Helen D NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was at the beach with some of my siblings and my stepfather.  It was closer to sundown or a very cloudy day I think. The beach was close to deserted I think.

My father had gotten a black rubber /tube tire with a rope attached for us to use in the water,

None of us could swim father included. very irresponsible when you look back on it a but par for the course.

I got a turn on the tire. My sister was begging me to get off for a turn. I finally conceded and got off. I hadn't realized how much I had drifted. I was in too deep and my feet didn't touch the round. I continued to get sucked out further by waves

I began to panic. I knew no one could swim, I hadn't seen other swimmers around,

there were no cell phones in the 70's,my father was deaf and could not get /call for help.

I knew I was going to drown, I remember choking on water, getting tired keeping myself up, the cold water, the waves, the taste of salt.

see below for in between experience.

Finally I felt an arm around my waist, I slammed back into my body forcefully,

felt the cold, salt, and motion of the water again. He was a powerful swimmer. I was deposited onto the beach blanket trying to process what just happened everyone asking me if I was ok.. To this day I don't know where he came from.

I did not need mouth to mouth.

on the way home. I asked to pull over and I vomited tons and tons of water. (no he didn't take me to the hospital - once again very irresponsible.)

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     It is hard to describe the feeling of overwhelming peace. earthly words don't cover it.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain            death by drowning. If you  mean prior to this incident. My entire life up until drowning at 9 years old was traumatic and remained so until my early 20s

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I would say I felt very much alert and conscious of things around me.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I would say I felt very much alert and conscious of things around me.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      everything was kind of white boiling cloudlike then most communication occurred by mind. I had led a very internal life prior to this even at 9 years old.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     heard inside my head. heard loud you must go back your mission in life is not over.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            at first, I felt panic at first, questions about how this would impact my siblings, my father going home to tell my mother she had one less child, worried for my disabled twin sisters who have autism to name a few disabilities, knowing I'd be leaving them to fend for themselves, I was a big protector of them in my chaotic dysfunctional home. 

I was reassured telepathically of sorts that they will be fine. everything has a purpose, It was only after that that I could move on to my curiosity.

followed by immense peace/warmth calmness.

then resentment at having to go back

resignation at my fate

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I didn't see them. they felt both unfamiliar yet felt like I knew them somehow. I didn't know anybody who had already died.

I had many questions after my initial panic had subsided.

I wanted to know how the world worked, was made, what was our purpose in life, why we are on this earth , how did we come to be here, what was the right religion.

They tried to slow me down, they said they couldn't answer everything for me at this time, they said to try to explain would be difficult/beyond us as what we humans think is only a ant-like piece of what it all is/means.\

They did answer the religion question. To me they said there is no right or wrong religion. it is what is in your heart that counts.

they also said Our purpose on this earth is to love.

after my review they told me I had to go back my mission in life was not complete. I had to be convinced and reassured I would come back someday. I did not want to return to my awful life.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     I did have some things pass by. I had only lived 9 years. I don't remember what I was shown. I wish I did because I think it was important. It was not so much what I was shown but how I felt about what I was being shown that was important.

I learned that love is the purpose on earth (but sometimes hard to do.)

I hope I am fulfilling my mission in life, I feel that they told me what it is but I don't remember and I think they wanted it that way.

 although I may fear the method of my death I know that fear is only temporary,

I am not fearful of death itself, and don't wish to die at this time but know it will be a pleasant experience and more awaits us.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     Time felt different. I know it was only minutes in the water but it felt like a lifetime.

felt like there was levels.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     see above

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     see above

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No
           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     have had both psychic experiences when someone will die (they did), is pregnant, (they were) the baby's sex, (correct) the baby's name, (correct) and when he will die. (remains to be seen).  intuition with relatives health issues. (right on) 

body scanning for illness in others some verified.. some were strangers who I did not verify with.  have also had shared visions with 2 others of a spiritual nature.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Its funny I don't remember who the man was who saved me from the beach, how he came to be there,

due to the trauma of my childhood itself I do not remember a lot of things.

I don't remember if I told anyone about my experience right after. I feel I did somewhat to my sibs and got weird reactions so I shut up.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    don't remember right after. I probably got flack for losing the tire.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            well I felt better having the answer about religion. I don't have to struggle to see which one is correct.

the purpose of life seems really simple on the surface.

good to know death is not the end. I am grateful for this pretty standout experience.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    It is very clear and stand out in my mind as a significant life experience.  No matter what I hear about brain releasing chemicals /endorphins in the death process.  I don't believe it.  It's real and those who have been through it know that too.  I cannot be convinced otherwise.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     have had trauma based OBE.           

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes