known as Snowy Owl Woman (great white bird).  Since then, she has been my mentor, my shaman teacher, and my connection to the Shadow World.  I have mixed my blood with hers, and I am known in the clan as Kahrhokon: ha (Old Hawk)~ I now follow the ways of the ancients, walk the Medicine Circle, and journey often to the Shadow World in behalf of others~ helping them to understand the journey of death, and to dispel in others the linear nature of fear of death, and instill the faith that what lies ahead is a Sacred Path for all. 

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  No human language can express the essence of the experience.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  No 

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I was clinically dead, but very conscious and alert as to all that was going on in the other side experience.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Yes~ but not in the sense that I now experience dreams~ for now I dream the lucid dreams of the Dreamwalker.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  See body of experience

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Warmth, joy, elation, safety, fear, terror, loss of control, emptiness

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  NO 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  Both going towards the light, as well as being yanked back by some force. 

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  Hard to find words to describe it~ it wasn't blinding, yet it possessed a warmth that almost imbued it with knowledge or wisdom. 

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  See body of experience. 

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No 

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  The entire experience was recounted to me by my professor/mentor 4 years later. 

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  But only while in the presence of the light/aura~ it was as though I had all the answers to all the questions that have/do/and will exist. 

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

      Describe:  Only yes, if you consider the cliff which I fell over as being a boundary of sorts.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I know danger before it happens~ I have to be hyper vigilant not to say anything to others to interrupt the cycle~ for me the danger is of no consequence, for I don't fear the outcome of facing the danger. 

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes, my approach to life is a bit cavalier, I don't worry about money, what others think, I fear very little, I seek risk at every opportunity. 

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I remain fairly sequestered from society at large.  My daily routine is one of ceremony/playing the flute/connecting with the Earth Mother, counseling others about their fears of death and life's pitfalls, etc. 

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Very few, most envision NDE as some sort of paranormal 'thing' and react very strangely to the story.  Besides, how do you find words to fully explain what happened and to impart to them to not 'sweat the small stuff, and it's all small stuff'  Only other NDE people understand, and we recognize each other with no words exchanged. 

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  At first~ constant fear because it upset the fundamentals of linear Judeo~Christianity ~ but now I find that it gives me complete catharsis from any worry or concern~ I don't have to spend my life wondering what comes after~ I already know.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Hmmmmm~ I'll leave this one blank.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  NO 

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Now~ every day is a holiday, every meal is a feast.  When people ask me how I am~ instead of saying "Fine or OK or so-so or Thank God it's Friday, I can say ,"I'm finer than frog hair split four ways, or If I was any better, I'd have to be twins to enjoy it anymore.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

      Explain:  Come on~ a yes answer is self explanatory!