Hellen C's Probable NDE

I had been ill for two days and the doctor had misjudged the seriousness of my disease. When on the second day my son arrived, I could just crawl up the stairs and lie upon my bed. Once on the bed, I felt like sinking further away. The huge pain disappeared, as did the concerns and anxiety. The only thing that remained was a feeling of peace. I floated through something towards a light. The feeling there was lovely! Peace, affection and an intense feeling of love. No stress, anxiety, worries or battle. I stood before three men who sent me back; behind them was a friend of mine who had passed away. I couldn’t reach her. I got woken up, as what seemed to be several hours later, by my son. Only when I could see the panic in his eyes I realized that I was dying and something had to happen.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    The experiences are hard to put into words as there are really no words for the feelings I had. This is the same for the environment that I encountered, there’s just no earthly comparison to it.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    severely ill, stomach infection.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?  More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        The earthly way of looking at things subsides. In that way, it seems as if you have an objective and much bigger look on reality than you normally do.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?            Uncertain    

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?          Uncertain    

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Love, happiness

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        Uncertain I floated through something, but whether that was a tunnel isn’t clear.  

Did you see a light?         Yes    a very clear, all ecompassing light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    Three men who stood before me and who sent me back. Behing them stood a friend of mine who passed away a couple of years ago.  

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Uncertain    

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          Uncertain    

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes.   My regular sense of time was gone, or so it seemed. My experience only lasted a very short time, but afterwards I was informed that I was out for a period of about two hours.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    Kind of a spiritual overview.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes    The men seemed to form a border which I couldn’t pass.

Did you become aware of future events?    Yes           It seemed as if I’ve gotten a task. Until now it isn’t clear whether my interpretation of this task is correct.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Yes    Stronger sensitivity although this was already present before.

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    6 weeks.

Reactions seem to remain shallow, I notice I can’t describe the intense feelings I had.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes    as a therapist I had theoretic knowledge of the NDE and what the consequences of it may be on your life.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real.     Something in me has changed. I used to have a very positive attitude and joie de vivre. Now I have difficulties enjoying everything again. And this while every reason to be happy is present.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real        

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?              Yes    I notice I react less stable to other peoples emotions.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain     Too little time has lapsed to judge my view. At this moment I have enough difficulties living life as it is.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No         

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?             wWhat I miss in a lot of experiences and stories on the net is the effect on your daily life. I suffer from somekind of depression, of which I can’t find much in other stories. Until now, I can’t be happy with the experience.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes    concerning the experience itself, not concerning the consequences of it.