Jacqueline H NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was eating breakfast with my then husband. We were talking and laughing, when a piece of biscuit got caught in my throat.  I couldn't breathe.  There was no pain, but I was scared not being to breathe.  I remember gasping for air, and then everything went grey.  A light grey everywhere.  It was slowly getting darker, and darker, going from the grey to almost black. I heard a voice, or a muffled sound I thought was a voice that said, "We are not ready. not yet".  At that point it started getting lighter and lighter, and woke up with my husband sitting in front of me with tears in his eyes. His mother was behind me pounding on my back.  I gasped for a breath of air, and yelled at her to stop. I then said to my mother in law and husband, "It doesn't hurt. Dying doesn't hurt".  They both backed away from me, and had looks in their eyes like they didn't understand what I was saying.  We never spoke about it again.  I have never told anyone about my experience, only because I don't think they would believe me.  I am not afraid.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    While I was choking.  Everything was crystal clear, but I was afraid.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            While I was choking.  Everything was crystal clear, but I was afraid.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I was like having all the cobwebs blown out of your head. The grey was clear, and going forward toward the black was crystal clear. Nothing else was in my mind.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     There was no noise, except for the voice that talked to me.  It seems clear, but distant.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            There was fear while I was chocking, but as the grey entered my mind I felt no fear, almost peacefulness.  I did feel all alone, no one was there.  I saw no one.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain     

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I was having problems in my marriage at the time, nothing earth shattering, just plain marriage problems.  When I started to go towards the grey, I felt like I had no more problems.  So peaceful, and quiet, like if I spoke I would be heard.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I felt a void of what I was used to.  No sound, no light,  no confusion, none of the clutter that is in everyone's life.  So peaceful, quiet, a floating sensation of the brain.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I divorce my husband, and remarried some 10 years later.  I had to much clutter and crap in my life, and that experience made me feel like I needed to get rid of it.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I really wanted to stress how my life seemed so full of crap.  Stuff that wasn't important and just clutter, my brain.  Like it was full of old dust and cobwebs, like the attic of a house.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes