I had had two dreams
prior to this event where my mother and my friends were packing a suitcase and
telling me I had to go to the hospital or I would die.
It turned out I needed
a hysterectomy. My blood volume was low and going into surgery, I didn't feel
fear, just tired and worn out.
During surgery,
apparently, I remember leaving my body, and flying out of the room, down the
halls and around corners. I then flew through the glass double doors in the
entryway, and around the outside of the brick hospital building, gaining
altitude as I flew. As I got up near the clouds, the street lights from below
made them glow a pinkish color. I saw what looked to be thousands of angels,
all in flowing robes or gowns, flying in the same direction. I struggled to
"catch up" with an angel to my right. Just as I had just about come up even
with her, she smiled this gentle smile, and shook her head in a negative
manner. I immediately dropped, waking up in my body. My body felt as though it
was jolted with shock. My doctor was standing near the foot of the bed, looking
very pale and shaken.
He told me that they had nearly lost me, indicating seven needle marks on my
chest where they had injected me with adrenalin to jump start my heart and
lungs.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes I had to have a hysterectomy as I was trying to hemorrhage. My blood
volume dropped so low during surgery that my heart and lungs could not function.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
Even though I was physically unconscious, I felt very alive and intent on where
I was going.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
Even though I was physically unconscious, I felt very alive and intent on where
I was going.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I passed through the doors and as I flew down the halls and around
corners, I knew I was flying, not walking or running. I knew the doors were
solid, but I had no concern about the fact that I was passing through them.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Uncertain I don't remember "hearing" anything.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
As I was leaving my body, a sense of urgency. As I passed through
the closed doors of the surgery and started flying down the halls, around
corners, a sense of exhilaration and anticipation of something wonderful. There
was such a thrill of excitement!
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
Uncertain The only light I saw was the glow of the pinkish street lights
from down below reflecting off the clouds above us.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes There were "thousands" of angels, all flying in the same direction,
below the clouds. When I tried to catch up with the closest angel, she didn't
speak, just shook her head "no" with a gentle smile. I was so disappointed but
I knew it was right.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain Time wasn't an issue for me. But for the angel that "sent" me
back, it must have been.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes Just that as much as I was ready to join those angels, it was not
my time to do so.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain If the boundary was entry to heaven, then I was gently and
lovingly sent back to my body. It was evident by the angels' smile, even though
I didn't "hear" her say it, her response was "not yet".
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes It was a couple of weeks after the surgery that I told my mom and one of
my sisters about it. They wondered why it wasn't the "tunnel/bright light"
experience but they knew, because I had told them of the two dreams prior to
this event, and previous other experiences, some of them shared with me, that
this had really happened. My mom had a "feeling" that something was seriously
wrong with my health. We (my family) all have had experiences with ESP.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes Read about it, believed it, but never expected to experience it.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I knew it was real but I was sort of
confused. I didn't see the tunnel/bright light but I knew it was appropriate
that I was trying to catch up with those angels. But as I read up even more
about NDE's, I never saw similar reports, making me wonder how I could feel it
was real even though no one else had ever experienced it like I did.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Throughout the whole thing, from the dreams to the NDE, I knew that the Lord was
directing and protecting me through it all. I understood, without anything
being said, that I had more to do yet down here on earth. I knew, going into
the surgery, a sense of peace but no fear, despite the dreams about dying. God
is AWESOME.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I know it really happened. I have a good
imagination, but not that good. I feel sort of weird that I wanted to fly with
angels, but I know I was trying to take my place with them. What exactly that
"place" is, I'm not sure. And the things I've experienced in my life since
then, convinces me even more that I wasn't done down here yet. I am currently
raising my two granddaughters, 4 and 5 yrs old. The 4yr old has cerebral palsy
and the 5yr old has emotional problems. Shortly after that incident, I bought a
house that had black mold throughout. I have never smoked but now have asthma,
emphysema, and allergies. I have told many people about my house, only to find
people who learned of it had life changing experiences of their own because of
the knowledge I had passed on to them. One man I worked with (and his wife) had
been alcoholics for twenty years. He was in my office one afternoon and I told
him about my house and how there were studies that showed that Sudden Infant
Death could be a direct result of mold exposure. The man yelled at me, "Brenda,
you don't know what you just did for me!" With tears running down his face, he
told me of how he and his wife had had a 3 week old son die twenty years
before. He sobbed, "We didn't kill our baby!" I was shocked and told him of
course he didn't. He jumped out of the chair and started for the door. I asked
where he was going and he said home to tell his wife that they didn't kill their
baby. Three days later, he was cutting through the hallway and passed by my
office. For the first time in 12 yrs, I saw that man smiling, his blue eyes
twinkling. No more alcohol. So many people seem to have benefited from hearing
about my house. So many things have happened since to make me know that's why I
had to come back.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Yes. I'm more open to talking about some experiences with people when I am sort
of "prompted" to.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes It was abit more simple to describe than the usual NDE's.
